Tuesday, November 30, 2010

No one understand me

Pagi tadi masa papa nak pergi office dan clara tengah main dengan noni kat halaman rumah, saya dengar Noa tegur papa. Tanya siapa budak kecik clara tu. Papa bagitahu Noa
“Cucu..”

Sumpah Noa terkejut monyet sebab dia ingat saya dah kahwin. Haha. Terus dia tak jadi tanya papa furthermore. Saya rasa nak tergelak je dengar dari dalam. Malas nak keluar. As I expected dia terus call saya lepas papa pergi

Noa : Assalamualaikumm
Saya : Waalaikumsalam warahmatullah
Noa : Bila balik? Tak bagitahu pun nak balik
Saya : Last week. Orang dah seminggu kat rumah baru nak tanya
Noa : Sorry tak nampak. Baru balik dari Barcelona
Saya : Wah..Barcelona. Buat apa kt sana?Noa : Ada show
Saya : Ohh..mesti best kan pergi oversea buat show
Noa : Pergi buat show cik yana. Kerja. Bukan makan angin. Kalau makan angin tu best la. kalau kerja, penat.
Saya : Kira international punya dancers la sekarang?
Noa : Haha international la sangat. Ada function kat sana. Kita buat show represent malaysia.
Saya : The other day kata nak further study kan
Noa : Insyaallah. Tahun depan.
Saya : Okey
Noa : Ni nak tanya sikit..siapa budak kecik comel kat depan rumah tu?
Saya : Oh..clara
Noa : Clara? Yourr…?
Saya : Your what?Noa : Daughter?
Saya : Yes
Noa : What? Tell me about it..
Saya : Betul lah. Comel kan?
Noa : No wayyy…never see you kahwin, or pregnant..never tell me anything? You kahwin dengan that kadazan guy ke?
Saya : *Gelak lama-lama
Noa : Ok, dah habis gelak? Tell me now.
Saya : I adopt her
Noa : Wow! Seriously?
Saya : Yeahhh..tak boleh ke? Tak sesuai?
Noa : Bukan..i’m amazed. Is she sabahan?
Saya : Yes she is.
Noa : Oh yang ni ke yang my mum cakap you all buat cleft lips operation for her. few months ago kan?
Saya : Haa..yang nilah. She comes from unlucky family. Just helping..
Noa : It’s good. So she will be with you all the time?
Saya : Well, not really. Sometimes dengan parents dia, sometimes with me.
Noa : I’m proud of you dear.
Saya : Thanks.
Noa : You have changed a lot. Now you are so matured and strong.
Saya : Hey janganlah nak samakan masa kita teenagers dulu. Main-main and cinta monyet semua
Noa : I bukan monyet ok.
Saya : Memang la bukan, sebab you worst than monyet.
Noa : Haha that is the sweetest memory ok. I won’t forget it. My first love is you
Saya : Me too. Haha
Noa : How’s the kadazan guy? Sorry lupa nama diaSaya : Kevin. He is fine
Noa : Still with him?
Saya : Yes.
Noa : Quite long already kan? Wish you both the best.
Saya : Thanks noa
Noa : Dah bagitahu your parents?
Saya : Not yet
Noa : What? You guys crazy? Lagi lama lagi susah tau
Saya : Dia ok. He always want to come to see my parents. But are you mad? Not now lah. I’m not ready.
Noa : Ok, im not in your shoes but I advise you to face it if you love him
Saya : Wait
Noa : Until?
Saya : I don’t know
Noa : What are you afraid of?Saya : Loosing him.
Noa : How?Saya : Kalau tak dapat blessing macamana? Daripada I kena tinggal dia sebab tak dapat restu, lagi baik I teruskan sahaja macam ni. At least I still have him with me.
Noa : You are wrong if you think like that..
Saya : I love him so much and I can’t lose him
Noa : I still believe that’s not right.


