How much does paintball hurts?

I’m counting days now. Can’t wait to go back to KL haha. This week macam berjalan terlalu lambatlah. Mama dah pesan udang kering dan terubuk masin from here. Petang ni nak pergi beli kalau kuliah habis betul-betul sharp 5pm. Sometimes prof tu suka panjang-panjangkan tanpa signal. Dia main terus je apa dia nak cakap sampai nampak semua dah tengok-tengok jam masing-masing.

Malam keluar dinner dengan sidd kat tanjung lipat. Sidd nak makan steambot. I called kevin tapi dia tak dapat ikut sebab ada tutorial ganti malam tadi. Saya nak ajak clara sama tapi tengok rumah Jen gelap je. I texted jen , jen cakap mereka kat rumah kawan Jen. Don’t know where lah. so, we went out just two of us.

We ate steam boat tapi saya order mee kungfu jugak sebab rasa lapar sangat tak cukup steamboat =P. tapi mee kungfu tu tak sama dengan kat semenanjung punya. Macam tak kick je. Tapi habis jugalah makan sebab dah lapar kannn.

Lepas tu ikut sidd pergi kat paintball centre sebab sidd nak booking date untuk kolej dia buat game. Family day punya game. Best jugak ye main paintball. Tak pernah cuba seumur hidup sebab I thought that playing paintball hurts. Bila dulu tengok kawan-kawan yang balik main paintball lebam-lebam tangan dia. Ada protection ke untuk avoid lebam tu? Sidd ajak join sekali nanti tapi tak berani lah. Buatnya kena ‘phamm!!!’ kat pipi ke dahi ke tak ke biru seminggu macam kena tumbuk.



I wish ada mask protection macam ni kalau nak ajak saya main paintball



Or i can wear something like this for camouflage



See see...you can't see me anymore. You can't shoot me. bluwekkk

Aiskrim susu pisang blended

Last night rasa nak makan aiskrim susu pisang blended. Sometimes ada crazy punya feel nak makan something pelik-pelik. So I blend je susu segar + pisang dan campur dengan aiskrim Vanilla. Sedap nyee. Rasa macam tak cukup semangkuk. Makan sambil tengok Trick Or Treat movie kat astro. But sometimes bila tengok darah-darah semua tu rasa macam nak munt@# sebab kembang je dalam tekak. HAHA

Emmm im a bit buzy lah today. And bit tired too sebab panas sangat. Lucky kuliah ½ day je hari ni. Balik tadi lapar sangat tak tapau apa-apa dari café. Masak nasi dan tengok ada canned punya black bean fried mackarel. So makan tu aje. Lepas tu terus pulun siapkan assgment esok nak submit.

Ok dah nak cont with my work. Bye bye

Clara and hope

There's a reader who noticed about me saying something about the decision i'm making for Clara.

I am planning something but because it is so important i am doing it very carefully and wisely. I have to refer to certain people so i'm still afraid that it can turn to the way that i don't want to, so i prefer to keep it first. Takut tak jadi. But i'll try the best. And it is really important to me.

The neighbour's family is back to normal where the father left and Jen is all alone. The worst, the worst when Jen told me last night that she is pregnant with her 3rd child. With clara and her little brother not so in stable life, and Jen is pregnant again? I am speechless. It will become worst for clara.

I dont need to get involved in all these but i can't just shut my eyes. Everytime i'm home, I could hear Clara's voice. Most of the time crying. It melted my heart. Kadang-kadang saya pakai earphone bila ada di rumah dan masa nak keluar rumah. sebab tak sanggup nk dengar lagi. i tried to ignore, but i just can't.

Like today, pukul 7 pagi lagi dah dengar Jen marah-marah Clara. I don't blame Jen also. She is all alone. With 2 small kids, and another coming one. No husband around. No family to help her. Parents in law dislike them. Saya mungkin dah jadi gila kalau saya jadi Jen. Seriously.

I went to their house at 10am and took clara to my house. Jen thanked me every time i extended my assistance. It's better to see Clara in front of me now. I thanked my housemate for being so understanding to have a kid around us in the house.
But who don't fall in love with the adorable girl. We all love her.

Oh! The sun. I need sunglasses

Seems like nothing to do this morning i started to hop on and hop off on the websites to look for sunglasess

I need a new pair of it since my CD looks old already..haahaa. Dah nak masuk 2 tahun dah. boring dohh..

So, this time rasa nak bvlgari pula.

