Sunday morning rain is not falling

Today i spent my whole day with kevin from one place to another sebab dia minta temankan dia. I dont really know about his work and all tapi sebab saya tak ada apa program hari ni dan tak rasa nak study sangat so i just said okey when he asked. Saya jarang nak ikut dia ke mana-mana dia pergi buat kerja sebab tak nak 24/7 bersama dia saja. i mean tak nak orang nampak kami ni macam belangkas. nanti orang berbulu. that mean i still care about what people think and say ok people! Hope you are happy.

We went to a lab where kevin to meet someone to ask for his recommendation. maybe its something to do about his application to study abroad. i didn't ask further coz i dont want to talk about that and kevin also tak banyak cerita pasal tu sampailah sekarang. we went there as early as 8 something tapi lab tu tak buka pun lagi. so we duduk-duduk saja sambil menunggu sesiapa nak datang. masa tu rasa lapar juga dan kevin betul-betul tak nak miss the person. tapi bila tunggu sampai pukul 9 pagi masi juga tak datang dan kevin tengok muka saya pun berkerut sebab i was hungry. Memang pun salah saya sebab kevin cakap ambillah something untuk alas perut sebelum kami dapat breakfast betul-betul lepas jumpa orang tu.

so kevin ajak pergi nearest restaurant. tapi ada nampak mcD. so kami ingat nak breakfast kat sana. tapi saya tahu yang kevin ni serba salah sebab dia takut dia miss orang tu nanti kalau kami spend time makan makan pulak. so i asked kevin to tapau saja. And we had our breakfast kat tepi pintu lab tu jugak.

So sweatttt....kevin bancuhkan coffee for us. haha. but nevermind lah makan tepi lab sambil bersila pun, as long as kevin dapat jumpa the person an hour later. he is happy sebab dapat apa yang dia perlukan. katanya dia dah cuba jumpa orang tu since last month lagi.

Then we continued to few other places but most of the time saya tunggu dalam kereta sebab kevin cakap panas dan kesian saya kena jalan sana sini. Thats what i like about him, so considerrrr... memang pun lagi siok tunggu dalam kereta je ada aircond bahhh..cuaca sekarang panas tak ingat. sabah kena spell ke? tak suka statement tu sebab all over malaysia pun panas kan, semenanjung pun panas juga saya dengar.

On the way back tadi sempat singgah rumah stella sekejap dan minum petang. stella nak belajar masak butter prawn tapi tak sempat lah nak mengajar, maybe some other time lah kalau ada masa. stella ada tanya kevin bila agaknya ke oversea? i looked at kevin, he looked at me. then he told stella belum tahu lagi. akward situation rasanya di situ.

awkward because i always try to avoid discussing about that.

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Little update

Nothing much happened yesterday except my mum agak merajuk sebab dia suruh saya balik cuti 3 hari ni tapi saya bagi alasan ada kerja nak kena settle dan kalau balik pun saya tak sempat nak enjoy cuti. so, to avoid such waste of money to buy ticket and me have to pack and bawa balik semua assignment ke rumah, saya prefer tak balik sajalah. I'm sorry mum, hope you will understand it. maybe not now, but later. Told papa to explain to mama as i believe papa agreed with me.

Yesterday i cooked for us at home. for yaya and kakmin. for kevin, i tapau for him and he came to pick it up. he also busy. so, i do not want to disturb him. i made some chicken vege soup for clara and sent to Jen. Clara liked it. I was happy. They were not at home last night. i didnt know where are they about. Sekarang saya ni jadi pemerhati jiran saya tu. i should not do that anymore but i just want to make sure clara is fine.

Today, got to finish all the work. i had my breakfast with Yaya outside and now ready to start. On your mark.....

=D

My habit kalau tak drive.

Buka muzik.

Mengulangkaji okey !...

Haha...=D

Just ignore the dancing fingers yang annoying tu

Update : I dont know if you all cant see it. Actually saya tengah pegang 2 pages of lirik lagu. bukan nota kuliah =P

That little girl

The other day I asked Jen if I could take Clara jalan-jalan pergi playground dekat rumah kami. Jen izinkan. And after that I was thinking it would be more fun if I ask kevin to tag along with us. I knew that kevin was busy with his assignment and what not but I just tried my luck. So I called kevin dan terkejut jugak sebab he immediately said yes. Kevin met clara few times bila kevin singgah rumah ambil saya atau hantar food or something, kalau clara ada main-main kat luar he said hye to her. Kevin does not have any younger sister as he is the youngest, so he is quite excited kalau nampak budak-budak kecil.

Kevin came and parked the car infront of my house and we walked to the playground. Clara looked so happy. She kept laughing and smiling and asking everything she saw. She showed her curious face when she something yang dia tak tahu. So cute the face kan rasa macam nak cubit-cubit je pipi dia. I remember the same when my sister noni was small. Sekarang noni dah besar so tak boleh lah nak cubit-cubit pipi dia lagi.

We sat on the park bench and clara main lari-lari then after that kevin bawak clara main gelongsor dan jongkang jongkit. I bought ice cream for her. All went so perfect until I could not forget the moment. The time was full with love. I have all my heart with clara now. I don’t know how I fell in love with the kid. But she just so adorable. Maybe because of her sad story in the family, or maybe she is a special kid. I don’t know. I told kevin that I love clara so much. Kevin said he could see it in my eyes….awe !..

Last night, I went to a friend’s CNY open house. I wnet there with Yaya at about 7 something and came back at about 10pm. When we entered the house we could see Jen’s husband’s car parked in front of the gate. We heard loud noise came from the house. Macam biasa, mereka bergaduh. We looked at each other then yaya tarik saya masuk sebab dia tak nak saya pergi rumah Jen dan masuk campur hal mereka. Because I almost did.

But about 20 minutes later I heard Clara crying loudly. And I suddenly ran out to see. It was my immediate reaction as I heard Clara. I just could not see if anything happened to her. I saw Jen and her husband gaduh depan rumah. then clara left behind in the house. Pada masa tu, saya macam serba salah sangat. Nak teruk ambil Clara takut juga dengan husband Jen, nanti apa kata dia. About jen, saya tak kisah, Cuma dengan husband dia saya tak biasa. I cried in my heart bila nampak clara crying and sobbing in the house. I could see it. How could I ignore it. It was so sad when clara looked at me. Macam nak minta saya pergi ambil dia. Sedih gile. But yaya in the house suruh saya step back sebab itu masalah keluarga dia saya tak boleh masuk campur.

I went back to my room and cried until I felt asleep. This morning I did not see them. Jen did not reply to my message.
I miss Clara so much now.

Why why why bvlgarigirl.blogspot.com

This is a personal blog in the beginning, a year ago. But then it has become a people’s blog. I like when people coming in because at least i do not mumbling alone. People read, people share their thoughts, people gave advises.

I share my happiness, my frustration, my sadness but people still read. I cry, I shout, I sing, I like, I hate…but still people looking for it.

Why people keep check it out apa berlaku di blog ini...