You don’t know me Noa, you don’t understand me... you don't



9 speak up:

Munirah said...

sabar ye arianna :)
ur the one who's in the situation, so you know better. make a wise decision :)

una berry said...

sometimes parents are just unpredictable
we don't know what's gonna happen in the future
so just live the life as it is kan?
be realistic
wish u luck babe :)

Atiqah said...

just nak share my previous experience..

i used to love this guy and we kept it secret from everyone especially from my family until one day my dad figured out i was dating a guy behind him which he against about it so much. He used a spy to get me and yup, i fell into his trap. The whole family knew and was extremely mad at me..i left home and refused to contact my family until one day mom 'pujuk' me to return home. Until now, we never talk about it..and even worse, we broke up. I mean the guy and I broke up a week before our graduation day. Serious it was the worst nightmare ever in my life. I believe now, without parents blessings, the relationship will have no way to go..there is nothing u could do to keep it for long..
i met a new guy now...3 weeks after we met for the 1st time, i told everything about the new guy to my parents. And lucky me..they approved. They even love him so much more than I thought.and now we are ready to prepare for our engagement day..insyaAllah which will be next year. both family approved and couldnt wait to see us together. I am so blessed to be with him now..

i have nothing to say to change ur mind arianna. and i have no rights to do so. just to share my experience..

cik syahira said...

assalamualaikum arianna,

sabar k. saya tau kamu kuat. see, noa pun cakap perkara yang sama kan? sabar itu indah, walaupun ia menyakitkan.. kena banyak sabar, banyak mengadu pada Tuhan, insya Allah kamu berjaya lalui ini semua.

miss faten said...

Be strong sis.
Pada pendapat saya lah kan, even Clara yang lain bangsa pun your parents boleh terima, pastinya your love life pun diorang boleh terima punya. InsyaALLAH, semoga ke jalan yang paling menggembirakan yaa :)

rainbowskittle said...

when its time to tell ur parent , you'll know it.

yana said...

:/

im in the same shoes with u.. :( fhm how u felt..i mean, i pon risau if my parents x bg blessing utk my love..mine is also 2years plus..still x bg tau my fmly sbb takot hilang dia, wlaupn hmpir sume fmly mmbers dia dh tau pasal ktorg :((

all the best, arianna!! let us pray for the best..i believe that doa can change evrythg..insyaAllah

oh btw, comel gile daisypath kt bwh tu "2 years, 2months, 2 weeks n 2days" :))

Kimora said...

Arianna Dear,

Your story same as mine. You see...with this kind of relationship is differ from other walaupun dorang cakap sama saja but they're not in our shoes. Bukan lah menidakkan pendapat orang lain, saya pun sama seperti kamu, memilih untuk merahsiakannya.

But time will tell...after 11 years (still going on), hati dia terbuka untuk open up this relationship to his parents alhamdulillah saya diterima dengan baik...

What I can say ... just believe in yourself, binalah kesabaran dalam diri, trust and support each other. Insya Allah, dipermudahkan niat kita.

illa said...

hi ariana..
i setuju apa yg noa ckp..
tak payah tunggu lama2..
2 thn tu bukan masa yg singkat..
u takkan tau apa akan terjadi, mana tau ur parent akan restu hubungan u..

kes kita hampir sama, im in love with black guy! worst rite? sbb byk sgt bad news bout these people..
tp my bf sgt2 berbeza dr blacks lain.. never drink alcohol or smoke n working here.. yup kristian too.. tp hampir 2 thn ni.. sgt2 happy with this relationship rather thn b4..
raya lepas my bf bersungguh2 nk jumpa my family.. i was so so so scared! all the way to my hometown i sakit kepala sbb takut!

tapi..

semua berjalan lancar.. my family sangat suka my bf.. even my maktok yg tua taktau english pon cuba nk ckp ngn dia.. masa tu.. i rasa 1 beban terlepas.. now nothing to b worried sbb dh dpt restu family n diorg tau ngn sapa i berkawan..

so i wish u all the best.. sumtimes u need to bold to get sumthg u really want in life :)

pics.. http://luv-illa.blogspot.com/2010/09/puasa-2010-last-day-n-trip-to-sg-petani.html

:) cheers
illa
ur silence reader

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