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I hate it, i like it

2012-01-30T23:26:00.004+08:00

I hate it when :

1) While waiting for the lift (or elevator), I already pressed the lift button to go up/ down but someone came and pressed it again even there is light already >:

2) The lift is full and has not stop yet but someone already says 'Excuse me, excuse me' asking for a way out. Where am i supposed to move now?

3) I am in the lift and someone at the back ask to press the level button without saying thanks. Rude.

4) I run to catch the lift when the door is about to close but i see the person next to the button panel do nothing to hold it. Uhhh

I had a bad day with the lift today. Bear with me -_-

But i like it when :

I put this in the sidebar. So i can know who likes to visit me here. Maybe one day i can show my appreciation towards the top ones? :)

But this one will show your identity and i believe there will be certain people who doesn't like to be exposed here and do not want me to know that they read my blog.

Can i know if you like this or not ?

Just say YES or NO enough so i'll give a second thought of it...thanks

Small Tips for more nuffnang income

2012-01-27T11:15:00.001+08:00

Hoih dah banyak ni, boleh la cash out then beli something
*mata bersinar-sinar

Hehe bukan nak riak ni, orang lain lagi banyak incomenya. Beribu
riban. Income nuffnang pun dah boleh berhenti kerja dan buat blogging full
time. Saya sekadar nak syer dan bagi semangat kepada nuffnangers yang
kadang-kadang putus asa dengan nuffnang je. Jangan sesekali putus asa. Bukan
senang nak senang, ingat tuu…

Mula-mula dulu sama juga, nak dapat buffered earnings tu
punya lah berjanggut berjambang menunggu. Dapat satu sudah rasa happy. Sekarang
rezeki buffered earnings adalah juga..alhamdulillah. Cuma saya bukan lah
sesiapa nak dapat advertorial emncurah-curah. Masih lagi tak mencapai tahap
itu. Saya blogger picisan.

But some tips that you can apply to get more income :

1)
Buat lebih blog
Jangan bertumpu pada satu blog saja, create back up. Create
something new, how about a hobby? Your interest on jalan-jalan cari makan? Lists
all the places you go, dengan info tempat dan harga, orang suka. Sebab orang
perlukan banyak info. Your business blog pun boleh, blog tentang sukan,
hiburan, apa saja, asalkan beri info kepada readers. Personal blog sukar
mendapat tempat unless you are at hanis zalikha level

2)
Selalu update
Haa..ini penting. Jangan malas, selalu update. At least
2 hari sekali ke. Itu paling minima. Kalau hari-hari atau 2,3 entry sehari itu
sudah hebat. Mampu? Jangan biarkan berhabuk sampai seminggu, 2 minggu sekali. Readers
cakap, ba ba bai

3)
Update survey dalam nuffang
Selalu update survey dalam nuffnang, sebulan sekali
ke..letak interest yang berlainan setiap kali update. Up diri sendiri. So bila
advertiser tengok pun tertarik. Jangan lame aje survey tu. Dulu okeylah,
sekarang nuffangers dah ramai. Persaingan tinggi.

4)
Kedudukan iklan
Ada 3 jenis kan, skyscraper, leader board dan rectangle.
Kalau skyscraper tu, biarlah betul2 skycraper, jangan letak bawah2 pulak. Kalau
leader board tu letak la kat tempat yang paling jelas bila orang buka blog
kita. Jangan sembunyi. Itu pun memainkan peranan penting.

5)
I cant think of one now

Good luck okey, don’t give up. Pesanan untuk saya sendiri
juga. Rezeki ni ada di mana-mana, kalau sambil berblog dapat income, why not?
At least boleh pampered yourself bila cash out nanti right? Kalau orang lain
boleh, kenapa tidak.

On your mark!...

Lucky day

2012-01-26T09:40:00.001+08:00

Good morning semua,
Kepada yang ada order Doomagic Pillowcase last batch tu saya
akan hantar email kepada anda semua hari ni untuk bgtahu status stok ye. Sorry
tak terjawab pertanyaan anda 2 hari ni sebab tengah cek status dengan supplier.

Malam tadi my cousin, Ijoy datang rumah. Dia bawak satu barrel
KFC dan DVD lepak-lepak sambil makan ayam dan tengok DVD. Tengok movie Who
Framed Roger Rabbit and The Princess Bride. Mana dia dapat tak tahu lah. Dia
kata malam tadi kita kembali ke 80an. He should bring ET and Back To The Future
as well lah kalau nak feeling 80’s. Earlier wanted to buy roti canai but
luckily he told me he wanted to come with KFC kalau tak mesti tak habis nak
makan semua kalori tu.

Saya Tanya pasal Myra, tunang dia. Bila diaorang nak kahwin.
Then dia jawab, its complicated. Macam status FB pulak. Myra is a good girl.
Tapi saya mungkin tak kenal dia lama. So saya kenal luaran dia saja. Tapi tak
boleh nak query sebelah Myra saja sebab mungkin si Ijoy tu ada buat hal. I’ll smash
him if I find out he is the culprit. Forgot
that I still have Myra’s number. Dia pernah datang KK dan stay kat rumah sewa saya
masa dia ada kursus tahun lepas kalau tak silap. Mungkin saya boleh call dia
ajak dia keluar makan ke. I want to know why. 2 matching people cannot be
separated just like that. Sayang sekali. But back to jodoh itu di tangan Tuhan
lah kan.

Ijoy lepak sampai pukul 2 pagi. Clara pun dah tertidur kat
hall, then saya pun join tidur kat hall sama-sama. Malas nak pindah naik bilik
lagi. Sebab tidur lambat, this morning kesianan. Pukul 8 baru bangun. Bibik pun
turut kesiangan. Kelakar dia terjaga kelam kabut kejut saya dan mintak maaf
sepuluh kali. Nasib baik Clara cuti sekolah. Dan saya siap dalam masa 30 minit.
Tak sempat breakfast, terus pecut ke office. Jalan sangat friendly hari ni. Tak
ada jem langsung. So dalam 20 minit dah sampai. Tapau decaf coffee kat Starbuck
bawah tu dan terus clock in ngam-ngam 9am. Sampai-sampai tengok ada angpau atas meja bos bagi. Dia baru balik Singapore so its in Sing Dolar.

What a lucky day.

Hope yours too. Take care =)

Studded lagi !

2012-01-24T22:19:00.003+08:00

Atas permintaan carikan lebih beg studded, here it is.

Kalau berkenan di hati sila tengok dan booking kat sini ye : http://blackribboncloset.blogspot.com/

Happy CNY

2012-01-24T11:39:00.000+08:00

Untuk yang menyambutnya, Selamat Tahun Baru. Malam tadi ada bunga api yg besar nampak dekat kawasan rumah ni. macam kita tgk tahun baru dan merdeka tu. Tak tahu la itu dari mana function or private punya bunga api. Tapi clara seronok sangat lompat-lompat tengok bunga api tu.

Bangun pagi tadi saya terus ke dapur tengok bik tengah sidai baju. Saya tolong buatkan breakfast. Roti telur, stim sosej dan scrambled egg. Clara suka sosej stim cicah cilisos. lepas tu kejutkan Clara, mandikan dia, pakai bedak, letak minyak rambut, bau wangi sangat. Saya suka bau baby dan budak-budak lepas mandi. Sangat menenangkan. So peluk dan cium Clara banyak-banyak sampai dia lemas :D

Clara ada sunburn, so do I. Pipi saya merah macam orang alaska. Sebab on saturday hari tu bawak Clara ke Sunway. We went there with Eddie. Lupa nak pakai sunblock. Serioulsy lupa. Melayan Clara main air dan kita orang pun join sekali main mandi dan seronok main main ombak, tengah panas. Habislah muka sorang-sorang merah.

It was fun. Clara seronok, so did I. Dah lama tak had fun macam tu rasanya. Eddie was kind with Clara. Saya ajar Clara panggil 'uncle eddie', dan dia mula-mula panggil 'didie' last2 jadi 'daddy'. Apa la clara. Eddie cakap its ok.

Lepas ni nak kemas bilik clara. Rasa macam nak tukar design bilik dia. Nak letak rak buku sekali supaya dia lebih rajin baca buku. Suka lah kalau cuti panjang macam ni. Tiba-tiba banyak benda nak buat dalam rumah ni. Dan tiba-tiba juga rindu my family. Wish they were here.
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Crazy!

2012-01-20T15:53:00.001+08:00

I went to Eddie’s house yesterday after work. Bought a box of pastries for
babah eddie. Eddie cakap dia suka makan kuih manis-manis. Not good for oldies tapi
sesekali boleh lah kan. Not everyday. Eddie call dia sebelum kami pergi
bagitahu saya akan datang untuk makan malam. Eddie bagitahu dia beli je makanan.
Dan on the way kami singgah beli nasi dan lauk-pauk. Tapi bila kami sampai
tengok babah dia dah masakkan sup ikan. Dah siap sediakan meja untuk makan
lagi. Surprisingly.
Eddie pun terkejut, pandang saya semacam sebab dia tak sangka.

Masa makan dia ada jugak cerita-cerita dan tanya saya pasal Clara. I think
he missed the little girl lah. Should bring her too. Tapi nak balik rumah dulu
tu yang malas sikit. Nanti nak ke rumah eddie pulak dah jaid jauh. Macam timur
ke barat dah. When I looked at eddie, he looked and smile. He must be happy
sebab babah dia nak keluar dari bilik, join kami makan, dan berbual-bual lagi. Biasanya
dia lebih suka berkurung dalam bilik. Eddie cakap nak ajak kelaur makan pun
susah.
That’s good. Feel glad.