Oh coolness


too glamour kot



this is nice. looks great even bawa anak. i should consider this sebab i akan ada anak nanti. opssss



Cun. I like this one !



but I see somethin else ..do you? hi hi

cantik juga tapi tak sesuai dengan saya

Like this one too

Oh boyyy..i should get this for kev.

Ok now order order time

My goddd

Riang gembira

Am feeling good todayyy!

I met my beloved boy today after several days. How my life could be without him. I will figure it out sooner or later. It hurts already thinking about that. I'm gonna miss the way he greated me after sometimes being apart. He came straight away looking directly to my eyes and said

"How i miss you"

I melted..melted. Hehe

We had a quick lunch together in the cafe and he left to his outside work. He said its gonna be until tonight. He looked thinner i guess. Katanya makan minum pun tak sempat nak jaga. Pity him.

Let's back to my life. im busy recently too as i have presentations n project to finish n also alot of testess n quizssss. Tried to settle any project involving me dan cuba pujuk my coursemate to cancel any meeting or work planned during next weekend since im going back to KL.

Yesterday i went to meet Kak Mai. she said i looked chubbier. Wow. a chubby bunny she called me. Really that chubby? I'm looking in the mirror now but i cant figure it out myself. let my mum decide later when i get home =). but i don't really mind as long as im happy and still healthy.

I waited for her to finished up her work until 7pm and we went for our dinner. I had curry mee at her friend's restaurant. It was so hot hot sampai panas perut makan. =P After that we had a looong chat sampai pukul 10 lebih. Then i drove balik.

Bah, itu je. nothing much interesting pun. sometimes i just have nothing to update. takut buat u all bosan je. ba bye !

Quick note

Tangan kaki semua lenguh-lenguh sebab main bola tampar 2 days in a row. Dah lama tak warm up tiba-tiba terus pakai teruk teruk thats why lah. Rasa sangat seksa nak turun tangga. bila naik okey pulak.

My lecture has been cancelled this morning left us bored to death to wait for the next lecture. But since today is one of our coursemate's birthday, we went out to the nearest shop and bought him a cake and some muffins. We took him to a tutorial room and threw him a birthday surprise. Bukan selalu dapat surprise macam tu. Kesian dia terkejut sangat. haha

Today i miss kevin so much. it has been few days i didn't see him. He is busy. Takpelah, biar dia settle semua kerja dia then i can see him soon. Hopefully.

Honestly, I am also so over these certain people! who never give me a break. Keep asking a silly questions about us. I just want to be normal. And loving him is the most normal things i've ever done. Puas hati?

I'm going to state library after this to borrow some extra books. And after that i might stop over at Kak Mai's office to say hye. Miss her too.

Daaa...

Tips student : Sebelum dan semasa lecture

I agree …a lecture could be more interesting if the lecturer is interesting. Siapa setuju dengan saya?

Tapi, kita mana boleh nak pilih lecturer ni best, aku nak pergi, lecturer ni tak best aku nak skip. Kalau macam tu kirim salam lah, next sem jumpa lagi sebab kena repeat paper.

I’ve some tips here yang boleh buat satu-satu lecture tu lebih menarik. And we also have to put some effort in it. Jangan masuk lecture tak dapat apa-apa. Rugi je dohh.. haha cam best je. Tapi ini juga reminder utk saya supaya boleh survive study lagi setahun. [-.-]” huh lamanyaa lagi…

Sebelum lecture

Do some brief reading. Pastikan kita tahu topik apa yang akan diberi lecture hari tu. Jangan main masuk je dalam dewan dan tersalah dewan lagi sebab tak prepare. Separuh jalan tengok kelas menjahit padahal nak belajar memasak. Huh.

Kalau ada soalan untuk ditanya, tulis siap-siap dan bawak ke dewan.

Tengok handout yang diberi. Sesetengah lecturer akan bagi handout siap-siap utk silibus. Kadang-kadang ada lecture buat note dekat website atau facebook dia. Kelasss. Kita boleh print juga untuk reference kita. Highlight apa-apa yang tak faham dan tambah note sendiri mana yang berkenaan.


Semasa lecture

Sampai awal. Alasan bas lambat tak boleh terima. Bukan bas yang lambat, awak yang lambat sebenarnya. Jangan miss the beginning of the lecture sebab pembukaan tu sangat penting. Macam tengok CSI, kalau miss the very first 5 minutes tu tak payah la tengok lagi. tak best dah jadinya.

