6pm
Kevin : Hello sayang
Me : Hello kev. where are you?
Kevin : Kat rumah. You kat luar? I mengganggu ke?
Me : Tak ada lah. Kat rumah ni.
Kevin : Kata nak keluar hari ni?
Me : Tak jadi lah, hujan lebat. Nanti sangkut jem.
Kevin : Ok... i miss you so much sebab tu i call
Me : Miss you too... How's your preparation? Sorry selalu lupa nak tanya pasal ni.
Kevin : I'm not in the mood.
Me : Why?
Kevin : Tak tahu lah...
Me : Don't say that you want to give it up.
Kevin : No.. no. I just feel that it's hard. To leave you.
Me : We have discussed about this kann... i'm gonna be fine. The most important thing is you. You yang pergi jauh. I should be worrying about you.
Kevin : True...tapi i lelaki. I know myself. I risaukan u.
Me : If i say i don't want you to go pun, you mesti nak pergi juga kan?
Kevin : I'm doing this for us.
Me : No. You are doing this for your family.
Kevin : Why do you say that?
Me : I know kev. You tak perlu explain, i tahu.
Kevin : You tahu apa? Tell me..
Me : Siapa yang nak sangat you pergi study oversea. It is out of sudden. sebelum ni you pun tak pernah cakap nak further study kan tapi semua ni tiba-tiba je.
*silent
Kevin : Okey, please give me only 2 years.
Me : Sure. I dah cakap, you pergi je. i'll be ok.
Kevin : Tapi i tahu you tak suka i pergi kan ?
Me : I tak cakap i tak suka, kev
Kevin : But i don't have your support here.
Me : Okey, i'm sorry i did not show you my support. Fine, i mengakulah i tak suka you pergi. but i'm not a small kid. i tak boleh nak nangis-nangis nak tahan you...you should understand me.
Kevin : I faham you. sebab tu rasa macam berat hati je
Me : Nevermind. Prove to your mum that you are serious about your study. And you still care about them. It's not all about me ok. I know that they don't like me.
Kevin : Please don't say like that. They never say that.
Me : I'm 22, i'm not 12. Of course i can smell things.
Kevin : its too early to judge everything. Don't worry too much. I'll work it out.
Me : It's not gonna be easy.
Kevin : But we will be fine. Just fine.
Me : How sure are you?
Kevin : 150%. I appreciate you. I tak main-main.
Me : Kita boleh survive duduk berjauhan?
Kevin : Boleh. Sekarang pun kita survive.
Me : Tapi sakit.
Kevin : Tahu. Sakit. Rindu, lonely. I feel it too.
Rindu.............lonely. Sakit.
Bukan tak rindu. Tapi lagi rindu, lagilah rindu. Sebab tu perlu buat benda lain untuk kurangkan rindu.
Nak share something dengan you all. You know what, stella lah yang bagitahu yang their parents dah tahu lebih kurang pasal kevin and i. The other day, yang kami terserempak dengan abang kevin kat 1B tu, ingat tak? Jangan harap abang dia tak bagitahu mama dia. Mestilah dia bagitahu. Then mama kevin tanya Stella, and she tried to cover it up supaya mama dia tak fikir serius sangat.
Tapi ibu mana tidak panik kalau terasa macam ada something dengan anak dia yang boleh menyebabkan anak dia buat sesuatu seperti menukar agama or lupakan keluarga kerana seorang perempuan. Kalau saya pun, saya panik. And mama dia juga yang beria kemudiannya suruh kevin further study lagi. kalau boleh sejauh mungkin dari sabah. tapi bukan di semenanjung. Saya rasa lah.
Stella told me everything. but this kevin selalu nak simpan rahsia. dia kata semuanya akan okey, semuanya akan okey. sometimes i marah dengan kevin juga. geram sebab rasa macam tak penting dalam hidup dia sebab dia tak melibatkan saya dalam buat keputusan atau tak ceritakan semua masalah pada saya. Alasan, tak nak saya risau, dan dia boleh handle. Gosshhh!! Macam dalam drama. Saya pun masih berharap semua ni adalah drama dan bukan realiti. Kenapa mesti jatuh hati sekaligus rasa macam nak mati.
27 speak up:
Hurm.. Sad story.. Wish u all the best wif kevin..
inilah dugaan dear...tanyalah semua orang, tak semua cinta berlalu dgn indah saja...u pun tahu situasi yg harus u tanggung jika bersama dgn kevin rite??? so, be tough...insyaallah, moga semuanya dipermudahkan coz i love to see u with him :)
u try ur best ye yanna. dont make this as excuses that u shud look at another side ke apa. buat lah sehabis baik, even later if it doesnt work, u can be proud of urself and saying "hey, i have no regret on this. i have given the best out of me"
i rasa i boleh agak, maybe kevin will do his best in this 2 years, give what his mommy wants and later the parents shud follow what he wants pulak. after all, he has follow without much hassle kan. harap2 apa yg i agak ni betol dan menjadi kenyataan. i will always pray for u
Jatuh hati xslh dear, tp tuela salu kita kena tengok hati kita jatuh pada sape..
Tepuk dada, tanya hati&perasaan..
sorry to hear that..harap you tabah..mmg susah kan nak terima kalau one of our family convert ke apa..lagilah ibu..even kdg2 takde la kuat sgt beragama..tapi still terasa pelik..
i know it's hard but it's possible.
hang in there.
huaaaaaaaaaa....sa pun ada rasa cam tu, kenapa jatuh hati mesti rasa nak mati... tapi kuatkan hati yana...insya Allah, akan ada jalan dan penyelesaian semua ni...all the best...
im feel sorry bout u n kevin.i've been followed ur blog since last month.i've covered all ur story from beginning.yes,mmg macam dlm drama ur love story ni.tp ni btol2 punye.bukan cobaan.nampaknya, kisah u n kevin baru saje bermula.inilah masenye korang terpaksa menghadapi cabaran yg sebenarnnye.juz i harap u bersabar ngan dugaan ini.dari family die, dari jarak korang beribu km.mmg seksa.tp ini semua ujian tuhan.semoga u n kevin will be together forever n after.