Sebelum balik, duduk kat depan rumah dia kejap. Ada buaian. Main buai
dulu. Hehe

Eddie tanya,
“Rumah ni sunyi kan?”
“Sama lah macam rumah saya sekarang. Sunyi sangat”
“Tapi ada Clara”
“A’a yes. Kalau tak ada dia, saya tak boleh kot duduk KL ni. Mati kebosanan”
“Awak dah adopt Clara legally?”
“Belum”
“Kenapa?”
“Ada masalah sikit”
“Tak ada masalah tak boleh diselesaikan. Cuba cerita”
“I’ve to get married first”
“Who says?”
“Clara’s uncle”
“Kenapa?”
“Dia cakap kalau saya nak ambil Clara jadi anak angkat, saya mesti dah berkahwin. Dia nak Clara ada parents. Not single mother”
“Bukan emak Clara yang cakap?”
“Bukan. Mak dia okey. Uncle dia yang straight sikit. Garang”
“Kalau straight sangat kenapa dia tak jaga Clara bila ayah dia masuk penjara kan?”
“Dia tak mampu. Tapi dia mampu bersuara sebab dia ada hak”
“Bila dia bagitahu macam tu?”
“Dah lama dah. But I kept it to myself. Saya tak bagitahu sapa2. My parents pun tak tahu”
“Kevin tahu?”
“Tak”
“Kenapa tak bagitahu dia?”
“Saya tak nak jadi sebab dia kena ubah rancangan hidup dia”
“Then, kalau awak sayang Clara, sebelum jadi apa-apa, awak buat lah sesuatu”
“Buat apa?”
“Kahwin lah”
“Kahwin? Saya tak nampak ‘kahwin’ dalam waktu terdekat ni. Lambat lagi kot. Ntah”
Eddie diam lama. Lepas tu dia cakap
“Kalau macam tu, kahwin dengan saya”
Saya tengok dia. Saya gelak.
“No, at least boleh uruskan adoption Clara. Awak sayang dia kan?”
“Sayang”
“Tak apa.. if you don’t love me, I just want to help. Kalau nak tunggu
kevin lama lagi, kita kahwin dulu. Senyap-senyap pun okey. To save Clara je.
The rest serahkan pada tuhan”
“Thanks, But you are crazy!”

Selamat pagi

2012-01-19T11:02:00.002+08:00

Baru sampai office. Pagi tadi terus ke Marriott Hotel sebab ada meeting kat sana. Eddie pulak kereta rosak.
He supposed to join me for the meeting so dia naik teksi dari rumah dia terus
ke sana. Meeting went well cuma a bit difficult sebab Spanish client. Englishnya
tak berapa okey so dia cakap pun take time sebab dia nak cuba fikirkan
perkataan apa nak pakai. He tried hard so kitaorang pun kenalah jadi bijak
sikit teka apa sebenarnya yang dia nak cakap. It was fun though. Hehe.

After meeting pergi breakfast kejap kat Kampung Baru sebab saya teringin nak makan lontong. Rindu papa tiba-tiba sebab kalau dia ada, dia suka kejut saya awal pagi hari minggu ajak
gi breakfast kampung baru tu. Tanpa adik-adik and mama. Just 2 of us. Father
daughter time.
Eddie makan nasi kerabu. Sedap jugak nampaknya. Kemudian saya tapau karipap sardin for our lady boss. Dia suka sangat makan karipap sardin.

Got a lot of work today. Petang ni saya cakap kat eddie biar saya hantar dia balik. Then dia terus ajak dinner kat rumah dia. Dia cakap dah lama tak ada orang datang rumah dan cakap-cakap dengan babah dia. Babah dia banyak diamkan diri sekarang. Kalau saya pergi mungkin dia happy sikit. Okeylah stay kejap kot tapi tak boleh sampai malam sangat nanti si kecik
tu bising asyik call2 je nanti kalau lambat balik. Macam mak-mak dah pulak dia.
Nanti dia cakap

“Nana dah pukul belas tak balik lagi ke?”

-_-“”

Saya perlu lelaki

2012-01-17T20:47:00.003+08:00

Just finished helping Clara to do her homework.
Homework is good for her. Supaya dia tak lupa apa dia belajar hari ni di sekolah.
Amazingly dia dapat baca ABC dengan lancar selepas seminggu ke sekolah. Great!
Dan dia happy sangat dapat pegi sekolah setiap hari. Clara belajar rajin-rajin nanti besar jadi doktor ye. Capai cita-cita Nana yang tak kesampaian itu -_-"

Tadi kat office kan saya bad mood. Eddie cuba happykan saya tapi saya ignore dia. Dia buat joke, saya senyum paksa. Lepas tu dia tanya,

Eddie : Kenapa?
Saya : Kenapa? Kenapa apa?
Eddie : Mata bengkak. Nangis ye
Saya : Eh takde. Banyak tidur kot.
Eddie : Kalau nak cerita, anytime ok.
Saya : Okey

So, bila teringat dia cakap macam tu rasa nak call Eddie nanti. Malam-malam sikit.
Nak cerita dan tanya apa yang patut. Saya rasa nak kenal hati lelaki perlulah melalui lelaki kan?
Jadi, saya perlu lelaki!
Kalau tanya perempuan mesti akan menangkan perempuan juga. Problem not solved. Kalau tanya Yaya, dia mesti on my side selalu walaupun saya terang-terang bersalah. That's what i like about her! :)

Eddie, wait, i'll call you. get ready kalau perlu tidur lambat. banyak nak cerita ni.

Faith

2012-01-17T16:18:00.000+08:00

I have my eyes bengkak today sebab I cried a lot last night.
Something happened and we quarrelled. I mean kevin and i.
Something came in my mind, maybe ada hasutan syaitan ke apa menyebabkan
saya memberontak. Segan nak cerita sebab kalau fikir balik hari ni macam
reason pergaduhan adalah bodoh sangat. Tapi boleh jadi besar. We ended the
conversation secara tak elok. Maksudnya tidak settlekan masalah pun. Mungkin
saya yang terlebih emo. Lepas tu menyesal, sedih, terus nangis. Tapi hari ni saya
teringat satu ayat yang kevin ada sebut.

No matter what, faith has brought us together.

Ye, no matter what. Dah takdir. Dah tertulis. Mesti ada
sebab kita jumpa pasangan kita. Baik atau buruk. Indah atau tidak kita kena
lalui. Dan terpulanglah pada takdir juga sama ada kita boleh terus bersama atau
tidak.

Tidak kah kita rasa nak hargai pasangan yang ditakdirkan
untuk kita? walaupun sedikit?

Tambah azam

2012-01-16T12:42:00.003+08:00

Think to move again with the online business. Dah tinggalkan since few months back sebab kena concentrate to study so sekarang mungkin boleh buat part time ni semula. Need more income for myself and clara too.

Since i dah decide nak jaga clara dan dia sekarang dah masuk sekolah, i have to be more responsible. Saya tak nak belanja sekolah dan keperluan Clara pun my parents nak support. Kalau mereka bagi tu saya simpankan for Clara's savings lah. Yang belanja lain sebolehnya nak pakai duit sendiri.

During weekend, went to meet my friend, think I can work
with her again in the business. She always welcome me. Lagipun dia banyak
sangat nak handle so dia cakap kalau saya boleh take over certain part that
will be good for her. Dia tu kalau dah business minded kan pantang nampak
peluang terus nak sambar walaupun tak ada masa. Respect lah orang macam tu. Got
few chance, hope to get more customers and readers kat sini pun kalau nak beli
boleh tengok my online shop blackribboncloset.blogspot.com okey :)
Thanks for your support sejak dulu lagi.

Tambah azam baru. Get more money for us! Insyaallah.

It's wrap time

2012-01-12T22:24:00.002+08:00

Lumba lari 100m

2012-01-12T17:11:00.002+08:00

Kejap lagi nak balik ambil Clara dan bibik, keluar balik gi
rumah Mak Long. Malam ni maklong ajak
makan rumah dia sebab Mak TOk ada datang tengahari tadi. Mak Tok tak berapa
sihat. Pak Long balik Parit ambil Mak Tok datang ke KL. Tinggal rumah Mak Long.
Dia dah uzur sangat. Tak elok juga tinggal sorang-sorang. Nanti mesti semua
sepupu akan datang berkumpul. Dah lama dah sejak raya lepas kita orang jumpa.
Bila jumpa sesekali meriah. Harap kemeriahan macam tu boleh senangkan hati Mak
Tok sikit.

Sebelum balik nak beli Big Apple lah. Satu dozen tak cukup.
Selalunya kena beli 2 dozen. Barulah cukup anak beranak. Rindunya rasa hati
dengan my family. Papa, mama dan adik-adik. Bukan tak rindu. Tapi saya tak
selalu sebutkan kerana rindu itu menyiksakan. Lagi disebut, lagi rindu. Lagi
sakit.

Tadi Yaya ada call, dia cakap minggu depan dia nak datang
interview kat KL. Yey! Yaya cari kerja kat KL. Seronoknyaa..seronok sangat.
Saya dah lama ajak dia kerja kat KL. Kalau dia nak tinggal
dengan saya pun boleh sebab rumah saya tak ada orang sekarang. Boleh
teman-teman saya, clara dan bibik. Yaya mesti lah nak datang kerja KL sebab
Norman pun kerja kat KL. Nanti nak tunang, nak kahwin pun senang kerja
dekat-dekat. Kawan baik saya dah nak tunang ke?
Rasa diri ketinggalan, macam lumba lari 100m tapi saya baru
nak ‘on the mark ! ..’ gitulah
perlibahasanya.
Hehe.

Kevin.

Rindu kamu juga. Rindu sangat. =,(

Hot one !

2012-01-11T23:34:00.005+08:00

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BOTTOM WIDTH: 7CM
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Bau mushroom

2012-01-11T14:49:00.001+08:00

Time lunch tadi tak makan. Pergi Cold Storage beli mushroom, tomato, salad, wrap, sosej, telur dan grapes.
Grapes tu untuk clara. Mushroom tu ingat nak buat dumpling or wantan, still
confused what is the best to call it. Saya kan masih belajar memasak. So excuse
lah ye. Blog masak-masak saya pun dah lama tak update. Bukan tak masak, tapi
tak ada resepi baru yang saya cuba buat. Resepi biasa-biasa tu tak perlulah nak
update semua orang nanti cakap tutup mata pun boleh masak. Malu lah nanti. Insyaallah
kalau rajin buat dumpling ni saya updatekan. Dan lagi satu nak buat wrap. Kalau
jadi saya update la.