Why people search for bvlgarigirl.blogspot.com?

Tiring day and night out

Yesterday after kuliah dah pukul 6 lebih. Kuliah / tutorial/ kuliah selang seli sangat memenatkan. On the way balik dah rasa nak terus tidur 5 jam. Bangun tengah malam. Imagine sajalah. Sebab bila sampai je depan rumah yaya dah ajak keluar. Kebetulan dia dan coursemate dia, Ida tak ada kelas petang dan melepak saja tengok tv lepas tu bosan dan mencari mangsa ajak keluar. Tapi bila yaya cakap nak belanja makan aiskrim terus macam, oklahh jom jom.

We all ke tempat biasa lah, water front. Sit and eat by the sea. Terus macam fresh dan berselera. Kalau rumah kat tepi laut mesti selera bertambah-tambah gile sebab laut ni macam menambahkan selera makan saya. Statement… =P
Lepas makan aiskrim, order chicken wings. Sambil yaya online. Suddenly saya ternampak yaya masih gunakan gambar dia dan Norman as the wallpaper. Terus saya tarik laptop dia dan tampar dia. Ganas. Bayangkan tampar yaya kuat-kuat kat depan-depan orang tu.

Haha. Nak kena tampar balik dengan yaya? Saya tampar lengan dia aje lah. tampar terkejut sebab WTH kau masih simpan dan letak as wallpaper lagi gambar Norman. Tak ingat ke cerita dia cheating dan kau lari balik Kl, dan incident kat airport semua tu??? Dan dan dan macam banyak sangat dan yang nak kena ingat balik. Yaya tarik balik laptop dia dan terus off without explanation. Im still waiting for her to answer me.
Dah baik semula ke? Atau yaya masih tak dapat lupakan dia. I pissed of sekejap. She is my best friend mestilah saya angin juga. She had suffered enough with Norman. I don’t know lah yaya ni. Susah nak faham dia.

Lepas tu sidd call dan tanya saya kat mana. He said that he has a function kat hotel nak attend. Cocktail untuk some brand launching. He got invited by his friend. He asked me to go with him. it was last minute so saya tak nak lah. Plus saya tk ready. Kat luar. Dengan kemeja dan slack pakai gi kuliah saja. macam-macam alasan bagi tapi dia tetap pujuk. Then saya cakap im with yaya and a friend. Still dia cakap dia datang ambil we all semua. Tak perlu tukar-tukar baju or bersiap sebab ia bukan formal function. Casual saja.

Okeylah then yaya & Ida pun setuju sebab sidd cakap pergi minum dan makan sekejap saja. we went there at about 8 something dah. sidd ambil then we go there betul-betul duduk jauh dari stage dan tak dengar apa semua MC cakap and ucapan dari siapa pun kami tak peduli. Sidd terus jadi waiter pergi ambil air dan makanan semua serve untuk we all. Duduk dan lepak-lepak sambil cerita. sidd is kind of boleh ngam dengan kawan-kawan saya pun so it doesnt matter.

Ok, if you remember I always nak match kan yaya dengan sidd. So at one time ni bila kami semua duduk-duduk, saya ajak ida pergi toilet tinggalkan yaya dengan sidd. Haha naughty me. Hope they will like each other some day. Suka bila kawan baik dgn kawan baik boleh jadi couple. At least I tryyy,…kann



Dalam pukul 10 lebih tu dah ajak sidd balik sebab we all dah penat. Actually saya yang dah penat. So sidd hantar kami balik ke water front ambil kereta dan balik rumah. sesampai di rumah ingat nak basuh baju, tapi macam dah tak boleh nak accept sebarang aktiviti lagi…terus tidur je.

What happened today

I was already asleep when papa called and asked me to on my skype. I told papa yang esok saya ada kelas ok. kelas pagi. after a week cuti then kelas pada pagi hari? patutlah dari petang tadi rasa macam ada something je. rupanya simpton cuti habis dah kena dekat saya. tapi papa is so adorable to be rejected =)

Rupanya papa nak skyping and tell the story of his new gadget. actually he wanted to show off lahhh. pehhh..his gadget is not the small2 thingy. its a largeeeee one. and parked outside of the house. what made papa wanted to tell me in the middle of the night about it? because he said he suddenly remember when me once asked him to forget about his dream machine tu. haha. but you deserve it papa coz you gain it by working so hard. nanti gadget tu akan jadi kakak punya jugak kannnnn.... =P

So, habis sembang i cant sleep lah. obviously. so i drop by my blog to say hye to it. these few days i did blog walking and try so hard to leave comment. so that people can feel that they are appreciated. what they write are also important to the readers. so im as a reader should say hye, at least. so, kalau nampak suddenly saya say hye kat blog u all maknanya saya bukan buang tebiat tapi nak cuba say thanks and being friendly to you. saya bukan sombong seperti yang ada orang cakap dengan saya. its just i...malas sikit nak tinggal2 komen. malas sikit je ok.

ok, pagi tadi bila bangun tidur saya ingat nak stay kat rumah saja hari ni. nak standby untuk start kuliah esok. ah macam real je. tapi dalam pukul 9 lebih kevin call ajak saya ke rumah stella. stella ajak kami lunch kat rumah dia dan as always dia akan masak a lot of foods kalau ajak kami pergi makan. last time saya dah tolak with no good reason so today i've no reason to tell bila suddenly kena ajak macam tu. so i just say yes.

Bersiap-siap dan kevin datang ambil dalam pukul 11 lebih. saya suruh dia datang awal sikit at least sempat ke sana dan tolong stella masak. kan segan kalau sampai je semua dah masak. nampak sangat macam datang nak makan je. tapi bila dah sampai dalam pukul 12 tu memang semuanya pun dah siap masak. cuma tinggal nak serve saja. saya terus buat macam bersalah sebab tak sempat nak tolong. tapi memang rasa bersalah juga. tapi stella cakap tak kisah. memang pun she is so fast kalau bab memasak.

Kevin terus join anak buah dia main game while saya siapkan meja. this is not my first time menumpang makan di sini so saya dah tahu mana pinggan nak pakai, air apa nak buat, berapa banyak nasi nak letak dalam pinggan anak-anak dia. confident je buat kerja and sometimes saya perasan yang kevin curi pandang kat saya. one time i cepat-cepat tengok dia bila rasa macam dia tengah curi tengok and said "Gotcha !" And he just smiled.

we ate seperti jarang mendapat makanan sedap. memanglah, kami makan kat kedai or masak sendiri kat rumah sewa manalah dapat sesedap tu. kevin lagi teruk sebab kena makan kat cafe saja all the time so dia pun pantang kalau stella ajak lunch kat rumah dia terus je kevin pergi. kalau tak ajak pun dia pergi. hihi. he is quite closed to stella.

The food was so tempting. udang sweet sour, ketam cili, sayur asam, bambangan, kicap cili dan ikan tauchu. stella cakap his husband dapat udang dan ketam tu dari kawan dia yang pergi ke laut. so fresh. memang kk ni heaven dengan seafood.