Kalau ada student yang boleh distract your attention, jauhkan diri dari dia dalam dewan. Buat-buat tak kenal.

Labelkan nota- letak tajuk dan tarikh lecture – dan keep track nota-nota tu. Senang bila nak buat revision atau nak refer untuk assignment. Kalau boleh numbering kan page semua.

Buat nota sendiri- jangan depend pada nota lecturer atau kawan-kawan. When you writing you own, pemahaman tu lebih. It is not about the handwriting. Walaupun cakar ayam. Redha je lah.

Organise nota-. Leave plenty of space in the margins so that you can easily add to your notes later. Saya suka pakai ring binder tu sebab kalau ada additional note nak letak senang kan. Buka dan masuk dan tutup je.

Tak perlu tulis semua yang keluar dari mulut lecturer. Impossible dan tak penting nak ambil semuanya. Belajar ambil point dan key words.

Catitkan point yang tak difahami- lepas lecture, buat research dan follow up.

Lepas lecture, terus review note. Jangan simpan sampai exam baru buka balik. Time tu mulalah kelam kabut. Die die.

That’s all I can think right now.

Okey, good luck. Happy happy masuk lecture lepas ni okies.

Feels like beachy

Yesterday evening I felt like wanted to go somewhere with open fresh air. Where else? Beach beach.

We are surrounded by sea here so going to the beach it’s not as hard as in KL where you have to drive like an hour only to see the beach. The nearest is PD or is there any other pantai kat kl except Pantai dalam? =P

I called Yaya yang masih ada kat kampus pukul 4 petang. Terus paksa dia siap-siap saya datang ambil dia pergi pantai. Kesian kawan yang belum siap kerja kena temankan saya. I know. I’m a bit mengada tapi yaya tak kisah. =). Kevin is busy this few days so saya tak nak ganggu dia.

There were not many people so we could choose the best spot. Under the tree. Baring atas tikar sambil minum 100plus dan makan cheese cake I bought earlier. Heaven !

My favourite places of all in the world are :

1. Tepi laut
2. Library
3. Masjid

These 3 places adalah tempat yang paling menenangkan to me. I’ve never been to Mekah. Kata orang di sana pun kita akan rasa tenang. Betul ke? One day, insyaallah.


Heaven on earth



Awww...nice view. So though.


Wait for meeeeee....!!!!!

Today collect ticket

I just came back from KK. Went to collect my flight ticket. Yey! I’m going back to KL next weekend. 1 April flight. Since kat sini nanti ada cuti Good Friday on 2 April, so sempatlah saya balik 3,4 hari weekend tu. Mama dah bising sebab dah rindu anak dia. Papa pun cakap it’s good if I can go back at least 2 bulan sekali ke jumpa family. Terlalu lama berpisah pun tak baik katanya. Bangga betul dapat parents macam ni. =P

Mula-mula datang sini dulu rasa macam every weekend nak balik. Homesicklah, demam lah. Sebab tak pernah berenggang, tiba-tiba pergi seberang laut. Walaupun begitu, saya berjaya kuatkan semangat. Kalau ikutkan hati, tukar balik kat kolej kat KL je lah. cari yang sebelah rumah lagi senang nak berkepit ngan parents. Tapi I’m sure I’m not gonna be this strong. Strong lah sangat….perasan. but at least I’m independent. Dulu kalau pergi klinik pun saya akan ajak my mum temankan masuk dalam bilik doktor nak cek up. Sampai satu kali tu doktor cakap let my mum wait outside. Masa tu barulah sedar I’m not a little child anymore. Dah sah anak sulung memang manja kan.

Papa cakap ada something yang mereka nak discuss juga dengan saya. About our family. Uhhh! I hate when people ask me to wait to tell me about something. Tak sabar. But it must be something important to our family. Haaa…I also have something to tell my parents. Emm actually to ask for something. I hope they can consider that.

I’ve bought nasi lemak for breakfast. Nak makan dulu coz dah starving. Talk to you later. Bye

P/S About those shoes, bila fikir balik rasa sayang gile nak lelong. Even tak pakai lagi pun. emmm.. tengoklah kalau saya rasa nak jual, i'll tell you guys ok =). Sorry i can change my mind unexpectedly..haha

Nak beli kasut 2nd hand?