Sekarang dekat workstation saya
bau mushroom sangat kuat. Kadang-kadang bau sedap. Kadang-kadang bau tu buat
saya pening. Should put in the fridge. Tapi malas nak ke fridge. Tahan je lah.
Jangan sampai eddie bau, sebab hidung chef macam eddie tu tajam. Dia boleh bau mascarpone
dari jarak 20 meter -_-“

Malam tadi saya call Sidd. Banyak
kisah sedih dengan dia sekarang. Saya pun macam tak sampai hati nak ajak dia
bercerita panjang-panjang sebab takut dia sedih nak bercerita dengan saya.
Adik-adik sidd dijaga oleh emak sepupu nya sekarang. Dan sidd nak pergi kerja kat
Singapore. Ada kawan dia ajak kerja kat sana. Dia kata kerja kat sana boleh
hilangkan rasa tertekan dia. Dia tak nak saya fikir dia tak bertanggungjawab
pada adik-adik dia. Cuma saya rasa mugkin dia tak dapat fikir dengan baik lagi
sekarang sebab dia baru kehilangan ibu tercinta setelah sekian lama menderita
sakit. Siapa yang boleh tahan kan? Nothing much I can do for the timebeing. I
wish I could help. =(

Okey back to work kawan-kawan

Penat sangat hari ni

2012-01-10T21:33:00.002+08:00

Clara baru lena. Lepas bagi makan ubat. Rasa belakang badan dia panas. Dia pun tak banyak cakap hari ni. Mungkin sebab dia tak sihat. Saya belikan donut sebab semalam dia nak makan donut tapi tak nak pulak. Bibik masakkan sup daging dengan kentang pun dia tak nak makan. Harap esok tak melarat lah demam clara.

Sebelum balik tadi makan chee cheong fan dengan eddie kat kopitiam, rasa kenyang. saya pun tak sentuh sup tu. Kesian bibik masak penat-penat. Dia sorang je yang makan.

Hari ni penat sangat. Banyak kerja. Dengan call dan quotation banyak kena buat. Tapi boss very understanding. Bila dia tengok anak buah dia sampai tak ada masa nak keluar makan, dia akan tapaukan or call delivery :) so, we had pizza for lunch. dan durian pancake for tea time. Lagi dia nak sambung belanja dinner, eh sorry tak dapat lah nak stay back sebab Clara dah call tanya bila saya nak balik. She knows how to dial my number now. very clever kan, bibik tak tahu pun dia boleh call saya senyap-senyap. cute.

Sebelum balik eddie ajak temankan dia minum kat kopitiam kejap. kesian pulak dia, temankan lah kejap. eddie okey saja sekarang. hari tu saya ada krisis sikit dengan dia. Sikit je. Perkara kecil. Okey, dont want to comment on that. My mistake.

What else..emm okey, saya ada letak kat tepi tracking no kepada yang purchase bag okey. sebab mungkin saya tak sempat nak email sorang-sorang so singgah sini kalau nk tengok ur tracking no okey. Thanks sebab sudi beli bag-bag tu. My friend happy and saya happy sebab dapat tolong dia iklankan di sini.

Tadi ada baca satu komen, one of my readers tinggalkan komen cakap dia baru buat blog. Tengok nama blog tak sangka yang dia maksudkan betul-betul.

http://akuorangsakit.blogspot.com/

Rupanya dia memang sakit. Cuma saya tak pasti dia sakit apa dan empunya badan pun rasanya tidak tahu apa penyakit dia. Blog dia cute sebab dia kira berapa harga breakfast dia. kita ada? Tak kan. Nampak dia menulis dengan ikhlas dan saya nak ucapkan all the best to her dalam kerja baru & getting more money. Semoga lebih kuat dan akan sihat selalu.

Jom follow dia dan bagi semangat kat dia =)

As you wish

2012-01-10T12:41:00.011+08:00

As you emailed want to see more designs.. here we go

Price : RM 49.00

Availability : In Stock

Model : CM0074 MULBERRY INSPIRED BAG

Color Available : BLACK / BROWN / PURPLE

Weight : 900.00g

Interested, email me bvlgarigirl09@yahoo.com
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Looking for good make up base?

2012-01-09T23:02:00.000+08:00

Nak syer something since tadi baru gi beli stok make up.

If you are looking for a good make up base, you can try Lancome La Base. Strukturnya macam gel. Pump sekali dah boleh pakai untuk satu muka. La Base ni kalau pakai dia boleh seratakan kulit, yang ada pores pun boleh tutup dan kurangkan minyak. It works for me.
Lepas apply kalau rasa kulit sangat lembut dan fresh.

Sebotol harga l/k RM110 tengoklah kalau ada less or sale dapat harga lain. Tapi jgn risau sebotol boleh tahan dalam 4-5 bulan depends cara pemakaian dan kekerapan. Kalau saya ke ofice saya pakai La Base dan foundation ni. Lepas tu sikit loose powder. Dah.

Another recommended bag for you

2012-01-09T12:37:00.004+08:00

Update : Sorry sold out, new stock will arrive in end January 2012

Very nice and stylo. Look..

If interested can email me @ bvlgarigirl09@yahoo.com

Price:	RM 50.00
Availability:	In Stock
Model:	BM0171 Bag - WHITE
Weight:	950.00g

Details :

Meterial	Lining	Width		Height		Handle		Content		Switch
			Bottom		Opening		Hatchback		Inner
			Width		Closure				Pocket

Canvas	Fineness	40	35	30		25	120	Can	2	Zip
	Lining							obtain A4

+ Postage
RM8 Semenanjung
RM10 Sabah Sarawak

Lancel Inspired

2012-01-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

Cool !
I've always wanted this, but inspired pun inspired lah. -_-
The quality worth the price lah.
My friend selling this online, so she has some more stock with her.
Just want to help her and to give you some ideas in buying new purse/handbag.

If interested can email me @ bvlgarigirl09@yahoo.com

Price:	RM 47.00
Model:	LANCEL INSPIRED MULTI FUNCTION BAG
Available Color :	Brown, Red & White

+ Postage
RM8 Semenanjung
RM10 Sabah Sarawak

MATERIAL: PU LEATHER
LENGHT : 33CM
WIDTH : 12CM
HEIGHT : 35CM

Bersyukurlah dengan apa yang ada

2012-01-06T10:07:00.000+08:00

Sedapnyaa dapat minum teh ais pagi-pagi. Beli teh ais sebab perut rasa
sakit dan panas lepas makan nasi lemak Bik Hera tadi. Pedas betul dia masak
hari ni. Tu pun makan sikit je. Dia cakap cili kering tu pedas. Clara tak nak
breakfast. Terus hantar dia ke tadika. Takpe dia breakfast kat tadika je. Clara
was well behave for the past 2 days. 1st day at school was
excellent. I kept texting her teacher and she said don’t worry she is just
fine. Malu-malu tapi tak nangis. Lega. Sangat lega.
But today bila nak hantar muka dia masam aje. Salam dan cium pipi dia pun
tak nak senyum. Teacher cakap Clara bad mood tu. Harap dia okeylah hari ni.

Tadi masa beli teh ais, ada sorang akak cleaner ni nak beli mihun goreng.
Dia nak mintak beli RM1 je. Mintak sikit. Tapi orang kat kedai tu tak bagi. Akak tu pun tak jadi beli. Kesian tengok dia.
Saya rasa mungkin dia tak ada duit nak beli sebab tu dia mintak beli sikit.
Mungkin ada seringgit je dalam poket tapi lapar nak makan. Kesiannya. Saya
kemudian panggil akak tu balik. Saya suruh dia pilih nak tapau apa, saya
bayarkan. Masa tu tak ada orang. Dia tak nak, segan agaknya. Saya suruh orang
kat kedai tu bungkuskan akak tu mihun goreng dengan telur mata dan sambal paru.
Lepas tu tapau milo ais sekali. Saya bagi kat akak tu. Berkali-kali dia cakap
terima kasih sampai saya rasa nak keluar air mata.

If I were in her place... -_-
Masa tu rasa bersyukur sangat dengan rezeki yang Allah bagi untuk saya dan
keluarga.
Kita ni bila rasa tak puas hati dengan apa-apa cuba tengok orang yang lagi
teruk dari kita, yang lagi susah dari kita kan. Bukan tengok orang yang lagi
senang dan mewah dari kita. Kalau macam tu hari-hari lah dengki dengan Paris
Hilton yang tak pernah berkerja seumur hidup dia tu.

Okey, I’ve taken one hour leasuring dengan minum teh ais, baca gosip, cari
resepi untuk weekend. now back to work. Eddie ajak keluar esok jalan-jalan. See
if I rajin nak keluar. Till later. Happy weekend !

First day of school

2012-01-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

Feel nervous for Clara. Tomorrow I'm gonna send her to Smart Reader. She has her uniform, school bag, shoes and even socks from the school. Saya cuma belikan dia pensil box dan botol air.
Lepas sekolah ada transport hantar dia balik rumah. Risau. But I had no choice. She has to go to school. And I have to work. So she has to be independent.

We can do it Clara.

Saya takut dia nangis dan tak nak masuk kelas. Please please don't cry tomorrow. If you cry, I will cry. I told kevin I was worried about this. Dia kata saya kena tegas. Kena tutup mata dan kuatkan hati kalau clara nangis nak ke sekolah. For her own good.

I dah paksa Clara tidur awal tadi. Kalau tak mahu sampai ke pukul 11,12 tak nak tidur lagi. Now paksa diri sendiri untuk tidur so esok boleh bangun awal dan get ready.
-_- Nite
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Kepada Allah kita kembali

2011-12-30T00:00:00.001+08:00

Innalillahiwainnailaihirajiun.
Sidd sms bagitahu mama nya telah kembali ke rahmatullah malam tadi pukul 8 di hospital. Saya terus call dia tapi tak dapat cakap lama sebab dia sibuk uruskan hal dengan pihak hospital. Mereka akan bawa jenazah ke JB malam ni juga jadi saya tak berkesempatan untuk melawat. Sebak rasa hati saya.
Rasa macam kehilangan ahli keluarga sendiri.
Saya fikirkan sidd dan adik-adiknya. Selepas ini mereka kena uruskan semuanya sendiri tanpa ibu.
Dan tiba-tiba rasa rindu pada arwah. Rindu bila melawat dia, selalu peluk saya rasa macam anak dia sendiri.
Sidd, be strong for your sisters.
Sorry I'm not there.
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You should try

2011-12-27T19:40:00.000+08:00

Pagi-pagi tadi tersedar pukul 4 pagi sebab sejuk sangat. Tutup aircond dan selimutkan Clara. Tak tahu lah sama ada dia sejuk atau tak. Tidur elok je kat sebelah tak sedar apa pun dia.

