That little girl

The other day I asked Jen if I could take Clara jalan-jalan pergi playground dekat rumah kami. Jen izinkan. And after that I was thinking it would be more fun if I ask kevin to tag along with us. I knew that kevin was busy with his assignment and what not but I just tried my luck. So I called kevin dan terkejut jugak sebab he immediately said yes. Kevin met clara few times bila kevin singgah rumah ambil saya atau hantar food or something, kalau clara ada main-main kat luar he said hye to her. Kevin does not have any younger sister as he is the youngest, so he is quite excited kalau nampak budak-budak kecil.

Kevin came and parked the car infront of my house and we walked to the playground. Clara looked so happy. She kept laughing and smiling and asking everything she saw. She showed her curious face when she something yang dia tak tahu. So cute the face kan rasa macam nak cubit-cubit je pipi dia. I remember the same when my sister noni was small. Sekarang noni dah besar so tak boleh lah nak cubit-cubit pipi dia lagi.

We sat on the park bench and clara main lari-lari then after that kevin bawak clara main gelongsor dan jongkang jongkit. I bought ice cream for her. All went so perfect until I could not forget the moment. The time was full with love. I have all my heart with clara now. I don’t know how I fell in love with the kid. But she just so adorable. Maybe because of her sad story in the family, or maybe she is a special kid. I don’t know. I told kevin that I love clara so much. Kevin said he could see it in my eyes….awe !..

Last night, I went to a friend’s CNY open house. I wnet there with Yaya at about 7 something and came back at about 10pm. When we entered the house we could see Jen’s husband’s car parked in front of the gate. We heard loud noise came from the house. Macam biasa, mereka bergaduh. We looked at each other then yaya tarik saya masuk sebab dia tak nak saya pergi rumah Jen dan masuk campur hal mereka. Because I almost did.

But about 20 minutes later I heard Clara crying loudly. And I suddenly ran out to see. It was my immediate reaction as I heard Clara. I just could not see if anything happened to her. I saw Jen and her husband gaduh depan rumah. then clara left behind in the house. Pada masa tu, saya macam serba salah sangat. Nak teruk ambil Clara takut juga dengan husband Jen, nanti apa kata dia. About jen, saya tak kisah, Cuma dengan husband dia saya tak biasa. I cried in my heart bila nampak clara crying and sobbing in the house. I could see it. How could I ignore it. It was so sad when clara looked at me. Macam nak minta saya pergi ambil dia. Sedih gile. But yaya in the house suruh saya step back sebab itu masalah keluarga dia saya tak boleh masuk campur.

I went back to my room and cried until I felt asleep. This morning I did not see them. Jen did not reply to my message.
I miss Clara so much now.