He he he

Better not to plan

It does not matter if what we planned did not meet our expectations. But when it happened twice, we tend to feel annoyed even there’s reason for that. The planning to take me to go to Sandakan went mess last weekend. Again. He said he wanted to take me there. But this is the 2nd time that his parents wanted to come down to KK when we wanted to go there. I’m pretty sure that it’s nothing to do with me going there. Of course his parents didn’t know. But don’t feel good about that. Bukan nak pergi jumpa his parents pun, Cuma saya nak pergi jalan-jalan ke sana. Dan kevin pun nak bawa saya tengok tempat dia. That is it kot. Dah malas nak plan.

I don’t blame kevin but he need to know that I am frustrated.

I spent my weekend at home on Saturday. I finished up whatever pending assignments that I have. And cleaned up the house. Then I and yaya cooked something special just to pamper ourselves. When I got bored I went to intai the neighbour if clara is home so that I could take her back but they were not around during weekend. Only this morning I saw Jen rushing to work. Clara must be at her in laws.

On Sunday pulak saya baru nak siap-siap keluar makan at about 1pm, kevin called and said he wanted to see me. Rupanya dia bawakan some food from Stella’s house yang his mother masakkan untuk lunch. Ada steamed fish dan sayur campur. He won’t bring any chicken for me sebab dia pun tak pasti whether it is halal. Kalau beli kat pasar tu ada juga yang tak sembelih. Kalau beli kat pasaraya confirm lah halal kan. And kevin minta maaf sebab our plan tak menjadi lagi. I’m frustrated but I’m not mad.

when I saw kevin, rasa kesian pun ada sebab saya tahu dia terlalu banyak simpan masalah dengan dia since we get together. He has the limitation to express it to his parents. He looks cool aje but he has a tonnes of burden on his shoulder. He has to study, nak plan pasal further study lagi, fikir pasal saya lagi. fikir pasal convert lagi. Dia tak pernah mengeluh dengan saya. Tapi saya tahu dia pun ada certain time dia tak dapat handle. Kadang-kadang dia akan cakap dia sakit kepala, need rest. So, kalau ada simple2 matter saya tak nak panjang-panjangkan cerita. I have to consider. And be supportive to him.

Sometimes saya ada fikir nak cakap dengan kevin
“How about we forget about us and just concentrate on our study. We meet again after we get what we want”

Tapi sebelum dia pengsan, saya rasa saya yang pengsan dulu nak cakap macam tu.

(-.-)"

Blogger award di hari minggu

Sometimes when you received award-award kan maksudnya you are a noticable blogger. Yey!

Thanks for people yang ada notice saya. But this?

Beautiful blogger? Hahaha...nak terima ke tidak. sebab tidak beatiful pun. Malu lah . Tapi takpe since pemberinya adalah beautiful =)

Thanks to

http://princess09.blogspot.com/ (Honey Bee)

and

http://mon2only.blogspot.com/ (Sis Monica)

7 things about myself?

What shall i say...emmm

1. Enjoy food

2. Hate making decisions

3. I like music

4. I like to live life on the run

5. I love bvlgari ! Obviously lah...

6. I like rain. I mean the weather, bukan Rain the superstar

7. Im defensive driver. Haha

And i'm forwarding this to another beautiful-beautiful ladies here. Gentleman are not in this game haha.

I'm going by blog name

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http://zacksygfaiz.blogspot.com/

http://princess09.blogspot.com/

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Love you all

The rest not here are also beautiful =)

Planning for weekend

Yaya woke me up this morning at 5am
“Yana bangun. Aku rasa today is the end of the world”
Terkejut saya terus bangun
“Kenapa?”Yaya tarik tangan saya
“Mari sini tengok”

Yaya bawak saya intai tepi langsir. Tengok adegan jiran sebelah rumah. Jen & husband and clara and their little son. Like a happy family. Jen sending the husband to the car. Nak pergi kerja agaknya. Then mereka cerita-cerita dan ketawa. I should be happy seeing that. But why I felt like its like a drama. They were never like that before. All I heard were quarelling and yelling all the time. It must have been God blessing them now.

Think positive so saya bersyukur kepada tuhan. Alhamdulillah. I never see clara as happy as today. I went to touched her chin before I left for campus today.

I asked her
“Clara okey?”

She nodded and smiled as she understood my question.

Hari ni my lecture starts at 11am. But I came a bit early to go the library. Pulang buku, pinjam buku. Dan study sikit.
This weekend ada plan sikit. No, actually a BIGGG plan.
We are going somewhere.