Pergi toilet lepas tu online sampai pagi. Lepas siap-siap tu turun masak pancake. Malam tadi clara mintak pancake pisang untuk breakfast. Dia nak saya yang buat. Bibik tak nak. Emm..ngade2 dia

Lepas buat pancake kejutkan clara dan makan sama-sama. Bibik cakap selera dia makan kalau saya buatkan pancake. -_-
Keluar rumah pukul 8.30 dah. Tapi sempat sampai ofice pukul 9 sebab jalan tak jem. Horey. Cutilah lagi u all semua kasi saya senang gi keja ok.

Sampai ofice tengok ada nasi lemak atas meja. Dah tahu siapa belikan. Sebab nasi lemak sedap tu ada kat satu tempat aje. Dekat rumah eddie. Eddienya tak ada sebab dia dah keluar ke i-City so saya sms dia cakap thank you.
Thank you sebab masih sudi kawan. Ingat ke dia marah terus. Eddie tak balik ofce satu hari. Rindu nak borak-borak dengan dia.

Saya buat kerja yang banyak tu sampai lunch pun terlepas. Sibuk sangat. So lunch makan biskut ni aje. Saya dah lama addicted dengan biskut ni. Mesti nak ada dalam laci. You should try. Memang sedap. Sedap sesangat.

Our new family member

2011-12-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

Clara needs someone to accompany her everyday while I'm not around. Pity her. Seriously. Saya takut nanti dia over tension dan memberontak or lost control. Dan ganggu pembesaran dia ke apa. Always think like that hehe.

So since she likes animal so much. I've decided to give her present of this cute little creature. Ada sepasang. She is so happy today sampai makan pun nak makan dekat cage. Named them Lola & Lulu. Cute sangat rasa nak gigit je.

Semalam kan krismas, saya tunggu if Clara's family akan call dia tapi tak ada. And at night I called her mum and let clara spoke to her. Clara macam biasa je macam cakap dengan saya on the phone. I was a bit worried if she cried and told her mum that she wanted to go home. But luckily she didn't. Phewww...

After her conversation, I asked her if she missed her mum, dia cakap rindu. Tapi tak nampak sedih so I guess she is fine lah kan. Takut dia pendam dan sakit dari dalam aje.

Kevin called at night also and I wished him Merry Christmas. He told me that his dad ada tanya pasal I diam-diam. He said he still with me. And I know his mom will never ask about me coz she hates me. Hahaha

So xmas has passed and here comes New Year. 2011 passed so fast. Talk about that later. Got to prepare dinner for Clara and Lola and Lulu. Hah now I have 3 little one to take care off.

=)

Lazy day

2011-12-26T00:27:00.000+08:00

I spent this 2 days at home lazying with Clara. Still covering from depression over being left behind. Again. Yes, I'm back to single but no, we're not clash or anything. I just felt all single. In another word, single = independent.

Kevin left to kk on friday. Sent him to the airport. With all the sadness and heart breaking I had to let him go. I was in the same situation several times so I told kevin

'Kalau ditinggalkan macam ni, I sudah biasa. Just go'

I hate telling him that. No time to sulk. Hey he still had to go. Go go go.

And hope he had a blast xmas today with his family.

Should I wish 'Merry christmas my dear Kevin'. ?

Awkward.

Good nite

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Dinner tonight

2011-12-20T18:52:00.000+08:00

Kevin will take me for dinner at his friend's place tonight. The dinner is more to christmas + new year gathering. I'll be open minded and just follow kevin. Its dinner and his friend invited both of us and ..yeah its kevin asking so I don't want to really show the hard side in our religion, don't know how to write but u know what I mean.

Its somewhere in cheras so after this I'll fetch him at hotel and drive there. I'm still in the ofce settling my job coz I'll be on leave tomorrow till after christmas. Kevin will go back on friday. We'll spend the last 2 days together here and bye bye again.

Eddie turned to a very quiet person this week. I left him during bfast and lunch alone and went to have my meals all with kevin since last week. We still talk coz we work together tapi tak macam sebelum ni.
He called me last night tapi clash masa kevin nak call so saya cakap hari ni we talk. Tapi bila tanya dia hari ni dia cakap tak ada apa yang penting. Saya bawakan dia sikit lasagna yang saya buat semalam utk kevin. Saya harap dia makan dan tak buang.

Okey got to go. Kevin is calling. Till later
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Lasagna for birthday

2011-12-19T23:10:00.000+08:00

It's his birthday this week also so its good to have him here to celebrate. He said he doesn't want any cake this year but he wants to eat the best lasagna that I can make for him.
Oh no. Saya bukan terer buat lasagna.
Tapi cuba-cuba je. Hope he'll like it. -.-''

Now masuk fridge. Esok hantar kat hotel dia pagi-pagi sebelum saya masuk ofis.
I have a present for him too. Will pass tomorrow.

Waiting for him to call me. He'll call every night since he is here and we chat few hours before we go to bed with red sleepy eyes :)

Happy birthday kevin. Sayang kamu, sayang sekali.

3y 3m 3d

2011-12-19T15:24:00.000+08:00

It was yesterday we ended up in 3 years, 3 months and 3 days relationship.
A forbidden love.
Cinta terlarang.
Ke?
Cinta terlarang banyak maksudnya..
Tapi saya kategorikan cinta kami, cinta terlarang juga.
Sebab dilarang keluarganya dan keluarga saya juga tidak berapa setuju.
Sampai bila harus saya teruskan?
Menunggu dia.
Sekarang saya juga tidak memaksa, dan memang tidak pernah memaksa dia
untuk menjadi seorang muslim.
He can take his time, bagi dia peluang.
Bila dia bersedia, dia boleh ikut saya.
Tapi kalau sampai bila pun dia tidak dapat bersedia, dia tidak tertulis
untuk saya.
Tapi saya ada nampak dia macam berusaha ke arah itu.
Dalam beg dia semalam, masa saya tolong ambilkan wallet dia saya nampak
ada satu buku agama. Yang baru dibeli.
Masih dalam plastik MPH.
Saya tak tanya apa-apa, saya simpan balik.
Bila pergi makan, sebelum makan saya berdoa dia ikut jugak tadah tangan
dan aminkan.
Bila nak berpisah dia cakap assalamualaikum.
Saya tak tahu itu lakonan ke, betul ke.
Tapi its not fair kalau nak judge him berlakon sebab nak ambil hati saya.
Mungkin dia sedang belajar kan.
Mana tahu dia ikhlas.
Sebab selama ini dia ikhlas dengan saya.
Dia lagi banyak susah kan diri kerana saya.
Dan tidak ambil kesempatan pada saya.
I resepect him till now.
Saya hanya dapat tadah tangan selepas solat. Berserah kepada Allah.
Supaya dibukakan pintu hati dia dan mudahkan perjalanan kami, sekiranya dia
jodoh saya,.
Jika tidak, pisahkan lah kami segera supaya tidak terlalu lama bersama dan
bertaut kasih sayang.
Dan akhirnya susah untuk terlerai. Amin.

Disabled

2011-12-18T01:37:00.000+08:00

I'm totally disabled today.
Disabled to go out. Disabled to enjoy my only weekend with kev. Dah nasib dapat demam macam ni pulak. Suddenly. Maybe sebab ada kena hujan sikit masa dinner on Thursday tu.

Now just lying on bed. Kevin called several times already today. He wanted me to rest. its okey he can do his christmas gift shopping today. Whichever he missed out while shopping in aus before he can do it in kl.
He still need to buy for his cousins.

We plan to bring clara to genting today. Pity her. Kena la duduk rumah saja hari ni with me :(

Please I hope to be better tomorrow
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Excuse my excitement

2011-12-15T11:21:00.000+08:00

Semalam I keluar dari ofis pukul 5

sharp sharp when I seldom did that. Selalu 5 lebih atau I’ll work until late.

Sebabnya ada orang dah tak sabar nak jumpa saya. Kept texting me buat countdown

lagi to 5pm.

I should have taken emergency

leave lah today kan??? But who is going to take care of my group yang dah in

house ni.

Bila masuk ke Gardens cari kevin

kat Ground Floor, dia tengah tengok pokok krismas. Saw him from 1st

Floor so I just stood there and watched him rasa macam tak percaya pulak dia

ada kat depan mata. The figure, the gesture, the look. I miss everything about

him. The way he talked to me, the way he looked into my eyes are all the same.

Persetankan perasaan was-was saya dan prasangka buruk saya pada dia selama ini

sebab dia nampaknya masih macam dulu. The way he held my hand everytime we walked,

I felt comfortable. When he squeezed my hand and I looked at him asking

‘What was that for?’

He replied ‘I miss you so much’

*Mata saya akan bersinar hehe

Okey, I fell in love. Again. With

the same person.

*allow me to breath first. While

typing this, I’m smiling and my chest is full of deep feelings.

We headed to Bukit Bintang after

that in the rain and in the jam. He drove and asked for any nice restaurant to

treat me for dinner so I suggested La Bodega. I had no appetite (maybe because

I am too happy so I tend to lose my appetite) I just had ceasar salad and

chicken burger while he had paella and lamb at the same time. He is still a big eater =D. We had tiramisu

for desert.

I sent kevin back to the hotel

after dinner because it was nearly 10 and pity Clara who was waiting for me at

home. Kevin bought her a pack of candy at MidV earlier. I drop him in front of

the hotel lobby. Dengan hati yang berat. Like scolding myself of leaving him

there, which is silly.

After I sent Clara to bed, we

continue chatting on the phone till 3am. That’s crazy because today we will

still be meeting for lunch and after work.

Again, can’t wait.

