Wrong timing

Great great great. God is testing me.
Tak sangka this time around exam betul-betul mencabar. I got fever, flu, cough, tonsilitis. Been 4th day already tapi masih tak baik. I went to the clinic but what is the usage of MC kalau tengah exam. Study pun rasa macam pasrah sajalah. Semoga semua yang didengar dalam kuliah tu masih ada dalam kepala.3 paper dah selamat. Masih ada several paper lagi. harap dapat survive lah.

I actually is having some argument with kevin. I argued at the wrong time agaknya. All about what I heard from Stella. Saya tersilap tanya dan kevin macam tak nak berterus terang. So saya marah sebab I have the right to know. To know my status. Kevin said that to leave all to him to settle but I don’t like the idea, I prefer the idea of sharing. I like to share everything, good and bad. Tapi kevin lebih kepada nak menanggung semuanya sendiri tak nak menyusahkan saya which is wrong. Kevin told to forget about this first until we finish our exam. I said fine and I don’t want to talk to him until our exam habis. So childish I kan. Bila sakit tak dapat lah nak bagitahu dan mengadu. Salah sendiri. But he still text me to tanya khabar even I tak reply dah 2 hari. Best kan i.

Exam will gonna be in two weeks time lagi. then after that cuti. Horeh horeh ! But to kevin, he has completed his study here. And he is not gonna be appearing here anymore. I’ll be missing him around for sure. I will have no one anymore to say hye hye dari jauh, to accompany me kat café bila ada free time, to study with me at the library, and tumpangkan I balik rumah, ke dewan yang jauh, hantarkan makanan la bla bla bla. Oh godddd….
So much of kevin kevin kevin for me these 2 years. How im gonna survive alone next sem.

Okey now, I really miss you kev. Hope you are doing well in your exam, dear. It is always my fault kalau kita bergaduh. I know I am over emo. But you always love me and care about me..

Tsk =,(