Funny sunny day

I was late to the campus today. Nasib baik my tutor hari ni agak in good mood. She allowed me in although I was late for about 20 minutes. I had to baby sit last night and slept a bit late. I have to make sure she fell asleep then only I finished up my assignment. The dateline is today. Mama call last night while I was playing with Clara and she asked who is the girl when she heard clara’s voice. I said it’s neighbour’s daughter and I took her home just to accompany me since KakMin and Yaya are not home. I really really wanted to tell mama the story of the little girl but I have to wait for some other time yang lebih sesuai. Actually I have something really important decision on Clara that I want to ask mama for her advice. I want to keep it with me first. If I believe what I do is right, then only I tell you people.
Okey? =)

But I can feel that what I’m gonna do is the most right thing I have ever done in my life.

I just love Clara.

Kevin is better today. I saw him today after my class. He was on the way to the library and passed by the place where I and my coursemate were hanging around. They made noise when they saw kevin, then only I perasan. They made all the phewitt sounds, the ehem ehem sounds. Like silly kids. I dare not to see at kevin’s face at all . Malu gile sampai rasa nak masuk bawah bangku tempat duduk tu. Kevin mesti senyum je. Dia suka senyum walaupun kena usik kaw kaw dengan orang.

I guess that some of friends dah tahu about us and they can accept that. But some are still looking at us weirdly. Like kami ni berdosa besar sebab berkawan berlainan agama.

Then kevin sms me *You looked sweet when you are blushing*

Demmm…merah ke telinga saya tadi?

This memory is going to be a sweet memory when he is not here anymore.

Double meaning?

Kevin demam semalam . Dia tak dapat pergi kuliah the whole day. So last night saya temankan dia pergi klinik. He looked so pale dan batuk-batuk. Terserempak pula dengan Sidd masa nak keluar klinik tu. Sidd was there beli ubat. And we all went to have our dinner. I paksa Kevin to eat something since he didn’t eat anything yesterday. We talked about the incident the other day where sidd got hit on his head. Pity betul. Ada lah nampak parut bekas jahitan tu. Tapi rasanya lama-lama nanti rambut kat situ akan tumbuh lah kan. Lagi kesian kalau botak sikit kat tepi kepala tu. Kalau botak terus takpe jugak. Sometiems I like lelaki botak. Haha.

Sidd also said that he is not going to move to KL yet. Maybe some time around next year. And Kevin, out of sudden said to sidd

“Sidd, it’s good that you still in KK. You can help me to take care of her if I’m not around”

I answered "It’s ok. I can take care of myself laa”

I just don’t feel right for Kevin to say like that. Maybe on the other hand it’s good that Kevin still trust us being friends. He still allow us to be friends even if he is not here.

But I don’t know if he really meant it or whatttt.

Have you ever dreamt that you have a baby?

I have.

Last night.

In the dream I have a baby girl about 4-5 months old. I guess as she could already laugh. She is adorable. I could feel the love showering us as a mother and baby.

I held her, i kissed her, i tickled her. And i called myself 'Mummy' to the baby.

What does it mean? No, no of course i'm not pregnant lah.

But i didn't see the father of the baby also.... emmm [-.-]" ruginya

Stranger masuk rumah

Good evening, have you had a good Sunday? Mine is okey. Nothing much except tried to finish some pending assignment.

Yesterday i spent my time with kev watching movie and did some food sampling, we went with his car sebab my car that tuan kereta ambil balik for servicing since it broke down the other day. We were joining by Stella after the movie for late lunch together since stella ada kat Wisma Merdeka also at that time. Then i asked kevin to send me back sebab saya rasa macam pening kepala. At one time saya kena pegang dia turun escalator sebab rasa macam goyang-goyang je. scary. i thought ada gempa bumi ke apa sebab yesterday ada gempa kat Indonesia kan? Kevin was so worried nak bawak saya pergi klinik la dia kata kena check tapi of course saya tak suka pergi klinik. Saya lebih rela telan panadol dan balik tidur.

And i became so lazy today. Feels like want to sleep all day. Kev went to Labuan this morning with his group for some research. He asked me whether i want to come along, but i just don't like to disturb them doing their work and don't want to be called spoiled girlfriend by his friends. You know, like a girl who likes to follow her bf everywhere. That is just not me.

I would rather spending my time watching ulangan movies kat astro (Why movie sekarang banyak ulang-ulang? Sangat tak faham) Or help yaya cleaning the aquarium tanks which the water has turned to greenish color already. She done the cleaning today. Amazing! I think it's going to rain today lah.