Excuse my excitement these week

okey =)

Thank you God

2011-12-14T16:23:00.001+08:00

Yes. Kevin is here.
My love is here.
Let me smile =)))))))

It can never be expressed with words. The presence. The
happiness.
Dia muncul secara surprise. So no preparation. I didn’t apply
for leave. So I have to work while he is in town is killing me.
Every time I had to look at the clock hope that it will tick
faster -.-“

Just received his sms

*what is the time now? Can’t wait to meet you today. Cepat sikit ye??*

Arghhh !

Nak suruh eddie cover kerja. Tapi segan. Dan dia diam aje semalam dan hari
ni. Semalam saya dah balik awal sikit. Sebab keluar dinner dengan kevin dan
clara. Kevin nak jumpa clara. And clara was very happy to meet him again.

The other day, he was the one who sent me the roses. Dia stay kat hotel
kat Mid valley ni. So it’s closer to my office. Petang tu kan, masa nak balik
kerja saya singgah mcD tapau burger for dinner. Lepas tu singgah Jusco kejap
beli ice cream. Lepas beli ice cream naik ke tingkat 5 parking. Saya tak ada
mood. So saya tak ambil kisah pun dengan orang sekeliling. Saya tak tengok pun
siapa ada di depan dan belakang. Main jalan aje. Masuk dalam lif pun
ramai-ramai. Sampai tingkat 5 saya terus jalan ke kereta. On the way pergi
kereta ada dengar orang batuk-batuk kat belakang. Lama-lama makin kuat batuk
dia. Dan macam dia jalan satu jalan dengan saya ke tempat kereta tu.

Saya pusing belakang tengok. Well, macam nak tercabut jantung bila tengok
kevin tersengih kat belakang. Masa tu tak tahu nak cakap apa. Macam-macam rasa
ada. Terkejut, geram, terharu, sedih, dan happy. Tapi mestilah happy yang
lebih. =)

Terus kejang berdiri kat situ tak dapat nak cakap apa-apa. Sampai dia
datang ambil kan plastik beg barang-barang saya pun saya masih tengok dia macam
tak percaya. Okey, surprise menjadi. Kevin cakap dia tak plan nak surprise saya
pada mulanya. Dia punya tiket a week later. Tapi dia cakap dia dah tak sabar
rindu sangat nak balik jugak so dia pergi tukar tiket dan skip kuliah dan kerja
dia untuk seminggu. Dia tanggung consequences nya nanti. Wah terharunya.. tsk
Lepas tu pergi duduk kat bench dalam midvalley cerita-cerita. Sampai ice
cream yg dibeli pun cair dalam kereta. I don’t care. ;)

Okey its 4.30 dah ke? Nak siap-siap lah. 5 sharp nak keluar dah. Kevin dah
tunggu kat Gardens. Malam ni dinner kat sini lepas tu jalan-jalan kejap then
hantar dia balik hotel semula. Nak bawak gi jalan kat rumah tapi not nice sebab
parents tak ada kan. Dia pun faham. Cant wait for the weekend. Ah he will be
here till next week. I still have him for the whole week.

Oh my God..thank you. I am so happy

Panic

2011-12-12T11:54:00.000+08:00

Kevin was not traceable during weekend. He didn't reply to my text and when I called his handphone was off. Tried to call his pet brother but the number was not in service. Bagus. He has changed his number must be.

I just worried because the last time on Friday spoken to him he said that he feltl unwell. I hope nothing bad is happen.

This morning I tried again and again his phone. It was off still. I am worried I could not do my work. I called his sister, she said kevin didn't call her during weekend. But I didn't tell anything don't want her to worry. Nanti lagi teruk. Biar saya yang cari dia dulu.

Sebelum ni kevin ada juga diam for few days but I didn't really worry like this since I knew if she was having test or exam or field. But this time i don't feel good.

Just now I received a bouquet of flower. One boy hantar to our receptionist. Red roses. Besar. Terkejut. Colleagues semua usik-usik saya ada secret admirer kot. No sender. I stared at eddie but he said it wasn't him. Today is not my birthday. Salah orang kot.

Tapi hati saya bukan pada bunga tu. Biarlah siapa nak hantar. Waste of money lah sebab saya tak dapat nak excited. Saya risau.
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Pizza

2011-12-10T16:26:00.002+08:00

We made pizza today !
A simple one. Meet our hunger, at least..

We wanted to go to Sunway Lagoon today but Clara is not feeling well. So we just lepak at home. Yaya is wathing marathon The Walking Dead and i watch my fav series online.

Maybe tonight we'll go out for dinner. Thinking about some steamboat..yumm

Resipi ? ---> http://arianna100recipeschallenge.blogspot.com/

Night out together

2011-12-09T11:26:00.000+08:00

Yaya is still around. She will stay until Sunday. Glad to have here around.
Gelak je all the time. Kalau tahu dia nak datang awal-awal saya dah ambil cuti.
Last minit tak dapat pulak nak cuti sebab kerja melambak.
Yaya is my BFF. She understood me and she is the best advisor I’ve ever had.
She is my love counsellor too.
She was the one who rejected kevin when kevin wanted to get to know me. She was the one who scolded me when I decided to accept kevin. I’m not mad at her. She has just playing his
role as my best friend who should protect me. She worried about me if kevin
just wanted to play around and leave me hurt. But now she has accepted the fact
that I had fall in love with kevin. No matter what will happen between myself
and kevin, yaya said just go to her whenever I need her.

Awe,,, ;(

Last night we went out for dinner.
4 of us. Myself, yaya, clara and eddie. Eddie came to pick us up and we went to
Sunway Pyramid. Eddie knew yaya since we were in sabah already. And I must say
that yaya is the one yang membuatkan kami kenal antara satu sama lain. Sebab
yaya yang bawa saya ke kenduri di mana Eddie ada kat situ. Hah nice meeting and
it was funny though.

We wanted to give a little surprise to Clara so we brought her to watch Puss In Boots.
Eddie has earlier booked the ticket yesterday when we were in the office and he planned everything. We just followed. I like when someone planned and I bawak diri je ikut plan tu. J

Clara loved it. And no stop talking and telling and laughing in the cinema until I have to shut her mouth at one time because the front row woman already looked back. I guess she was
happy too with aunties and uncle layan her. They bought her ice cream and toys.
They pampered her too much. But as Yaya said, she needs the pamper why don’t we
give her?

I agree.

We will do something fun this weekend together and cant wait !

Happy weekend everyone :)

More and more and more

2011-12-06T19:31:00.002+08:00

Everytime i looked in the mirror, i would see my chubbier chin and cheek.

More and more and more chubby than before. My mum suka lah. Sebab dia cakap anak dia cukup makan kat sini.

I put on some weight since last hari raya.

Told kevin,

"Kev, you will see a different me when we meet okey"

"Can't wait!"
"You dont want to know what is the difference? i'm warning youu"
"I dont care as long as its one piece of my Arianna"

You dont care ye ?
Wait and see. =P

Watch all tv series free !

2011-12-06T09:52:00.001+08:00

Yaya tak jadi datang semalam. Dia dah sampai lewat ke KL terus ke rumah
sepupu dia. Hari ni baru janji nak spend time dengan saya. Jumpa petang lepas
kerja dan dia nak overnight kat rumah 2-3 hari. Oh bestnya. Rasa macam nak buat
sleep over party je. Nak join? J

Malam tadi sampai pukul 3 marathon Vampire Diaries. Mula dari awal. Banyak
lagi nak marathon. Gossip Girl lagi, One Tree Hill lagi. Kardashians pun rasa
macam nak start dari awal balik. Nak tengok dari mereka mula series tu in 2007.
Lepas tu nak tengok Pretty Little Liars then Lipstick Jungle.

Ada juga cooking series nak tengok. Kitchen Nightmares ada. Chopped All
Stars pun ada. Yahuu. Suka sangat. Tapi first nak tengok Man Vs Food. Like
like.

Surprised to see The Wonder Years pun ada. Siri lama but I like Fred
Savage so selalu cari mana boleh tengok Worder Years masa Fred kecik2 lagi. Happy
sangat. The Girl from tomorrow pun ada yeay.

What is your favourite series? Kalau ada tell me so saya boleh tengok juga
nanti.

Go here : http://watchseries.eu

Another week to count

2011-12-05T15:55:00.002+08:00

Hello, good day! Another week to count huh.

How's your weekend?
Mine was good. Tak ke mana-mana,
resting at home. Hanya kelaur sekitar rumah, ke kedai beli barang dapur.
Restock everything yang tak ada. Then pergi lepak rumah maklong. Maklong masak
macam nak kenduri semalam saja sebab dia call semua sepupu suruh datang
makan-makan. Everone likes clara. Clara pun seronok sebab ramai yang ada,
sepupu-sepupu kecil ajak dia main. Sampai nak berhenti makan pun tak nak
punyalah seronok. Has to stop everyone untuk duduk dan hidangkan makanan paksa
mereka makan dulu, baru semua nak makan. Masa kecil, saya pun macam tu juga.
Kalau dah mula main, mesti tak ingat makan.

Ijoy nak gi rumah paksu kat UK for holiday so dia ajak saya ikut tapi bila sebab kevin nak balik mesti la saya tak nak pergi. Takkan kevin balik, saya pulak lari keluar. Saya bagitahu ijoy kevin
nak balik. So he understood. Saya belum apply cuti lagi ni nasib baik teringat.
I wanted to take 3-4 days leave while kevin is in KL so boleh keluar
jalan-jalan. He said one week before Christmas he will be here and from
Christmas and one week after that with his family.

Seminggu je kat sini? Fine lah.
Kenalah fair. Me and his family. Jangan tamak sangat -.-“

Yesterday I called Jen, Clara’s mother. Just a courtesy asking her if she wants Clara back for Christmas. She said she wanted to, but she has another matter happening there so she said it’s
better if Clara just stay here. She asked if Clara bagi masalah dekat saya tapi
of course saya cakap nothing than happiness to me and my family here. A part of
me takut nak bagi Clara balik sana even for short time tapi as a human, I don’t
want her to be separated too long from her mother especially during the festive
season like Christmas. Clara talked to her mother like ususal over the phone.
She didn’t tell that she wants to go home or anything. I guess she likes to
stay here with me.

Yaya is coming to KL today, she will call me if she wants to sleep over at my place tonight.

