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Oh..so kind of you to calm me down with your comments.
I agree im not in a good condition now. Not in the good mood. Not in the best situation.
That is why i melalut begitu kan. i'm tired. frust. sick.
Clara is better today. she wants to eat mee sup yang saya masakkan. dia tak nak makan nasi jadi saya masakkan mee sup dengan ayam. she ate 1/4 a bowl but that is super great to me.
Jaga dia since last night and the whole day today. suapkan ubat, mandikan dia dengan air suam. pasangkan astro ceria the whole day untuk dia. saya tak tinggalkan dia walaupun sekejap kecuali untuk mandi, solat dan masak. even solat pun kat sebelah dia sebab dia nak selalu tengok saya ada dekat dia.
I called my mum and told her i want to take clara home..saya kusut fikiran. mama suruh saya calm down dan rileks. i should have to.
I sent clara back to Jen in the evening after she came back from work. I felt kehilangan. again.
Yaya asked me out for dinner as she said i need to eat.
I ate nasi goreng tapi rasa macam nasi kosong je. i ate 1/4 of the plate only and swallowed a glass of orange juice. rasa macam minum air paip.
I want to see doctor tomorrow.