I didn't hear the voice of little Clara from next door. They are not at home for 2 days already. Felt like want to text Jen and ask her if they are doing fine. But i didn't. Until now. Because i just don't want to mess up in their husband and wife matter as all i care is about Clara.

Last night i sent a text i meant for kevin, to mama. And i chocked myself immediately. I just waited for mama to reply or call me but she didn't. And she did only today at 6am. By the time i supposed to wake up for subuh prayer but in KK the sun has already smiling through the window at 6am. She asked me who is 'love' in my 'Good night love' sms last night. And i went like..

"Kawan"

"Kawan who you called 'love'? He or she?"

"He, of course. Takkan she pulak...." Hah ! She has caught me.

"Tak bagitahu mama pun..."

"Errr...kawan je. Nanti kakak cerita la"

"Ok, tak sabar mama nak dengar cerita. Nak mama bagitahu papa?"

"Tak payah la mama. Kawan kawan tak serius lah"

"Tak baik macam tu. Kalau serius, seriuslah jangan main-main"

"Hah? Ok. Nanti kita cerita bila kita jumpa. Tak best la kat telefon"

"Ok. Jangan lupaaa.."

I thought i would get an extra lecture in the morning on Sunday. As always when i have boyfriend, eh macam ramai bf pulak ayat betul riak. When i have boyfriend, mama mesti nak lecture sikit. Bagi ayat penenang hati tapi menyakitkan telinga kat saya. Suruh take care la, belajar sampai habis dulu, jangan kawan dengan budak jahat, and what so ever. Tapi mungkin sekarang sebab umur pun dah sesuai kot nak berkawan dengan lelaki. Is it the time?

Itu belum tentu lagi dia sabar tunggu sampai saya balik cuti. Ntah esok, lusa atau kejap-kejap lagi dia call lagi. She sounds so excited kan?. She will be not soooo excited when she gets to know what i'm going to tell her. I'm a bit nervous. No, i'm a BIG nervous. Or i should say 'We have broke up' when she start to ask me again.

Oh! By the way, there's one lost cat masuk ke rumah saya pagi tadi. It was super duper cute but little bit skinny. Mungkin tak cukup makan kot. Don't know the owner tapi saya ada bagi dia makan sardin satu tin kecil dia habiskan. Comel gile

Tapi lepas saya mandi, saya cari si putih tu dah tak jumpa dah. Mcm cepat sangat dia hilang. Pelik pun ada. Tapi i left back door opened, with grill of course la. Mungkin dia dah lari lepas kekenyangan.

Hey! you never say thanks to me aaaaa.....!!! Lucky i got your pic pf proof here in case the officer ask me.

Hehe bye comel.

Hey! i'm still waiting...

I did what you told me .....
I sent the email to 10 people like you said,
I'm still waiting for that miracle to happen .........




To all my friends,

Who in the last year sent me best 'wishes', chain letters, 'angel' letters or other promises of good luck if I forwarded something,

NONE OF THAT CRAP WORKED!

In future, could you please just send money, chocolate, movie tickets, petrol vouchers and airline tickets instead?


Thank you!

I see the sun shine !

This is what i'm thinkin about the whole night

Tolong make up my day

I have 2 lectures saja pagi tadi then kuliah petang cancel digantikan hari isnin nanti. Lepas kuliah terus pergi café cari makanan sebab macam dah kebuluran dalam dewan. Sampai perut rasa sakit bergulung-gulung.

Sampai sana breakfast semua dah tinggal habuk-habuk. Dah diaorang dah prepare untuk makanan lunch. Terus lunch sajalah. Makan sama-sama dengan the other 2 coursemate. Lepas tu we all pergi library cari reference untuk projek. Saya rasa projek kali ni paling susah. sebab team tak ramai tapi projek ala mega. Macam 10 orang nak kena buat. Lepas tu group pulak macam gamp aje. Semua malas dan asyik nak harapkan orang buat kerja je. Benci betul.

Saya duduk kat rak paling belakang sekali sebab dah dapat buku best. Meja pulak penuh dan rasa malas nak menyelit tumpang meja strangers. Duduk bersila kat celah rak. Nyamannya kena aircond. Rak besi pulak sejuk je rasanya. Carpet pun macam memanggil-manggil nak baring kat situ. Takpe, buka mata luas2 dan buka page 1 of Environmental Ethics. Terus ZZZzzzzz

Sumpah tak sedar. My coursemate pun tak cari saya ingat saya dah balik sendiri. Sampailah bila rasa ada orang cuit hidung. Rasa jari dia yang sejuk. Tapi saya masih sambung mimpi jadi beruang kutub dengan hidung yang sejuk.