Glad to see her after a while. Many things to tell, lots of story to chat about. Hope I can
meet her this time. She still managing her sister’s business so she is pretty
busy and I heard she is getting engage to Norman soon. She is so lucky hah. I’ll
be left behind =(

Okey to be continued..

Bedah Tong Gas

2011-12-02T12:05:00.002+08:00

Adoi lawak la citer ni. Jom la tengok kawan2. Sakit perut gelak.

Kevin and my roasted chicken

2011-12-01T09:52:00.000+08:00

Semalam saya rushing buat proposal dan closing sebab nakbalik awal. I skipped lunch and stay back. Eddie tengok saya tak keluar dia punmalas nak keluar. My boss was kind enough to order us Dominos. Thehehe. We haveworks so hard , she noticed it. She also asked about Clara yesterday and shepraised me for being so brave to take care of her by myself. She asked me tofind a baby for her to adopt. Kalau kita bersendirian kan, I mean hidupsendirian dan semakin meningkat usia, we may think of a baby to accompany us. Andto take care of us when we get older. At least ada yang menjaga bila kita sakitdemam.

Kevin called everynight now. Told him to save money and not calling so frequent. I ni pelik. Kalaudia tak call I sedih, kalau dia call I suruh dia jimat dan jangan call selalu.Bukan apa, sebab dia dah nak balik sini so need more money to spend. Better diajangan bazirkan untuk call. When he called, he would look for Clara first dancakap-cakap dulu then he asked clara to call me. Silap la dia sebab clara punyacerita lagi panjang dari cerita saya. She will tell all the daily activitiesand the fairy tale stories also. =P

Last night I roasted ½ chicken for us. It turned out delicious.Especially clara wrapped it to the bone. Kids and chicken tak boleh dipisahkan.We ate with rice and sambal cili padi bik Hera masakkan. That’s all for dinner.Tapi kenyang sampai ke tengah malam.

If you want to try the recipe, as usual boleh tengok kat myother blog okey. I have many more recipes to accomplish. Give me more timeplease..=)

Doomagic Pillowcase Notice

2011-11-30T11:03:00.000+08:00

Sorry sebab lambat buat notification ni. Kepada yang purchase pillowcase the last batch, minta maaf sebab stock kali ni ada delay.
Estimate arrival in Nov kan tapi most probably delayed to Dec/Jan due to
production matter. Minta maaf di atas segala kesulitan. Hopefully before that
boleh dapat. New estimate date yang diberi tu adalah anggaran juga. Thanks for
your understanding my friends.

Looks ugly but yummy

2011-11-29T19:50:00.000+08:00

My sandwich looks ugly kan? Boiled egg + butter + soy sauce + black pepper.
But its nice. And healthy too.
:)

This is my pre-dinner before I'm going home coz I'm too hungry. Kesian clara and bibik tunggu saya balik nak dinner. Tapi bz sangat di office hari ni.

I had headache since morning. I don't want to be a workaholic oh please. But my work is getting much. Overloaded. I enjoy working here but I pity the little kid now. Mesti bagi dia lebih perhatian.

Bye bye. Go back now lah

Adopt kitten anyone?

2011-11-29T12:29:00.000+08:00

Tak boleh tengok la kitten comel macam ni terus rasa geram nak lambung-lambung hehe

Siapa yang nak adopt the above adorable kitten can click here : http://sebuahceriterahati.blogspot.com/2011/11/maya.html

Contact Sha ye.

Sha, have done my small part, hope it finds home.

At eddie's

2011-11-28T15:00:00.000+08:00

Its already 2pm, I'm at Eddie's house and we still preparing the lunch haha. We are late sebab pergi pasar dan jalan-jalan dulu sebelum balik masak.

Eddie nak masak nasi ayam. Dan seafood spaghetti. I just tolong potong2 dan goreng keropok lekor. Bibik tolong siapkan meja saja. Bagi dia cuti hari ni. For desert saya dah bawakkan muffin yang buat malam tadi. Dan ada cendol pulut tapai from eddie nanti.

Its gonna be fun and full with food. :)
And clara tengah main-main dengan atuk. I mean eddie's abah. He likes clara and so do her. Eddie kept asking me to see his father smiling and laughing.

Mission complete!

Wonderful December to be

2011-11-26T14:26:00.003+08:00

Early morning i received text from Kevin

*What day is today dear? Kenapa lambat sgt masa berjalan?*

Haha. It is still November darling.

You are right. Kevin is coming back in December.
He said he is back to celebrate his birthday with me. But i know he is back for Christmas with his family too. Well, whether i mind or not. i have to accept it.

It has been months since we met. So it's kind of nervous to me to see him again. Really. I almost forgot when was the last time i blog about him. That is because i just don't want to keep missing him. If i keep mentioning him, the hardest it would be.

The plan was he wanted me to go there to visit him. But plan changed because i have Clara here so i cant leave Clara. He didn't mind who visit who as long as we can meet. It is long enough of being apart so something has to be done to meet.

I can't wait. And can't avoid smiling for no reason this 2 days.

:)))

He will be back for 2 weeks. and i cant expect to have him for 2 weeks here. He has to be with his family as well. Too hurting. But don't want to be selfish.

Okey i smile again..

Regret or No Regret

2011-11-25T19:14:00.003+08:00

It's gonna rain any minute now. the sky is so dark. or has it rained already?

i just looking at the sky from my work station. i'm waiting for eddie. we have a dinner with

clients at a hotel in KL. dinner at 8pm and now is 7.16pm and he is still busy.

can we make it or not eddie? geram tengok dia. saya tak suka sampai lewat nanti segan dengan client. si eddie ni nak jugak siapkan kerja dia sebab Tuesday dia cuti.

While waiting saya baca balik entry saya dalam blog yang lepas-lepas. 2 years ago i started blogging. in January 2009. ada yang saya regret buat entry macam tu dan ada yang saya malu sendiri. sebab kebanyakannya luahan perasaan dan spontaneous. And i was 2 years younger so saya rasa sekarang lebih matang sebab kalau saya sedar macam ni dulu saya tak tulis entry tu.

Haha.

well, itulah dia dinamakan blogging. another kind of diary. your lifetime diary.

Eh eddie cepat lahhh

Oh ye..the thing that make me happy.

Someone is coming back to celebrate birthday with me.

Who's birthday is in Dec?

Remember tak?

Happy Friday

2011-11-25T09:14:00.000+08:00

I feel very happy today. Hope you are too okey.

I actually had a good news last night I even couldn't sleep well thinking over it.
Like want to jump to the sky.
I'll share with you later. Of course I will coz everything that happen to me i always want to share here.
Kannnn

Let me have my breakfast first

Maaf readers

2011-11-24T12:49:00.000+08:00

Nak minta maaf..
kepada yang bertanyakan di mana saya kerja. Yang minta hphone no & pin bbm. Juga kepada yang ajak berjumpa. Yang nak bagi barang dan hadiah untuk Clara pun ada. Yang jemput gathering dan iklan. Saya tahu niat anda semua baik.
Cuma maafkan saya sebab tak dapat penuhi permintaan anda.

Izinkan saya tidak menonjolkan diri dan latarbelakang saya. Biarlah anda kenali saya sebagai Arianna @ Bvlgarigirl sahaja dalam alam maya. Dunia realiti saya masih ingin kan privasi demi menjaga nama dan hati mereka-mereka yang terlibat dalam blog saya. Terlalu personal untuk diperkenalkan semuanya.

Kepada yang kenal saya di luar dan terjumpa blog ni. Anda boleh lah tahu lebih mengenai saya sebab saya tidak suka bercerita di luar kecuali di sini sahaja. Tapi kalau boleh jangan lah bagitau saya anda baca sebab nanti saya segan.

Jadi jangan ingat saya sombong. Kalau boleh saya ingin kenal dan jumpa semua kat sini. Tapi kena biasakan diri dengan cara ini. Harap semua faham dan terima saya dan blog ini seadanya.
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My lunch

2011-11-23T18:46:00.000+08:00

My lunch today consists of 3 pcs of sushi and a can of 100 plus. A lot of gases in my tummy now.

I'm going to cook chicken brest tonight. So check my cooking blog if you have time :)
I think I am more excited to cook now coz I want to try out new recipes. Some I got from Chef eddie. He is a good cook.

When he asked today
'Jadi tak kita masak-masak weekend ni?'

I immediately answered
'Jadi loh !'

Okey, we'll find something nice to cook.

Eh I'm going home now. Its gonna rain so better rush now. Till later

#HarimauMalaya

2011-11-22T12:36:00.000+08:00

Seronok tengok bola malam tadi sambil ikut timeline kat twitter. Haha macam-macam ada komen, kata-kata semangat, kutukan, pujian. :) kita tau nak komen-komen aje kan tak tahu macamana keadaan player-player kat padang tu. Mungkin bila berdiri kat tengah padang tu baru kita sendiri tahu macamna langit tinggi ke rendah. Anyway tahniah kepada team #harimauMalaya.

Ramai mintak cuti dengan @najibRazak tapi katanya kos tinggi untuk declare cuti. So dia bagi nasihat supaya lebih kuat kerja. :) diam terus rakyat jelata

Pagi ni dapat makan nasi lemak bik hera masak kan sempena kekalahan dia. Kesiannn. Sebab semalam dah bet siapa kalah kena masak nasi lemak hari ni. :p
Bila dah habis penalti tu terus dia masuk dapur siang ikan bilis dan goreng kacang.

Bik hera masak banyak so saya tapaukan sikit untuk eddie. Berselera dia makan. Dia kata sedap. Nasi lemak ada tempe. Maklum lah. Tukang masak import. Eddie cakap dah lama dapur kat rumah dia tak berasap. Dia tak ada masa. Asyik tapau aje untuk dia dan abah dia.

Eddie ajak kita orang gi masak-masak kat rumah dia weekend ni. Sambil temankan abah dia yang kesunyian. Kalau ramai-ramai dengan bibik dan clara sekali mesti meriah rumah dia yang macam hospital dah dia cakap. Ermmm macamana ni nak pergi ke tidak.
Fikir dulu lah. What do u think eh?
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My saturday

2011-11-19T10:35:00.002+08:00

Started off the morning with a 1 hour on treadmill. Almost lost my breath hehe. And then indulged in some delicious nasi goreng sardin pedas by bik hera (no one can challenge her nasi goreng sardin). I gain back my 300 calories i burned. Fair enough.