Then, lepas makan we just lepak-lepak sampai petang di sana. kevin tolong his brother in law potong pokok kat depan rumah. pokok apa tak sure tapi pokok tu memang dah menghalang pandangan. bila dah kena tebang, pintu masuk rumah jadi lebih terang tak kena blok lagi. barulah lebih ceria. masa tebang pokok tu kevin kena gigit semut api. kesian dia tangan merah-merah and he mengada-ngada suruh letakkan minyak ubat. after that kami siap-siap balik.

And i didn't really have time to be alone with stella. sebenarnya saya cari jalan supaya tidak ada masa stella untuk tanya atau cerita apa-apa dengan saya. masih tidak dapat terima atau nak dengar cerita yang saya pasti akan mengganggu fikiran saya nanti. dont want to hear stella said that their parents are against me now. let it be. kevin pun tak nak cerita dengan saya. Macam tak serius je. So, biar sajalah. Actually saya dah berapa kali nak tanya kevin tapi tak jadi.

On the way balik saya ajak kevin singgah kedai belikan some food for clara. rindu clara hari ni bila tak dapat tengok dia dan dengar dia cakap-cakap. i guess that i already fell in love with the cute girl. saya belikan roti, biskut dan cereal. saya tak belikan dia junkfood sebab nak dia makan makanan sihat saja. tapi bila sampai rumah tengok Jen tak ada kat rumah. the food is still with me. sampai malam dia tak balik rumah lagi. mungkin tidur rumah in laws or kawan dia. but im a bit worried also. just hope that they are fine.

Be responsible lah

Hari ni pagi-pagi dah dikejutkan oleh my neighbour nak tumpangkan anak dia Clara kat rumah saya. My neighbour ni ada hal sikit kebelakangan ni. Actually Janet and her husband is having problem. I guess marriage problem. So Jen selalu ditinggalkan oleh her husband. and she has 2 little babies. clara who is 3 y.o and the younger one is Harry who is few months old. Pity sangat.

Recently saya tak nampak the husband balik rumah and Jen left all alone to take care of the children. The husband took their car with him so Jen has no transport. Dia pergi kerja naik bas and last week pulak pengasuh the children who is also our neighbour balik kampung sebab her mother sakit. so no one to take care of the children bila Jen nak pergi kerja.

She has to close her eyes hantar Harry ke rumah her mother in law who doesnt like Jen at all. You can imagine it. The husband left her and the in laws are happy with that. Tapi sebab anak-anak tak ada tempat nak ditinggalkan bila dia pergi kerja, dia terpaksa hantar ke rumah in laws jugak walaupun orang tua tak suka dan belum tentu mereka jaga the children baik-baik. clara sometimes tak nak pergi rumah nenek dia. when a 3 y.o kid tak suka grandparents we can imagine how she has been treated by them.

So sometimes bila nampak Jen termenung kat depan rumah saya akan tanya. rasa sedih atas apa yang berlaku pada dia. she is young only few years older than me. tapi terpaksa melalui hidup macam tu. so, saya akan suruh Jen tinggalkan clara dengan saya saja sekiranya saya tak ke mana-mana.

And this morning at about 7 am Jen call saya minta nak tinggalkan clara dengan saya sekejap sebab Harry demam dan dia nak hantarkan ke klinik. dia dah panggil teksi masa tu cuma nak tumpangkan clara saja. Sedih sangat tengok keadaan Jen. I can't be that strong rasanya. Kalau saya di tempat dia tentu lah saya dah jatuh.

Clara is a sweet clever girl. walaupun baru 3 tahun tapi dia dah act macam budak 5,6 tahun. talkative, humble. but she was born with cleft lip. bibir dia sumbing. i didnt know and never asked Jen why she has not go under surgery untuk betulkan bibir dia. but i hope it is never too late to do that because she has to have a brighter future. she cant grow up like that.

so, i prepare breakfast utk clara. bagi dia makan cereal dia tak nak then saya buatkan dia roti bakar sapu mentega. dan secawan milo. saya on kan channel ceria dan dia makan sambil tengok tv. so sweet bila dia jerit-jerit tunjuk kartun kat tv. she called me NANA. Jen called me yanna and clara tries to call me yanna juga tapi jadi nana. ha ha.

Then yaya joined us watched tv sampailah pukul 11 lebih Jen balik dan ambil clara balik rumah. lepas tu saya ada ke rumah Jen tengok Harry macamana. he is still got fever and flu. hope he will get well soon. Jen macam senyap saja. she doesnt talk much. mungkin dia risau sangat. i hope that i can assist her anytime she needs help.

I feel so frustrated with Jen's husband. A man shouldn't do like that. he should be more responsible. at least to the children. kalau tak ada anak lain lah sikit. tapi the children are too small to understand. oh pleaseee....don't behave like that. you won't know how hurt a woman can feel when you leave her like that.

Godd dem ittt. i am so upset.

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Im glad that i have a blog. Really.
If you dont, youshould have it too. kalau tak nak open to public then keep it within you only, or among your best friends. it is fun. especially when you getting friends from everywhere. dalam negara, luar negara. kadang-kadang tak sangka ada visitors dari oversea. tapi mesti student malaysia di luar negara kan?

saya rasa most of the blog readers here are still student. sebab mungkin mereka nak share kisah hidup saya as a student. atau mungkin juga yang dah kerja baca blog saya sekadar mengimbas kenangan lama semasa remaja atau semasa masih study. how precious kan the moment. Thanks for reading...

Saya rasa seronok pula kalau dapat say hye kepada sesiapa yang datang dari tempat-tempat ni..kalau ada yang nak say hye to me and other readers

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Atau ada lagi dari mana-mana tidak tersebut di atas....?

Idol

Besides Garcia..yeah i fell in love with Garcia's voice...i find that Didi Benami also sweet. A waitress with sooo lovely voice. She made it to the top 24 already !!.... Harap dia akan terus rock.

Now i'm listening to Terrified. Delivered by Didi. Original by Kara DioGuardi. Simple but emotional song. Mungkin sebelum ni tak ambil port pun lagu ni tapi lepas Didi nyanyikan, i've started to search for the song & the lyric.

Obviously...tak boleh tidur sampai sekarang, so many things happened this couple of days but im not really in the mood to write about it. so enjoy the full song here =)

im at the edge of my emotions

Man talk ...

Yesterday

3:14pmKhairul

salam..

helo..

how r you..?

3:16pmArianna

wsalam

im fine

u sihat ke?

3:16pmKhairul

sihat jer...

lame xtgur u..

arini tegur..

hehehehe...

3:17pmArianna

ye la. bz ke?

3:17pmKhairul

agak bz..

huhuhuhu..

u kat kk..?

3:21pmArianna

ye kt kk

kt rumah ke tu?

balik raya cina ye

3:21pmKhairul

owh..

yup!

kat umah..

cuti seminggu..

hehehe..

3:23pmKhairul

mcm mane u ngan kevin skang..?