Buka mata bila dengar orang panggil nama saya berkali-kali.

Kevin senyum sambil ketawa. Terus saya buat shhhh… dan tutup mulut dia.

Lepas tu kami keluar library pergi café minum sekejap. Kevin baru nak lunch masa tu so temankan dia. Masa lunch saya tanya dia pasal B yang apply further study juga. Sebenarnya saya dengar dari orang lain. Bukan dari kevin. Tapi kevin cakap dia tak tahu. Boleh percaya ke? Ntah lah. Ada lah rasa tension, fed up, bengang, risau and jealous..of course lah. A woman who is hunting for your boy nak ikut dia pergi further study sama-sama. Gile kalau tak naik angin kan. For 2 years at least lagi tu. Hah..berpeluh kejap.

Trust trust trust. Benci betul dengan perkataan itu.

Lepas minum terus balik rumah. sampai rumah tengok jen dan anak-anak dia semua tak ada. Tak tahu pergi mana. Mungkin pergi rumah in laws atau rumah kawan Jen. Semalam Jen balik dalam pukul 9 lebih ambil clara. Jen datang minta maaf dengan saya sebab menyusahkan saya. Saya tak rasa susah pun. bila tengok clara, kalau penat pun boleh hilang. Tengok muka dia yang manis dan tengok mata dia yang shining. Saya bagitahu susu dan makanan yang kevin belikan semua tu biar saya simpan. Just in case jen nak tinggalkan clara dengan saya lagi. I’m hoping. The best part was clara peluk saya menangis tak nak balik. Oh! There I cried in my heart. I have to let her go.

Esok kevin ajak saya pergi somewhere. Dia kata dah lama tak bawa saya jalan-jalan. I haven’t say yes. I actually don’t really have something to do. But you want to know why? Sebab saya tunggu clara balik. Saya nak spend more time with her kalau dia ada weekend ni. Mesti kevin kecil hati kalau dia tahu kan.


-_- "

Secrets

I hope that Clara is safely sleep and dreaming now with her mummy...
I still miss her till now. I tell you the other story later tomorrow.

Tonight I had a chit chat with yaya. On the bed with a bowl of biskut ikan. Started with gossiping around and ended up we tell our secrets.



Told you it is secret okey!

=)


Only tell your secrets to those whom you know you can truly trust. Otherwise,
that so-called "secret" won't be a secret anymore

-.- sedih

Maybe god is testing me. Bila nak keluar beli makanan tadi, kereta pula buat hal. I guess it’s the time also to get another rental car, my kelisa is not so friendly recently. I have no choice but to call for rescue. Sebab saya tak ada makanan yang sesuai untuk clara. Tak ada susu or roti or cereal or nestum in the house. Nak masak bubur pun kami kehabisan beras belum beli stok lagi. First I called yaya but she is with lecturer discussing for her work. She can’t come back until 1pm. Saya takut clara lapar, so I have to call kevin. Kevin a bit surprised sebab saya tak pergi kuliah hari ni. Tapi bila saya bagitahu yang saya tolong jaga Clara since last night dan hari ni Jen tak dapat ambil clara, kevin pun cakap biar dia tolong belikan makanan. I can’t take clara to walk to the nearest restaurant or kedai runcit sebab jauh juga. Kesian dia nak jalan panas-panas. Kalau saya seorang tak kisahlah.

Last night Jen asked me if I could take care of clara sebab dia kena rush pergi rumah in law dia naik bas. Dia kata nak pergi sekejap saja. then she called again to ask me if clara could stay overnight with me. I have no problem but this morning at 6am jen called dan minta maaf sebab dia tak dapat ambil clara. Dia nangis-nangis so I guess something happened to her again. must be the husband buat hal lagi. she asked me to leave clara at home kalau saya nak pergi kampus. Gile? Takkan saya nak tinggakan clara sorang-sorang. She is only 3 years old. Tak masuk akal betul. I was a bit pissed off with Jen tapi I don’t know her situation macam mana. Bila kita desperate, apa-apa saja kita boleh buat sebab terpaksa buat.

Thanks to kevin for sending the lunch for us here. I don’t feel good sebab menyusahkan kevin juga. This is my responsibility because I myself want to help Jen. But kevin said that we are his responsibility. Dia takkan biarkan kami lapar di rumah. He came with beras, susu Dutch Lady 123, roti, ayam dan nasi tapau for me. Saya dah bagi clara minum susu dantengah masakkan bubur nasi untuk dia. She is playing with the magazines. While I’m still thinking about what is she going through now. She is so small to understand. I am so sad.