Kejutkan Clara dengan menggeletek kaki dia. One thing Clara ni kalau dia bangun pagi dia terus senyum bila saya cakap "Good morning sayang.." Love her smile in the morning. Made up my day.

We will be grocery shopping today for the necessities. Here is a little of what our grocery list looks like:

1. Oatmeal
2. Butter
3. Strawberry
4. Eggs
5. Brown sugar
6. Raisins
7. Chicken
8. Vege
9. Fish
10. Brown Rice
11. Water chestnut
12. Breadcrumb
13. Basil

Sounds like i am cooking something doesn't it?! I may be a little crazy, but I'm pretty excited! I think by doing something that i like, i will be more happier and merrier.

Have a nice weekend u all

Friday dah

2011-11-18T11:32:00.000+08:00

Cepatnya masa berlalu. Dah friday. Hari ni lega sikit sebab pagi tadi saya datang awal sangat masuk ofce terus send semua quotation yang pending. Nasib baik ofce dah buka awal. Akak cleaner tengah vakum.

Malam tadi pergi hospital melawat mama sidd. Pergi lepas kerja. Kebetulan eddie ada dan dia pun nak ikut sama. Oklah pergi sama-sama sebab eddie pun boleh kenal sidd. Saya selalu cerita pasal sidd as my best friend to eddie. Then eddie ckp kalau boleh dia pun nak jadi best friend to me macam sidd. Halahh berebut nak jadi bestfriend lak.

Mama sidd macam biasa selalu nangis bila tengok saya datang. Dan saya rasa keadaan dia lagi uzur dari last time saya jumpa dia. Saya duduk pegang tangan dan urut-urut tangan dia. Rambut dah gugur dia tunjuk dengan saya. Rasa nak jatuh air mata. Tapi kalau kita berdepan dengan orang sakit kita jangan lemah semangat dan sedih-sedih. Tunjuk yang kita boleh jadikan dia lebih bersemangat.

Saya bawak fruit cake untuk mama dia. Favourite dia. Mama dia suka tapi dia cakap kalau dia makan sekarang ni semua dah tak ada rasa. Dia cakap Allah dah tarik deria rasa dia. Saya peluk dia bila nak balik. Dia cakap nanti senang-senang datang lagi. Dan saya minta maaf dengan dia sebab sidd sms kat saya masa kat situ cakap kalau nak minta maaf ke apa saya boleh buat sekarang.

I won't forget the moment.

Sebelum balik eddie tinggalkan saya dengan sidd kejap. Saya tengokk sidd lagi strong dari sebelum ni. Mungkin dia dah dapat menerima keadaan. Dan mungkin sebab terlalu lama dia bersedih dia jadi lebih tabah. Sidd cakap mereka sekeluarga dan adik-adik dia semua okey. Dah pasrah dan dia sekali ckp dia lebih rela mama dia diambil pergi dari dia menderita macam tu lama-lama.
Ya Allah kuatnya dugaan untuk keluarga sidd semoga mereka lebih kuat menerimanya.

Pagi tadi saya saya dapat mesej sidd

*arianna, mama kirim salam dia cakap dia mimpikan awak malam tadi

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arianna100recipeschallenge

2011-11-17T12:14:00.002+08:00

http://www.arianna100recipeschallenge.blogspot.com

Now baru rasa nak share.

Wish me luck

Pity him

2011-11-16T15:29:00.000+08:00

I'm having my late lunch. In the office because today I have a group in town and have no time really to go out. Woke up at 5am to standby waiting for any call because the group flight touched down in the morning. This weekend will be on field or on standby call 24hours. -.-'

Just now I received sms from sidd telling that if I want to go to see her mother, I may do so. Dah lama tak melawat mama dia. I must go sebab dia cakap macam tu. There must be something happen kan. I will find time tomorrow kalau dapat lari ke hospital kejap insyaallah.

I seldom call and see sidd now sebab the last time we met dia cakap dia nak habiskan masa dengan menjaga mama dia yang sakit. So I respect dan tak cari dia sangat. Give him the precious time with his mother.
Wpun sesekali rasa rindu nak hang out together macam dulu. Dah lama tak dengar dia ketawa.

Susahnya nak habiskan fruit salad ni. I wish I have something else to eat macam bubur nasi ke sedap juga makan hujan2 ni.

God is great !

2011-11-15T14:45:00.001+08:00

You all are so sweet hearted lah. Bila saya buat entry
happy-happy semua tumpang happy dengan saya. Bila
buat entry sedih-sedih semua
macam dapat rasa perasaan saya. Feel showered with loves. Thank you.

Currently I am in the happy mood. Besides small small things
happening around I tried to put it aside. Simple, kalau kita ada masalah,
dengan mendownkan diri dan bersedih, masalah tak akan selesai juga pun kan.

Jadi kuatkan semangat, bangun dan cuba lah senyum. Ingat semua perkara yang
menggembirakan kita walaupun perkara sekecil seperti saya dapat flying kiss
dari Clara sebelum pergi kerja setiap hari. Walaupun kadang-kadang saya sendiri
pun terikut dengan mood, tapi cuba lah. Cuba okey. Goood! .

Macam semalam, semasa saya berjalan ke parking lot, kat depan saya ada satu couple. Yang lelaki bukan main segak tinggi dari belakang nampak macam susuk Fahrin Ahmad. Awe. Tapi pasangan dia seorang yang kurang upaya. Rasanya ada sedikit kecacatan pada kakinya yang membuatkan dia bila berjalan nampak macam tak balance. No offence. Tapi masih tangannya dipimpin lelaki itu. Dan mereka nampak sangat loving. Kami masuk lif yang sama. Ralit sangat tengok mereka sampai saya terlepas tingkat. Subhanallah. Rasa nak pergi peluk the girl bagitahu dia she is so lucky despite of kekurangan dia. And I pray that they will be together forever. God is great!

Okey, what else I nak mumbling kat sini. I am pretty boring
sebab no one in the office. No boss, no colleague in my dept and no eddie. He is
still in PD. Overnight there till tomorrow. Last night he called just to ask which
one yang lebih sedap, black pepper crab or chilli crab. Padahal nak suruh saya
terliur. YOU CRAB !

Oh ye, talking about food kan, saya sebenarnya ada satu lagi blog. Blog about what I tried to cook. Try to cook means trying and creating new recipes. And I challenge myself to complete 100 recipes. I must be crazy. -.-' It's not even 10 till now. In progress, promise. Bahaha.
No its not private, its public. Kalau terjumpa tu kira jumpa lah ye.

Ok back to work. Till later.

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Back to square one

2011-11-14T16:11:00.001+08:00

Rasa macam nak berhibernasi kat rumah saja, atas katil, dalam selimut. Makan banyak-banyak buat bekal dan tak perlu bangun seminggu. Macam beruang. Nak continue another amazing week kalau boleh. But today is another working day I have to enjoy. Ye senyum sekarang secara paksa.

Took all my courage to write again. Sorry I didn't want to steal the precious time I spent with my family the whole week. Last night sent my family to the airport. We had a great time lepaskan rindu. My mum macam dah pujuk saya 41 kali untuk resign kerja dan ikut mereka ke Bali. Adik-adik macam dah dapat biasakan diri dengan life kat sana. As I said children easy to adapt.

Our raya... Rasanya lagi meriah dari raya puasa hari tu. I got to eat mama rendang ayam, daging dendeng dan nasi himpit dengan ayam masak merah. Superb. Sampai raya ke 3 saya masih minta makanan raya. So mama masak pulut kuning dengan udang kalio. Rasa nak nangis makan.

They were super happy juga sebab ada Clara. Rasa macam meriah pula bila ada budak kecik dalam rumah. And Clara pun enjoy main dengan adik-adik semua. Tidur pun dengan Noni. Rapat betul. Mama nak pinjam Clara bawak ke sana tapi saya tak bagi. No way. Saya mesti kusut kalau dia tak ada.

Papa, ada tanya pasal kevin. Saya cakap kevin masih di aus dan kami masih kawan. Then it stopped there. Saya berdebar juga kalau dia nak tanya apa-apa lagi coz afraid of mati kutu tak tahu nak jawab apa. Mama tak ada tanya apa-apa, that is good. Sebab kalau mama yang tanya dia lebih detail.

Kevin ada contact almost everyday sekarang. Mungkin dia tak berapa bz sekarang. He text and call. Dan selalu juga call cari Clara. Kadang-kadang tengok Clara on the phone, rupanya tengah cakap dengan kevin. Dia masih ingat uncle Kev.

We had argument before when I told him I brought clara back here. Dia kata dia takut saya kecewa nanti kalau Clara suatu hari nanti diambil balik ke sana. Itu yang dia tak mahu berlaku pada saya. Tapi saya ckp I will accept whatever happen.

Nuff now, I have to continue with my work. eddie is outstation to PD so I have to cover him today. Later peeps.
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Selamat Hari Raya

2011-11-04T12:37:00.000+08:00

Pagi tadi 7.30am. Eddie call.

Eddie : Assalamualaikum
Saya : Waalaikumsalam. Ni mesti ada problem dengan arrival group tu kan?
Eddie : Tak de lah semua okey. Semua on time tak ada delay.
Saya : Great. Habis tu ada apa call saya pagi-pagi?
Eddie : Awak pernah tak rasa macam tak senang duduk kalau tak dapat jumpa seseorang. Kalau tak dapat tengok muka dia, tengok bumbung rumah dia pun tak apa. Pernah tak?
Saya : Apa dia? Emm pernah la kot. Dulu masa mula-mula jatuh cinta.
Eddie : Ye? Sekarang tak lagi ke?
Saya : Sekarang tak de la sangat sebab memang tak ada pun kat sini yang nak ditengok bumbung atau bayang dia.
Eddie : Ye lah betul jugak. Awak kata kat area sini ada nasi kerabu sedap. Kat mana ye?
Saya : Kat area sini? Awak kat mana ni?
Eddie : Kat depan rumah awak.
Saya : Buat apa kat sini?
Eddie : Kan dah cakap tadi nak makan nasi kerabu…
Saya : Jauhnya datang nak makan nasi kerabu. 40km kot..haha. Oklah kalau nak makan nasi kerabu tunggu la kejap. Saya siapkan Clara kita gi makan sama-sama lah.
Eddie : Okey.