3:30pmArianna

ok..so far.

tp dia nk further study

=(

3:31pmKhairul

owh...

then..?

why must sad..?

love is all about trust..

rmmber..?

3:31pmArianna

should i be sad?

3:32pmKhairul

defntly no..

3:33pmArianna

but i am

im trying so hard

but i am still

3:33pmKhairul

hurmm...

sad bcoz of..?

dier tglkan u lame2 ke aper..?

3:34pmArianna

ill be all alone and lonely

lama kan..

at least 2 thn or more..

3:35pmKhairul

ala...

try la..

2 tahun jer..

hehehee...

okey2..

xper..

u do wat best for u k..

kevin go where..?

3:39pmArianna

i pun tak tanya dia

u know what, saya tak nak tahu pun pasal tu

so saya tak tanya further

3:40pmKhairul

owh...

iyeke..?

sedih sgt2 ke ni...?

3:40pmArianna

degil

its actually more to RISAU

bkan sedih sampai akan jadi sakit jiwa

3:40pmKhairul

risau bcoz of whut.?

3:40pmArianna

tp more to risau. risau what will happen

will he change and what not...

hehe

silly kan

3:41pmKhairul

biase la tu...

hahaha...

engaged la cpt..

hehehehhee..

okey2..

atupid ide..

stupid*

hahaha

3:42pmArianna

haha..tapi kalau dah engaged lagi nerves

tak mao lah

3:43pmKhairul

hahaha..

i rase...

kevin xkan buat bnde2 mcm tu lah...

dier baik je i tgk...

even x pernah jmpe..

tp based on aper yg u tulis kat blog..

damn..

3:44pmArianna

saya harap macam tu la.

wan, kalau lelaki berjauhan, senang ke dia lupakan gf dia?

3:44pmKhairul

dat guy damn penyabar..

owh...

tricky ques...

mcm nie..

3:45pmArianna

=)

3:45pmKhairul

gud boy, he will miss his gf so much n never cheat on her...

badboy, paham2 jerla.. dah jauh... flirt here n there..

u sndri tahu lah kan...

so u rase kev yg maner.?

3:46pmArianna

oh noooo

ssh nak confident dalam hal ni

or im being too much?

3:47pmKhairul

nape x cnfident..?

3:47pmArianna

kalau ckp gud boy, pun tak tahu lagi apa-apa jadi bila kat sana

3:47pmKhairul

u xpecaye kevin..?

owh...

kan i dah ckp td..

3:48pmArianna

percaya

3:48pmKhairul

gudboy xkan buat mcm tu..

3:48pmArianna

ok ok...trust trust

3:48pmKhairul

hehehe..

ha..

gud..

but he cnfirmed pg study luar..?

3:49pmArianna

u so badd...sampai i kena cakap trust teross

haha

applying

3:49pmKhairul

owh..

ic..

3:49pmArianna

tapi i ras chances dia tinggi

3:49pmKhairul

hahaha..

3:50pmArianna

he is smart

tk macam saya

=P

3:50pmKhairul

hahahaha..

he has to strugle wat...

nak kasi anak org mkn aper nnt..

hahaha

3:51pmArianna

well...thanks for your advice

3:51pmKhairul

hahahhaa..

no hal la..

3:51pmArianna

kena dapatkan advice dari lelaki sendiri barulah betul

sbb hanya lelaki faham lelaki

3:52pmKhairul

haaa...

betol2..!

hehehehe...

3:52pmArianna

betul3x

3:53pmKhairul

hehehe..

upin ipin..

3:53pmArianna

=D

Mungkin hanya lelaki faham lelaki

Khairul, sorry i quoted our conversation yest without your permission, try to ask you but you are not online now...

Thankful

Had an awesome day! Slept in until my house mate woke me up with kisses at the door bang bang at 10am. They want to go out for breakfast dan saya pengsan dalam bilik dengan phone yang out of batt. No wonder kena bang, mereka takut saya pengsan ke...

Saya tak ikut sebab malas nak keluar. I sat outside for an hour drinking coffee sambil tengok jiran siram pokok. itu pun boleh lah sambil bercerita pasal pokok bunga. Dan melayan anak dia yang kecil dan cute, clara. she is 3 years old. selalu calling for my name kalau nampak saya balik rumah. Adorable!

I actually need to go out to buy some stuff. ubat gigi, bedak, lotion, creamer, crackers... tapi kemalasan. sekarang pun baru nak makan for today. goreng nasi semalam yang tak habis. tumbuk ikan bilis, bawang dan cili padi. lepas tu potong timun sejuk dari peti ais buat ulam. perfect for me! sambil makan sambil online cari kawan. the 2 ladies tak balik lagi. lepas breakfast mungkin mereka terus continue lunch dan akan dinner sekali kat situ kot. thehehe. padahal menyesal tak ikut tadi.. mungkin mereka dah merewang ke mana-mana dah

Sometimes rasa bosan sangat bila cuti macam ni. tapi kalau ada kuliah pula pandai nak ponteng-ponteng. haha. i havent call kevin for today coz last night he said that he is going to stella's house as his parents akan datang rumah stella. let him lah. sebab semalam pun almost seharian dengan saya. he needs time for the family as well.

Actually we went to Mesilau again yesterday. kevin didnt tell me. he picked me up at 8am and until pertengahan jalan baru saya perasan we were heading to Mesilau. dia kata kalau boleh every year on 14 feb he wants to take me there. hopefully that he will be around, or i'l be around here again next year. most probably i will but im not sure about him. i haven't ask about when he will leave if he get the place in the uni. i didnt ask him which country he is choosing also. Honestly, i cant accept the fact yet.

Oh my god, he gave me white roses. i said white roses stand for farewell. but he said to him white roses shows his true love to me. okeyy...i was quite nervous walking with him in the jungle. like first time meeting him. but i like the feeling. it shows that everyday i fall in love with him. he was so sweet also to pack our lunch. he cooked fried noodle and tuna sandwich. we ate in the jungle. Haha feeling Twilight sekejap. But not to say a really thick jungle. tapi somewhere yang ada pokok-pokok besar dan ada pondok-pondok tempat pelawat berhenti rehat dan makan-makan. its jungle whatt...

He also gave me a present. he didnt give me any present on my birthday sebab dia cakap tak ada duit masa tu. SO honest kan. tapi saya tak kisah sebab dia lagi penting dari hadiah. he is not earning his own money yet, anyway. but yesterday he gave me a present. he said birthday present + 1 year anni present. 2 in 1. jimat! =P

I liked it very much. but rasa macam tak nak show pulak to other people. kedekut sikit this time ! =D

but I feel extremely thankful!

14.02.10

We passed our first year...

Thanks love.

I'm praying for the coming years... together.

<3

We are the world

The 25th Anniversary recording features over 80 artists and performers. The recording of We Are The World 25 For Haiti embodied the same enthusiasm, sense of purpose and generosity as the original recording 25 years ago. Every one of the artists who participated, regardless of genre or generation, walked into the room with their hearts and souls completely open to coming together to help the people of Haiti.