Salmon & me

Today, i mean yesterday lah kot sebab sekarang dah dekat pukul 1 pagi, after class i wanted to went straight home. Sebab kepala dah serabut.

But when my mind was thinking about something else, i just drove passed the housing area. And suddenly didn't know where i was going. I just drive and made u-turn and turn right, turn left, turn nowhere until i reached kk and stucked in the traffic. Padan muka. I thought that i could just follow my heart and ended up somewhere yang lebih meriah lah rather than be in the bumper to bumper show.

Masa lalu Likas nampak laut. Looking at the sea, i think of fish. And suddenly felt like i want to eat salmonte. Salmon goreng. Oh craving like hell tak boleh nak pujuk supaya makan sandwich saja untuk dinner.

So, i went to find salmon. I was lucky out of no luck today (I lost my burberry coin purse, yes im making announcement again in case the thief read this blog. Pulangkan sebelum i sumpah you jadi berry-berry bukan blackberry kalau blackberry tak apa), baaaaanyaaakkk salmon fresh tersusun cantik kat atas tray. Rasa nak ambil semuanya dan cantumkan balik dan letak dalam akuarium yaya.

Tapi saya beli sekeping saja sebab yaya tak makan salmon. dan kakmin pun tak ada kat rumah 3 hari dia outstation. so makan sorang sekeping dah cukup. it cost me RM8. sekeping ajo. mahal macam hape ntah. tapi sedap tak pe lah.




Then i went back and marinade dengan black pepper aji shio. senang kerja. lepas tu fry fry fry.

Dan makan dengan tomato cherry. Perfect combination !

Masa makan feeling atas kapal layar di tengah laut, pakai topi besar pakai 2 piece, pakai cermin mata cover muka, pakai sun block, tengah lunch dengan pakwe hensem.

Padahal makan atas lantai, bersila, pakai baju kelawar, pakai bedak sejuk sambil tengok Marley & Me, sebab tu tajuk entry dah jadi Salmon & me

-.-

Alice Underground

Lagu Avril memang sesuai di kala arrghhhh aku tension !!!!

Dah fed up

The psycho woman is chasing again. What’s wrong with her I also tak faham. But she has the initiative to go further and further. Bersemangat betul lah. Hairan. So, I think I have to rilex ajelah. Dengan harapan tinggi yang dia tak akan diterima untuk further study bersama-sama kevin di negara dan uni yang sama.

Mungkin dia tengah praktis where there’s a will, there’s a way kan

You go girl !

You deserve a kiss

Yes, i've got a blackberry of mine. But i haven't signed up for any BIS. I'm still considering a suitable package for me. Nak pay less and get more. Tamak. Bukan. saya kan student lagi. Mana ada income tetap. Mana-mana package yang sesuai, boleh lah. Itupun tengah dapatkan kelulusan loan pama.

And currently no BB pin yet for those who are asking. Soon..soon. He he

I'm going to bed now but i feel like to thank you for your support to this blog.

To nuff also,

thanks a million.

MMMMuahhhhh

Di mana ada kemahuan, di situ ada jalan

Where there's a will, there's a way

Jeans and sugar

I finally wore my jeans today which I bought few months ago! It was like buggy a bit when I bought it but now it fit naturally. Ohhh naturally lagi. Nampaknya saya dah gain weight. =)
I like to gain more weight sebab saya tak suka skinny skinny sangat. Chubbier is merrier.

I guess its one of those situations where you´ve been wanting something for a long time, so when you finally can wear it, you wear it confidently and see it with love, haha!

Talking about my weight, i don't really watch over it. Sometimes sebelum tidur, saya ada fikir apa yang saya makan hari tu. If I am home, my mum will be watching over what i eat. But here, being a student with no mum around you, you tend to eat everything which is deliciously look. Always tapau food. You seldom have time to cook healthy food. Seriously. Like today, I had ice cream topping with M&M’s konon McFlurry for lunch.

But I believe sugar does make me happy so I don’t mind. Sebab bila tengok ada budak junior IT staring at Kevin kat library pun saya boleh cool dan senyum sendiri. Proud lagi tu!...just because he is so attractive sebab tu ada perempuan attracted kannn...

Positively because of the extra sugar I took earlier.

=P