He is upset

Thanks for you who care. Forgot that I still have friends here who keep reading what I write. And keep listening when I share.
Ghee…thanks =)

I am a bit concern about sidd and his mother. As a friend I should. At least to show that I care. I never mean to hurt kevin or to show that saya terlebih concern. It’s normal when we care about our friend. There must be something bothering kevin but I hope it’s not that serious. I didn’t ask him anything about that. Tak nak panjangkan cerita. Acting normal je. Walaupun rasa macam sedikit doubt di situ.
Being away from is other is already a challenge. And to go on quarrel and fight all the time is not healthy. Cuba elakkan.

Kevin called last night asking if im going to apply to further my study in the same uni as him or at least same country.
He has been asking me several times but i myself not so sure if I want to further study. I feel like want to look for a job asap after this sem.
I need to find a job. I have to. I want to be independent. I want to have my own income. So that I can take care of clara by myself.
Not only depending on parents money.

He wants me to stay near to him. told him that I can go to visit him or he can still come back here to see me.
But I don’t want to go there and spend another 2,3 years and leave clara here growing up without looking after her.
Bukan memilih antara kevin & clara. Tapi memilih yang terbaik untuk kedua-duanya.

I guess kevin is upset with me now. Upset in every way.
And I am sorry for myself..