Jangan lupakan mereka yang kurang bernasib baik

Heavenlah KK ni

Yesterday i and 3 other friends nak keluar tengok movie. One of my friend suggested Paranormal Activities. Saya nak tengok Valentine. Tapi Eda terus cakap "Valentine tu kau kena tengok dgn Kevin, bukan dengan kita orang"
Ok, baiklah baiklah. Tapi sebenarnya i and kevin bukan into movies so much. Kalau keluar sama we prefer cari makan dan jalan-jalan.

So, 3 lawan 1 saya tak menang. terpaksalah ikut walaupun saya ni ghostphobia. haha. apekenama jenis penyakit yang takut hantu?

So i drove secara tak rela ke 1B semalam. Kecut perut. Anyway it was so scary for me. tapi mungkin to my level it was like 10/10 skala ketakutan but for anyone else mungkin cakap takde bende nya movie tu.

Oklah skrg ni i bukan nk cerita pasal Paranormal tapi nak cerita pasal tempting grill yang ada kat KK ni. Paranormal saya cerita lain kali ok. lepas movie saya ajak mereka gi makan ikan bakar kat belakang filipino market tu

You better believe it.




Ikan bakar. Sini tak ada sangat bawal or terubuk or cencaru. sini lagi femes ikan putih. tapi still sedap.



Lobster beb. caya tak. mana ada jual lobster bakar kat semenanjung?
Thats why saya cakap u better believe it. haha



Sotong...so fresh dan juicy.



Ketam ketam...tapi saya tak minat sangat ketam sebab malas nak kopek. semalam kevin tak ada jadi saya tak makan ketam. sebab dia yg selalu kopekkan utk saya. ;)

Kami lepak sana sampailah pukul 10 lebih. order itu dan ini. lepas tu tong-tong bayar. itulah best kalau makan ramai-ramai. lepas rasa perut macam nak meletup. barulah masing-masing surrender. takpe hari ni kan cuti. dan esok cuti, lusa cuti, tulat cuti. oh cuti!!! tiba2 rasa nak balik kl.

lepas tu saya tapaukan ikan bakar untuk kevin. Dan lepas hantar kawan-kawan balik hostel, saya singgah hostel kevin. saya tak cakap nak datang. so bila sampai sana rupanya dia dah tertidur. saya call dan suruh dia turun ambil. dia turun dengan thsirt dan seluar pendek dengan rambut yang macam kucing jatuh longkang. hahaha. LOL. tapi dia tetap comel. yelah yelah.. =P

Dia senyum dan muka berseri-seri. dia kata dia suka kalau dapat surprise macam tu dari saya walaupun hanya ikan bakar. Dia kata it shows that saya sayang dia.

Siapa tak sayang...

Celebrate Valentine's Day ?

This is a case sensitive to discuss eh.

We are Muslims, we don't celebrate Valentine's Day.

But most of us like to express their feelings on that day. Their LOVE feelings. The day we like to tell our love that we love them. We tell our family that we love them. Kita beli hadiah atau bunga dan hadiahkan kepada our beloved. Is that considered as celebrating as well?

Mungkin sebab itu ada terms yang 14 Februari ialah Hari Kasih Sayang. Dan bukan Hari Valentine.

I dont know...

But we, i mean kev and I used 14 Feb last year to get in serious relationship too. He chose the date as it it a romantic date.

so this year he wants to celebrate the 1st year we have been together. I said that Muslim tak celebrate Valentines tapi kevin kata dia pun tahu dan dia bukan nak sambut Valentines dengan saya tapi nak celebrate a year that we have been through together. so, i macam tak ada reason and his reason also boleh diterima. He has planned something for us but it still a secret and suprise he said. Uhhhh!!! Tak suka surprise2. Tapi suka juga lah. =P

Okey, but whatever it is i also want to share hari kasih sayang ini dengan anda semua yang saya sayang.

Take care...ingat semua orang yang anda sayang.

mmuahhh =X

When you were fifteen

I miss my 15th age.

Fifteen. A great age - or not.

Remember what it was like for you?

Fifteen can be a fun, exciting time. It also can be a time when kids can go down the wrong road – into alcohol and drug use, crime and other risky behaviors. But it doesn’t have to be that way.

I miss the age when i fell in love with my teacher. Shame. but he was amazing teacher. he leads me to almost straight A's in my PMR. I said almost. Now he has 2 beautiful children and i met him last year somewhere in Kampung Baru. He is still amazing.

When i were fifteen i wanted to be a journalist when i grow up. But...i dont think that its gonna happen now or soon.

When i was fifteen, I was learning to put on make up, avoiding outdoors activities and generally throwing girly power with my girlfriends. Out of those three I'm still doing two of them consistently. Except the girly power because i am not a girl anymore =)

I miss my fifteen.

Resign today

Im feeling lucky because I am not a koniophobia.
So, I can stand walaupun tak ada masa nak kemas bilik selama beberapa hari. Actually tak ada lah berhabuk sangat, cuma macam tongkang baru nak pecah tu ada lah juga. =P. Malam tadi ada spring cleaning sikit kemaskan almari. Hold it till a week closet. Hopefully..

Life as a student. Keluar pagi pergi kampus, balik pun petang atau malam. Mana nak ada masa. Itu belum lagi kalau ada kuliah or tutorial ganti sebelah malam.

Hari ni juga I have decided to tender my resignation as the librarian. I can’t bear to work part time anymore. Too pack for me. And my dad is so happy with my decision since he has given me enough advice already to quit the job. Saya dah tak ada extra money for my entertainment lagi. I’ve to cut my spending for movies, DVD’s, magazines yang sometimes took a big portion of my earning every month. I have to depend 100% on loan and PAMA allowance lah nanti. Too bad.

But I hope, with my resignation tu nanti akan buka satu peluang untuk student lain yang lebih memerlukan extra money untuk belanja or beli buku. Rather than myself spend the salary untuk entertainment. Rasa bersalah gile. Tak baik okey.

Bila lah nak kerja betul-betul and earn my own money ni.

I had a cup of milo and tuna sandwich this morning kat rumah and now my stomach is singing. Saya kuat makan lah sekarang. Sekejap saja perut dah lapar lagi. Tak nak makan sekarang sebab kevin ajak lunch sama-sama pukul 1 nanti. He is so buzy these days. Semester terakhir untuk dia what do you expect. Mestilah tak menang tangan dengan projek, assignments, thesis, field work, lagi aktiviti kampus. Kadang-kadang nampak dia berlari ke dewan kuliah atau ke library. Nak say hye pun dia tak akan sempat nak dengar sebab dia dah macam flash man. And plus dia sekarang ada satu lagi cita-cita nak dicapai. What he planned before which is lepas study cari kerja, kerja untuk 1,2 tahun dan settle down. Its not gonna happen now. Saya bukan kecil hati. Cuma teringat saja apa yang dia pernah cakap.