Babe, hang in there. The moment you're with him, you know its going to be a messy, not smooth relationship because kita berlainan agama n fahaman. Just give him sometime and keep on supporting him. Its normal for his mum / family to reacted that way, we hv to put ourself in their shoes, just give them sometime. Its not an ez thing to do. So Arianna bare with it. He loves u aloooottt even i can feel it. If you sabar, keep on believing that this will work, insya allah. Don't give up please!
mge yg terbaek utk kmu arianna..:))
ko nak tau..
daddy ciput pon convert.. dia ada citer dengan aku, nak bersama dengan mama, amik masa sampai 10 taun kot, tak pon lebih... semua pasal agama.. *nak plak, family daddy memang kuat dengan kristian, mama plak kuat dengan islam...
tapi akhirnya dorang bersama jugak, and dapat anak bernama ciput dan jeppa..
dont wory k.. kalau dah jodoh ko kuat dengan kev, takkan ke mana2 punye.. weols sini semua doakan untuk ko..
hugs...
i think you're doing just fine, babe. seriously. you're younger than me...and to be able to make such a hard decision, dan bertahan dalam keadaan mcm ni, i kagum dgn u.
most girls would've just give up if they're in ur position..plus halangan dr family lg, maybe i would too.but u're not most girls. u're one strong girl, arianna.
and i think kevin loves u as much as u love him too. percaya pd jodoh, and u'll be just fine. u go girl!
i dunno why when i read dis article,,ia tggalkn smthing yg sgt brt dlm hati sya..myb because we r in da sme bot..bila jatuh hati rsa mcm nk mti ;((
macam drama..tp tu la..susah juga kalau fall in love dgn non-muslim..respect kat u coz mampu lagi bertahan..
iA..kalau korg ada jodoh..smpi juga ke jinjang pelamin..
pray the best for both of u..
cerita you sama mcm i..Cuma bezanya i x couple ngan bukan muslim tapi mak dia x suka i dan ex-bf i suka sembunyi dari i yg mak dia x suka i dan akhirnya kami clash sebab dia nak dijodohkan dengan org lain. Paling sedih i tak tau nape mak dia x suka i.. Tapi i doakan you ngan kevin akan ke jinjang pelamin..Be strong yana..
sabarlah yana...klu betul ade jodoh tu sesusah mane pun keadaan,jauh dr pandangan mata pn kalau da d'tentu'n Allah jodoh u ngn kev x'n ke mana.B'doalah semoga semuanya d'permudahkan ye..
sdeynya story u ni, tp u jgnlah risau k, serahkan soal jodoh ni pada Allah. Jgn jadikan prob ni mnjadikan hbungan u n kev suram. I share skit story i ngan u, my mom 2 thun yg lepas, mnentang habis bila i nk khwin dgn hubby i, sbb hubby i tak kaya. i mmg dtg dr fmily yg berada,tp i degil nk hubby i, so kami decide khwin snyap2 yg hnya diketahui my dad n fmilit sbelah lelaki..dah 2 thun dh i n mom x bertemu, cucu dy pun dy tak nk jumpa..tp alhamdulillah, kmi sgt bahagia..well,wlaupun story kita brbeza, tp satu je same, mdpt tentangan n stu je kita kena buat, yakin apabila membuat kputusan dan serahkan pd Allah, insyaallah hubungan diberkati..amin
i suke this line.
Tahu. Sakit. Rindu, lonely. I feel it too.
i paham.
xyahla study jauh2..ntahla..bagus tu bagus gak..sy pon study jauh..tp not in a relationship..wateva it is..i wish he makes the best decision..for both of u! best of luck!
ariana.. hugs~ be strong gurl.
distance doesnt matter la. yg penting hati. like my sis. husband dia before they married left for 3 years pergi UK sambung master. now they are happily married and live in UK. klik blog dia, www.nodie.blogspot.com
simpati...
sedih..kadang-kadang bukan kes convert saja.. yang dah sesama islam pun masih ada ibu yang tidak berkenan dengan pasangan anaknya tu..
whatever it is..
be strong!
Be strong. Yeah !!!
Thanks all
saya dah rasa macam mana sakitnya bila mencintai seseorang, rasa macam nak mati.
lagi cinta tak disukai oleh ramai pihak. ada sahaja benda untuk menjatuhkan semangat untuk bercinta dengan dia.
sakit tapi saya tetap nak, itu bodoh sombong??
cik yana,ni mcm lebeh krg je ngan ape yg i tgh hadapi skang ni..yg pasal further study tu lah...but in my case,i yg nk g study kt aussie tu..my bf mmg support tp at the same time die mcm sdeh kot..tp kekdg die bwat i rs mcm serba salah...i h0pe sgt die akan ok sbb that will make me feel much better...slalu think positive kay...live life to the fullest n enjoy je slagi boleh sbb Allah dh tetap kan sumer..d0akan je he is ur destiny..n eviting will be orite. :) ops byk plak terbebel..sorry..hee
wat's kevin doin for his post-graduate course?
some things can be done locally without the need to go abroad imo.
sedih dgr tp menarik untuk dibaca..be strong..
p/s : once both u get married,it will be a sweet memories to be remember~
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