Good night note

Yesterday, kevin ada call dalam pukul 1 pagi...

Masa tu saya dah tidur. Tapi bila dengar dia excited nak cerita tentang krismas kat sana saya pun layan dia bercerita. sampai kena bangun minum air sebab tahan mengantuk. dia cerita tentang apa yang mummy dia masakkan dan siapa yang ada kat rumah dia. Apa yang mereka buat. Hadiah apa yang dia dapat. Then lepas tu juga saya tanya dia kenapa dia call saya sedangkan dia ada family yang tengah happy celebrate krismas. He should join them. Tapi dia jawab yang mereka semua tengah minum...minum alkohol. Jadi dia cuba elakkan diri dari minum dengan call saya.

Then i asked him, how are you going to avoid those things another time?

Dia kata dia akan cuba. And he has not drink for almost a year already.

I have to believe in him.

I dont know how hard it is to quit drinking. But people can change for better.

Just now when i spring cleaning my e-mail. hate junk email. saya jumpa satu email yang my dad hantar untuk saya few years ago...masa saya cakap dengan dia saya tak akan percaya lelaki lagi (Masa tu tengah frust ok)

It goes like this

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two


Thanks papa. At least i can sleep well tonight to read that... Good night..