Okey, off now. Have a nice day everyone. Saya tak sempat nk reply komen satu persatu lagi. tapi appreciate all your time to write to me. Love yah…=)

Hey, I boleh cool down pun because of all your advices tauuu…

Thanks a lottt

Cool cool

Stop grieving. I have decided to accept this positively. Thanks for all the advices. I read them all and tried to think over them. It is hard for me. So many things came up in my mind. Macamana kalau dia pergi dan terus lupakan saya. Kalau dia curang ke….kalau dia tak jadi masuk islam. Kalau dia memang cari alasan nak tinggalkan saya. Kalau sebenarnya family dia yang suruh dia further study untuk pisahkan kami. What a nonsences. Suddenly I realized yang semua yang saya senaraikan dalam kepala saya tu adalah yang negatif. Kenapa saya tak fikir yang positif punya side pula. At least saya kena be very supportive to kevin. Bagilah peluang kepada dia untuk mengejar cita-cita dia juga. Dan dia kata dia nak be ‘someone’ to my parents and family. At least my parents akan lebih confident dengan dia. Dan saya akan lebih confident dengan our future. Ini adalah pengorbanan dia untuk kami. Tak perlulah saya nak menggelabah.

Semalam lepas solat isyak saya ambil quran dan baca. Dah lama tak baca quran lepas solat. Solat pun selalu nak express saja. =P. Lepas tu saya panggil yaya masuk bilik saya dan cerita dengan dia masalah saya. She is the only one yang saya bagitahu perkara ni. No, no actually I’ve been telling about this to more than 1,000 people already in my social networks. So fast eh. No secreto nowadayss..semua nak update kat orang ramai. Tak elok nihh...

Yaya banyak bagi nasihat suruh saya cool. Memang kena cool tapi tahulah macamana perasaan saya. Rasa takut melebihi confident.

Tapi hari ni bila bangun pagi-pagi saya rasa tak perlulah saya kesali apa yang akan terjadi. Belum terjadi pun dah nak kesalkan ye tak. So not healthy. Terus bangun siap-siap ke kelas macam biasa. tak macam 2 days ago yang rasa macam nak mati aje. I hope that life will be brighter for me kalau saya pasrah dan redha dengan apa yang berlaku.

He will not be leaving so soon pun kalau pun dia betul-betul diterima. Saya masih ada masa dengan dia. At least few more months. I still can get to know him better, showing my love to him. Tapi insyaallah dia ada peluang besar juga looking at his current pointer. Plus dia adalah aktif dalam aktiviti kampus dan favourite students to most of the lecturers. Tak macam saya [-.-]” merendah diri. Boooo…hehe

All the best to you kevin. I’ll always support you, love.

He will leave me

It was on Sunday evening, when Kevin called and said

“Can you get ready in ½ hour? I want to see you urgently”

I thought that he was just pulling my leg and surprised me ke apa.

Dia kata dia ada something nak bagitahu yang dia dah simpan hampir 2 bulan tapi tak sanggup nak cerita dengan saya even he tried several times. When he went to KL to see me he already carried the news to let me know but he just could not do it. He took with him back to KK again and after thinking over it he has decided he needed me to know a.s.a.p.

No wonderlah sebelum ni saya pun dah rasa yang kevin macam hiding something from me. Saya ingat it was about his family matter or religion matter but its not that.

Bila sampai kat depan rumah saya kevin cakap

“Prof S ada recommended few students for Master kat oversea”

Saya tak tahu macamana nak describe the situation masa tu. Tapi dalam tekak saya pun dah rasa ada satu bola tersangkut. Dia tak perlu cakap lebih daripada tu lagi. I felt like the world already crashed on my head. What should I react? Happy, sad, surprised? Tapi saya tak nak fainted kat situ.

But all I said was

“Are you one of them? That’s great! I’m happy for you kev”

Betul ke kata-kata itu keluar dari mulut saya? Tapi saya tak menyesal cakap macam tu. Itu yang memang perlu saya cakap. Kalau itu cita-cita dia, kenapa saya nak jadi super penghalang. Don’t be ridiculous. Im not selfish.

But kevin said

“Are you sure ?”

“110% sure. You should apply dear . Kenapa nak fikir lagi?"

“What about you?"

“Don’t be silly. I’ll be fine”

“I don’t expect that you can be this fine. I ingat you nak marah or nangis or whatever yang a girlfriend probably do kalau boyfriend dia cakap dia akan pergi jauh for several years”

“Yes, maybe i sedih tapi why I should stop you. Its your dream kan? Your future."

"Our future"

"Ok. Tapi you mesti pergi ok. Jangan fikir pasal yang lain-lain”

“What about you? And us?”

“I can take care of myself. Don’t worry. Pasal kita tak perlu lah nak risau kev”

"I tak tahu nak buat apa"

“Just apply. I’m happy for you”

I smiled and put my hand on his cheeks and asked him to smile too. Mata kevin merah je. Tapi saya suruh dia senyum juga. I was so though kan? Even inside I felt macam nak pitam.
What was I thinking????

He will go study overbroad? Leave me here? How life is not being sooooo fair to me. Ya Allah. Masalah saya dengan kevin memang tak akan berakhir, malah bertambah lagi.

Tadi kat bangunan akademik ada terserempak dengan Kevin. He showed me a form in his file. I didn’t look at it but I guess it was the form to apply for a place for the master degree.

He said that he has not fill in. Dia tanya saya lagi if I’m okey or not. Immediately I smiled dan angguk saja.

Pretending pretending.

Kevin, why you want to do that? Don’t you think that our future is going to be more uncertain? Or I am just can’t bear to be apart from you? For couple of years. Or maybe more...

Oh myyy…

Yahoo! Answers

At 2 a.m i am asking Yahoo to answer to my headache.

But i found a question that has been asked by a girl who has came across my same dilemma. Pity her...but it was 2 years ago, hopefully that the relationship still goes on lah. Her question is

My boyfriend is leaving me to study abroad..i need help.?

*sigh.
Now, pity me.

God is testing us me...

My friend ask me this morning, why i looked so sad?

Then only i realized that i said that i'm happy but i'm actually not.

I'm maybe over react but what kevin told me yesterday will gonna change my life. In a good or bad way, a little or a lot. Definitely! I'm trying to be cool but today is a hard day for me to pass through.

Pinky habisss

My pinky lovey dovey. Ready to use.

This entry will be all in pink coz mata saya sekarang pun dah rasa pink habis. Dah lebih 5 jam ambil masa cuba berbaik-baik dengan cik pinky baru ni. harap-harap kali ni dia akan lebih lama sikit menjadi kawan saya. my acer tu sampailah jugak 5 tahun jangka hayat dia kena lanyak dengan saya. dari tak pandai pakai lappy sampailah terlebih pandai pakai lappy. jasamu ku kenang.

mama kata jangan jual. bawak balik bagi Noni. Saya baru je ingat nak melelong acer tu. But Noni.... is only in standard 2!! Budak-budak sekarang kan. Tolonglah.

