Here i am

Basically busy sampai nak makan pun missed. Assignments, tests, lectures, kereta rosak. Kepala pun pening.
Back here on Monday dan terus ada test. Nice. Senyum sorang-sorang jawab soalan. Barang kevin kirim untuk Stella pun belum sempat
Nak hantar lagi. Ingat nak pergi petang ni rumah stella kalau sempat. He bought chocolates for his niece & nephews.

I had a fun time there and had no time to write everyday because we had many things to do together and go together with less time.
The weather was not so good but getting better on the last days. Most of the time spent in the apartment while kevin went out to campus & work. I know he tried his best to skip his classes and the part time job and several times he got warning call from his supervisor. Haha. I should go when he is free. When I was alone, I cooked and clean the house and do the laundry. And watched movies together at night with kevin’s petbrother and his friend. After movies 4 of us would go out for supper. They are super fun. Several days like several hours only. Not enough time to cover the loss I feel when he left.

Kevin took me to see his campus and showed me how exciting it could be to study there. Dia nak pujuk saya further study kat sana juga. I tried to show that I am looking forward for it as well but actually I am not really on it. Tapi kesian dia tak sampai hati nak bgtahu.

All went well and he took care of me. No doubt that I trusted him and still trust him until now. He never went over the border. You know what I mean and I really respect him for that. The hardest time was the time to leave. Don’t want to talk about it. I still feel the hole in my heart when I waved good bye to kevin. A huge ball in my throat when I held his hands for the last time and told him that I love him so much and will wait for him to come back. I saw his eyes were red but I did not want to break to tears in front of him.

I did it later in the plane.

And now, again we are thousands mile away from each other. Life is not fair but it still has to go on.