Blessed

Just had my shower and relax a bit before kevin pick me up for dinner. Sempat online sekejap to wish my brother birthday. Iman's birthday today. I wish to be home at this moment. But i am thousands miles away and my family never know that i am here !

Papa kevin still in the same condition. Weak. But he still smile and responds to people. But could not talk much. So we did not talk much so far. I heard they want to take him to IJN in KL. But dont know yet how and when.

Hey, everything went well ok with our first meeting. When we were heading to the ward yesterday, I walked behind kevin and he has to pull my hand to walk a bit faster. Rasa macam pelik dengan telinga rasa panas dan muka macam tak ada darah. Tapi kevin bisik cakap 'don't worry' 'don't worry' dekat 10 kali. Saya jeling je si kevin bila dia senyum.

Stella was in the ward taking care of their father. replaced her mother who went back for shower and change. that is the time for me to show up. Macam penjenayah pula takut kena tangkap polis. Goddd!!

When i first saw his dad, he looked at me with his deepest look like judging me from the first look. Thats not fair. But then he smiled to me. Senyum kecil tapi serta merta buat saya rasa selesa. Rasa macam baru lepas dari ikatan. Kevin masuk dan terus peluk papa dia. Saya nampak mata dia merah..papa dia tepuk2 belakang kevin. Bet they missed each other so much. Gave them some times melepaskan rindu. Saya tunggu sebelah stella. Macam tunggu hukuman. Lepas tu kevin bawa saya pergi sebelah katil papa dia. kevin pegang tangan papa dia dan usap-usap. papa dia mengangguk-angguk. dan kevin introduced me

"Pa, this is Arianna"

Thousands feelings came striking me at that moment. Felt like that is the time that i have been waiting for. Felt like kevin is seriously wants me to be apart of his life. He has introduced me to the most important person in his life. =,(

Saya ambil tangan papa dia dari tangan kevin untuk salam dan cium tangan dia. Papa dia angguk-angguk lagi. His eyes shining ..tells everything.
I sat down besides him. Stella dan kevin nak keluar tinggalkan kami berdua. tapi saya tarik tangan kevin suruh dia duduk dulu sbb saya tak tahu macamana nak bercakap. I dont know how to break the ice. Need sometimes.

Lepas tu saya tolong buatkan air susu untuk papa dia, kevin ask me to help. He tried to make me feel comfortable. kevin suapkan susu dengan sudu. I could see the strong bond between them. I will never break it.

2 hours is not enough to me..i had to leave before his mother came back. i heard papa kevin bisik dengan kevin suruh saya tunggu jumpa mama dia. tapi saya cakap biarlah dulu. let me calm down and think.

Then kevin sent me to his friend's house and left me there. Dia ke hospital tunggu papa sampai malam. And today kevin took me to see him again for 2 hours. Papa responded to everything i said by smiling. Saya panggil dia 'uncle' walaupun bila dia bercakap dia bahasakan diri dia sebagai 'Papa'. Dia banyak angguk dan geleng saja. macam tu saja sebab dia tak larat nak bercakap banyak. tapi itu semua dah cukup untuk saya. cukup sangat.

I wish i can spend more time here to look after him. saya nak kenal dia lebih lagi. he is so nice that i've never imagined before. I am blessed.

Thank you ...Allah.