Yang selalu buat adik-adik benganggg bila saya cakap... "kalau kakak dapat sesuatu tak semestinya you all boleh dapat jugak. kalau dapat pun yang recycle barang-barang yang kakak dah tak nak je laaa"

Dah. Mata dah bertukar jadi pink ke belum? Haha. Saja je cerita2 ni sebab nak tahu you all boleh tahan berpinar mata jadi pink ke tidak

Okey good night......

Bye bye from Pink Ladeyyyy
and thanking her papa for the present.

My birthday dinner with Sidd

There is no friendship between man and woman. Tak tahu berapa kali dah saya mention di sini peribahasa yang ntah siapa yang gilak ciptakan ni. Tapi selalunya ia ada kena mengena dengan hidup saya. Sebab saya tak ramai kawan lelaki. I mean best friend lelaki. Ada beberapa aje. Itu pun boleh dikira dengan jari. Sebab selalunya bila berkawan dengan lelaki maka adalah yang tak kena. Selalunya menjadi cemburu teman wanita si kawan lelaki atau menjadi cemburu teman lelaki si wanita which is in this case ialah saya.

If I went out with sidd, im sure that kevin rasa tak berapa senang. Even dia tak cakap. But I could understand. Even dia kata dia tak kisah. Tapi I can know from his face or from his voice tone. Tapi saya degil. Tetap keluar juga sebab saya rasa tak salah keluar dengan kawan. ;). Tolonglah…kawan is kawan. I am a one man woman, so I love only one man. Riak ke kalau saya cakap macam tu? Kita tak tahu kan apa nak jadi. But so far, he is the only one I love in my life. But I still love kawan-kawan baik saya. Perempuan dan lelaki juga.

Sebab tu kalau kadang-kadang tu setakat keluar makan dengan sidd, saya tak bgtahu kevin. sometimes rasa tak sedap hati tapi kalau bagitahu lagi tak sedap hati. Nak kawan pun kena sorok-sorok pulak.

Last night saya keluar dengan sidd kevin tahu sebab since morning sidd dah start wishing me happy birthday every hours!. SMS and call. Kevin pun tahu sebab saya bagitahu dia. Sidd memang macam tu. Kadang-kadang tak sangka apa yang dia nak lakukan.

Sidd datang ambil saya pukul 8 malam. Mula-mula singgah kat 1B sebab dia nak beli kasut. dia mintak saya pilihkan. I choosed the grey + blue one. Cantekkk. Trust me. =D

Lepas tu dalam pukul 10 lebih barulah pergi dinner kat waterfront. Dia belanja saya makan apa saja saya nak. Then he also bought me a teddy bear, again. the 2nd one sebab last year pun dia bagi teddy bear. Dia kata every year saya akan dapat teddy bear sampai saya tua. So sweet kann..rugi siapa tak jadi girlfriend dia. Haha.

Then kami duduk situ cerita-cerita sambil mula buat misi calling kawan2 sekolah lama dulu. Seronok sangat sebab semuanya pun macam dah ada kat sana sini. Ada yang belajar ada yang dah kerja dan ada yang dah kahwin. See la umur saya dan kami semua pun dah 23, dah sesuai. =P

Sidd hantar saya balik dah dekat pukul 1 pagi. Then sebelum tidur saya texted kevin bgtahu saya dah balik dan nak tidur. He didn’t reply. So over the suspens punya pasal saya terus call dia wpun masa tu dah dekat pukul 2 pagi. Kevin belum tidur sebenarnya. Jadi saya cakap la saya minta maaf kalau dia marah. Tapi masih nak defend diri sendiri dengan menyatakan yang saya keluar tu dengan kawan so he no need to behave over2 sangat. =)

Tapi dia cakap he already trust me so I do not need to gain his trust. Apa maksud dia ye? The whole day saya masih fikir what did he meant. Tapi harap dia akan restu persahabatan saya dengan sidd. kevin tu sangat penyabar, jadi dia mesti boleh cool with this too. I guess lah. No, not only guess but i want him to bless.

23rd birthday

Thankss a million to the wishes from all of you. Yes, i turn 23 today. Happy birthday to me. 23? Such a big number already. Im no more a teenagers. Im a grown up girl. Im thinking that I cant call my blog ‘bvlgarigirl’ already. Maybe I got to change it to ‘bvlgariwoman’ hehe. But I always like bvlgari and I always want to be a girl. SO I rather keep it to remain young at heart. =D sila lah laugh.

Pagi tadi dapat a big courier from my house. Exactly on my birthday? Mum is always good at arranging the date. There are presents and cards from home. I got what I wish for this year’s birthday. The wish list dah pun pass dekat parents since last month. They asked for it! Bukan I mintak. But I don’t mind if they do not give me anything. Cukuplah mereka sayangkan saya sepenuh hati. Dah cukup segala penat lelah, makan pakai yang diberikan. Tapi who is not happy kan? A bvlgari bracelet from mama and a pink VAIO from papa. Memandangkan my acer dah kerap memberi masalah. I just wished. But if its come true, who can say NO kan. ;). Oh happy happy.

I havent ON the lappy yet. I got no time because I have to rush to lecture at 11am. Actually I skipped a tutorial this morning sebab last night I celebrated with my love until 3am. Crazy him. I felt weird at first sebab he acted strage since the evening. After he sent me to fetch the car, saya ajak lunch sama-sama pun dia cakap buzy. Saya minta tolong tengokkan kelisa tu takut ada apa-apa problem pun dia kata tak sempat. Then saya ajak dinner sama-sama pun dia kata dia ada hal. I almost cry sebab fikir kenapa dia nak avoid me. Sedih gile.

I totally forgot my birthday (never happened before in my life) until 10pm when my mum called to wish me. She was afraid that dia akan miss the 12am wish sebab dia sangat penat dan nk tidur awal. Saya pun pergi tidur awal sebab dah sedih. Dengan perut lapar dan keseorangan pulak kat rumah. yaya belum balik fieldwork dan kakmin tak balik rumah lagi masa tu. Terlelap kejap saja macam baru dapat satu mimpi, terkejut sebab dengar hon kuat depan rumah. Saya takut even nak jenguk dari tingkap pun tak berani. But the honk kept singing right infront of the gate. I mean honk honk yang kalau lama sikit aje lagi akan ada jiran keluar baling lesung batu.

Saya masih degil tak nak keluar. So, he had to call me. Kesian, surprise tak menjadi. Hik hik. He called and asked me to open the door. But when I opened the door tu it was still a surprise la sebab dia dah lighted the candles on the cake and sang loudly from infront of the gate. Saya tak sangka dia akan nyanyi kuat2 macam tu. Gile la dia.

Saya tutup muka sebab malu.. Segan nanti jiran keluar tengok. But in my heart sebenarnya I almost jumping and ran to get him.

It was never in my life that I met that crazy yet romantic boyfriend like him.

He asked me to blow the candle. Masa tu saya kat dalam pagar dan dia kat luar pagar. Saya potong kek pun dari dalam pagar. Haha. Macam tak ingat nak buka pintu pagar pulak. Funny.

We then went out for dinner sebab saya cakap saya lapar. Went to Tanjung Aru then after dinner we just jalan-jalan tepi pantai. There were another people there so kami pun berani stay sana. Kalau tak ada orang jangan berani2 nanti cari masalah pula.

I felt like I don’t want anyone else in my life except him. At that time i just want to capture the moment with my foot touched the sands and my hand in his hand.

I love you so much kevin.

How to live a longer life ?

There's a lecturer gave us a very tricky topic today for a short assignment.

How To Live A Longer Life

Immediately came to our mind things like

eat healthy food

exercise regularly

But I want to write something more interesting. and unique!

Still thinking but i dont have any better idea now. Maybe i need a glass of full cream milk.

Any idea my friends out there?

How To Live A Longer Life ?

Update. Thanks people =)

Neeya_deeya said to love a longer lifeis with love and to be love

Cahayachenta said always smile.. learn to forgive and forget...

Fazira said One way of to live longer is to be happy. Happy with ur life. Happy with the one u live with. Happy with the surronding.Without stress. Love and be happy with everything u do and live happily with everyone u live. Scientist Ada cakap satu senyuman Dan gembira sudah cukup utk memanjangkan hayat manusia. Kalau every seconds? Hehehhe

MrK said Marry as many young girls as I can. kajian mengatakan lelaki akan hidup lebih lama jika mengahwini gadis muda.

Lifesaver said happy always

cikpida said laughter is the best medicine

Datang juga...

Okeylah orang kata kalau kita benar-benar mengharapkan seseorang itu datang, dia pasti akan dapat rasa dan akan datang juga kan?

Yes you are right.

Brpppp...alhamdulillah

Dah kenyang, baru habis makan Stella punya ikan kukus, the bestest in KK.

But its not all about the food...

Selamat malam.

=)

Party party party

I asked him not to come but im still waiting for him. ?????? Blahhh. That sounds crazy. but this is it. Hate this uneasy feelings.

Demmmmm Demmmmmmmmm

urgghhhh !

Watched this many times already since 9pm...

Not now

Kevin : Hello dear. Malam ni kita pergi dinner rumah stella nak?
Me : Sorry ye kev. banyak kerja la malam ni. Nak buat report.
Kevin : Report apa?
Me : Emm ..practical punya tu
Kevin : You said you’ve finish it right?
Me : Did i? Belum lagi, I salah cakap kot.
Kevin : Okey, nevermind. Some other time okey. U want something for dinner? I can tapau from stella’s house.
Me : Its okey thanks. I’ll make sandwich only.

Well, saya tak nak pergi rumah stella dulu. Saya tak nak jumpa stella dan dengar apa cerita yang dia cakap nak cerita kalau kami jumpa. Malas nak fikir dulu kalau-kalau ia membawa masalah kepada saya. Tapi sampai bila nak lari kan? Kadang-kadang kita boleh lari daripada masalah. See what am I doing?

At least untuk sementara waktulahh… you think that you are so smart already Arianna?

=D haha.

People, im off to bed. Bed? Its 5pm! Ye la…baring-baring saja. lagipun hari ni sangat penat. Naik bas lagi. seorang diri lagi tu menambahkan penat. Sebab tak ada kawan nak sembang2 dalam bas. Yaya went to Tawau for few days. Ada field work. So, Im all alone today. 3 lectures, 2 tutorial boleh buat otak jem. 3 assignment dalam tangan. Berapa lagi coming soon. Oh wow.

Tidur sekejap, kemudian bangunlah. Tapi harap-harap bukan bangun esok pagilah.

Mulakan hari baru

Heyliuuu

Feel like nothing to write or blog about these few daysss... plus i need some times to adjust myself with another routine and to overcome my HOMESICK.

Mesti nak homesick bila baru lepas cuti. This is so irritating. normally ia akan muncul pada malam terakhir di rumah. mesti tak boleh tidur lena sebab rasa akan missing something the next day. rasa macam kosong dalam hati. you got what i mean right? Walaupun cuba memujuk diri sendiri yang saya akan jumpa orang-orang lain yang saya sayang juga di kk.

Lepas tu adegan mama bertanya dah ambil kek dalam tupperware, papa tanya tiket dah ada, mama lagi tanya duit dah simpan elok-elok, papa pulak tanya beg tu agak-agak over weight tak.

I hate the situation. Sebab saya tengah sedih diasak soalan-soalan yang macam mereka nak cepat-cepat saya pergi. ceh.

Tapi bila tiba di airport bila mama peluk dan mengalir airmata. bila papa peluk dan merah juga matanya sambil pesan jangan lupa solat. Masa tu saya tahu mereka pun tak rela lepaskan anak mereka pergi sekali lagi. kalau ada kampus sebelah rumah, dah tentu kat situ je saya belajar agaknya. [X-X]

Tadi dah start kuliah. bangun pagi2 tengok kakmin pun dah siap kat depan TV tengok red carpet Grammys. Tension. Ikut duduk situ sambil minum nescafe kakmin. Saat-saat terakhir kevin dah ada kat depan pagar dan bagi isyarat hon kecil barulah saya keluar. sebelum hon besar kedengaran. Hihi.

Kevin kena tolong saya hantar ke kampus pagi tadi sebab kereta sewa sewa belum ambil lagi. Orang tu kata nak hantar esok. I miss may kelisa tu. harap dapat the same car. dah lama bersama-sama rasa macam dah serasi. senang sebab dah saling memahami. Lepas kuliah tadi balik dengan bas. bukan tak tahan atau tak pandai naik bas. bukan hidung tinggi. tapi bab menunggu dan perjalanan yang memakan masa itu yg tak tahan. kelas habis pukul 6, pukul 8 belum sampai rumah lagi.

kevin bukan boleh selalu ambil hantar saya. plus he is not my driver, dia pun ada kuliah dan tutorial yang lain timing dgn saya. Dan saya pun tak mahu jadi cewek yang manja.

Hari jumaat tu sampai airport pun saya naik taxi je ke rumah sewa. sebab kevin tak ada kat kk. dia masuk hutan dengan coursemate dia. see, i am very independent sampai kena tipu dengan driver taxi itu. tak perlulah nak cerita sebab kemarahan saya masih menebal lagi terhadap itu driver.

On sunday, late sunday barulah kevin balik dari fieldwork, dan terus singgah cari saya kat rumah sewa. he is so sweet. walaupun saya cakap baliklah hostel mandi dan rehat dulu. tapi dia datang terus sebab dia kata dia rindu sangat. terus saya cakap "Oh my, you smell like a tree kev". Dengan kasut penuh lumpur, dengan baju yang macam askar keluar hutan. Dia sengih saja. Lepas tu dia masih nak temankan saya pergi makan walaupun dengan mata yang merah sebab mengantuk dan kepenatan. that is why i sayang dia.

okeylah. this sem is gonna be the very last sem saya akan bersama dengan kevin belajar di tempat yg sama. he is gonna graduate, and leaving me here, alone and lonely.

Takpe, kuatkan semangat.