Dalam kedinginan dan kelembapan hujan rahmat pagi tadi. Kami pergi la sama-sama makan nasi kerabu kat satu kedai dekat rumah saya. Memang sedap nasi kerabu dia. Orang kelantan yang masak memang sedap. Clara makan nasi dengan ayam goreng je dia tak makan nasi kerabu. Mungkin sebab warna biru dia takut nak makan. J

Dalam pukul 9 lebih baru Eddie gerak pergi ofis. Saya terus ke pasar beli lauk sikit. Petang ni nak masak-masak dengan bibik, masak special sikit, ingat nak masak nasi arab. Percubaan pertama lah. then malam nak pergi airport jemput my family. Maklong pun ikut sama bwk vellfire dia besar sikit so muatlah semua orang tak perlu ambil teksi lagi. Itu pun kalau mama tak bawak 2,3 kotak barang dia borong dari sana. Rasanya kain pun dah 2 kotak dia cakap. Belum lagi makanan.

For those yang tanya mana family saya, tak ada adik beradik ke saya ni.. Ada, saya ada 3 adik, 2 lelaki, 1 perempuan. Papa saya kena transfer ke Bali last few months dan bawa semua ahli keluarga kecuali saya dan bibik yang dibuang di sini. :) Bukan buang, saya yang degil tak nak ikut. Nak kerja kat sini. so dia tinggalkan bibik jaga saya. Padahal saya yang jaga bibik tau. Ada cicak dalam bilik air, dia yang jerit-jerit dan saya tukang halau. Malam tadi dia nangis rindu anak dia kat Indon, saya pujuk dia dan buatkan ice blended. See?

Okey, I pun rasa kalau I rajin bercerita di blog dan luahkan perasaan di sini, hati saya akan lebih tenang. Especially bila ada yang sudi bagi nasihat dan syer pendapat. Love u all as much as I have. Thank you.

Last but not least, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha kepada semua.
Hati-hati drive kalau balik kampung.

With love XoXo

Curahan

2011-11-03T12:29:00.000+08:00

Last day at work. Esok cuti. Sukanya. Sebab esok family nak balik. Dah lama tak jumpa mereka. Tapi sebab selalu berjauhan macam dah terbiasa walaupun selalu merindu. Dulu saya yang belajar jauh. Sekarang mereka yang pergi tinggal jauh. Bila tanya papa berapa lama papa kena kerja kat sana, dia sendiri pun tak dapat nak cakap.

Kehidupan tanpa family di sini baik-baik saja. Kadang-kadang bila frust dan tension atau sakit ada juga la menangis sendiri. Tapi sebolehnya tahan menangis kalau call parents sebab takut nak kena suruh pindah ke sana juga. Sekarang ada budak kecik pula yang akan nangis selalu pada saya, jadi saya sendiri perlu kurangkan manja saya. Act like a mother pula.

Saya gembira sebab ada Clara dan bibik bersama saya di sini. Well, life is so challenging and I have taken it as a challenge to me. Saya juga sedih sebab orang yang saya sangat sayangi tiada bersama saya sekarang. Saya rasa hilang sebahagian dari semangat saya bila satu hari dia kata dia nak sambung belajar di aus. Di malaysia tak ada tempat nak belajar lagi kah? Tapi dia cakap untuk masa depan. Dan itu cita-cita dia. Saya tak patut jadi penghalang sebab saya sebenarnya perlu jadi pendorong. Tepuk dahi dan geleng kepala sendiri lepaskan dia. Sebab dalam hati dah cakap 50-50 lah nanti. Kekal atau tidak.

Dan sampai hari ini dah lebih setahun dia pergi, hari-hari saya yang berlalu pun tak sama lagi. Dan kami kadang-kadang ada pasang surutnya. Sekejap okey dan sekejap dingin. Tapi itulah hakikatnya. Bila berjauhan. Bila hati kata sayang dan rindu tapi tiada di depan mata. Bila hari-hari tanggungjawab lain lagi besar dari beban rindu. Rindu bisa diatasi. Bila benda sekecil kuman boleh jadi sebesar batu caves, parah dah. Lepas bergaduh masing-masing tersenyum sendiri. Senyum sebab berfikir bolehkah kita bertahan ni?

Datang kerja hati gundah terubat juga. Bila ada yang senyum selalu. Bila ada yang care. Bila ada yang cover time buat salah depan bos. Bila ada yang buat saya ketawa sampai keluar air mata. Bila ada yang letak sandwich atas meja bila saya tak keluar makan. Bila ada yang kirimkan candy untuk clara. Bila ada yang bertanya Arianna adakah awak bahagia hari ni?

Kadang-kadang jiwa terusik.
Fikiran berbelah dua tiga empat.

Bila dia cakap, boleh tak bagi saya peluang berkawan dengan awak sementara dia tak ada. Biar saya tumpang rasa bahagia walaupun sementara. Saya janji tak akan ganggu hubungan awak, beri saya sedikit saja tempat dalam hati.
Saya lepaskan awak bila dia kembali.

Saya okey saja.
Mungkin sebab cinta di sana sangat kuat.
Cincin di jari saya genggam erat-erat.

Insyaallah kan Arianna

Sayang biar berpada. Tak baik kecewakan hati orang. Tak baik mungkir janji.

Kevin. If only you can read this.
I still love you.
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What's cooking?

2011-11-01T15:05:00.003+08:00

Clara wants to eat chicken so i made roasted rosemary + blackpepper chicken. Senang aje, perapkan ayam dengan sikit black pepper, sos tiram, garam, serbuk perisa dan rosemary. Dan panggang lah pada suhu 200c selama 45 minit.

1 piece only for her.
I and bibik had ikan merah masak lemak cili api.
Maklong sent for lunch today sebab dia tahu saya ada kat rumah dan Clara tak sihat.
She made potato soup with meat ball for clara tapi clara tak nak makan.
So saya juga yang habiskan.
Dan sekarang rasa macam nak buat puding karamel lah pulak.
Whats wrong ni rasa nak makan macam-macam aje hari ni.
Jom jom kita ke dapur !

Misteri tangan kecil

2011-11-01T12:08:00.003+08:00

Hari ni EL sebab jaga Clara yang tak sihat.
Call my boss pagi-pagi bagitahu dia. My boss very understanding, siap suruh pergi jumpa paed yang niece dia selalu pergi. Recommend vitamin itu dan ini lagi. She knows that i brought Clara to stay with me now and she also excited about it. Since she is single, dia kata dia pun nak adopt seorang baby untuk temankan dia masa tua sebab dia kata she doesnt want to get married. Huh?

Then eddie call tanya pasal Clara. Dia cakap dia boleh tolong bawak ke klinik kalau i need his help. Tak perlu lah sebab ada bik tolong handle clara kalau saya drive. We will go this afternoon kalau dia masih demam tapi sejak makan ubat pagi tadi badan dia dah tak panas lagi. Baring depan TV tengok ceria. lepas satu satu kartun. lepas tu nyanyi-nyanyi lagu cina jepun semua dia nyanyi. Bagi makan tak mahu, minum susu saja.

Ni nak cerita pasal malam tadi. Kan sebelum saya ada bagitahu saya rasa macam ada something pelik je dalam rumah ni. 2 minggu ni tak ada apa-apa tapi malam tadi masa saya baru nak tidur dalam pukul 2 lebih dan Clara ada kat sebelah, baru-baru nak lena saya rasa macam mimpi ke tak mimpi ke tapi ada budak kecil datang sebelah katil. Dia pegang tangan saya. Saya rasa macam badan saya dah tak boleh gerak dah. Tangan kecil tu rasa sejukk sangat. Tangan tu lebih kecil dari tangan Clara. Dia pegang lama. Saya tak nampak figure atau apa-apa tapi dapat rasa tangan tu pegang. Lepas dalam 2 minit kot dia lepaskan, rasa 2 minit tu pun macam lama sangat sebab saya takut.

Bila dapat gerakkan badan tu saya bangun dan buka lampu. Memangla tak ada apa-apa, kalau ada harus pitam kat situ jugak. Tengok clara tidur selimut sampai leher. Mustahil juga tangan Clara sebab bila saya pegang tangan dia tak ada sesejuk itu.
Lepas tu saya tak tutup lampu dan tak boleh tidur. Cuba baca buku tapi fikiran entah ke mana-mana. Saya tak sedar bila saya tertidur sampai tersedar alarm bunyi pukul 5.30am.

That was creepy. Sampai sekarang boleh rasa tangan kecil yg sejuk itu dalam genggaman saya.

Wet day

2011-10-31T17:58:00.001+08:00

Raining again.
Feel so cold in this office.
Just had my cup of hot tea with left over mcD chips from my lunch.
Had GCB set and like it so much as I always like bbq and that kind of taste.
I always like my chips with extra black pepper and chili.
If only it still hot I can finish it up.
Too lazy to go to the pantry and put it in the microvawe.
Blah ah.

Clara had fever again last night so I have to go back early today. Eddie wanted to ask me to accompany him for dinner meeting tonight but I said
'Sorry I have a sick kid at home'
Arrogant kan?
Hehe he understood don't worry.
Eddie is as nice as a man could be.
But just can't understand when sometimes he could act like he is so down. And at the other time he could be as happy as a butterfly.
I got to move now.
Its raining and hate jam.
Bye

Anggurr

2011-10-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

Sedang melayan Clara makan anggur. Dia memang suka sangat makan buah-buahan. Apa-apa buah pun dia suka. Good for her.
Tapi kelakar sangat bila dia cakap

"Nana buang tulang dulu"

Tulang?
Okey okey maksud dia buang biji dulu lah. Haih pening pala Nana fikir tulang apa pulak. Clara clara..

:)

Untuk yang beri komen dan pendapat pada entri sebelum ni saya ucapkan terima kasih banyak-banyak. Sedikit sebanyak membuka mata dan fikiran saya. Saya hargai. Saya ambil secara positif. Harap yang tersimpul akan terungkai sebaiknya seiring dengan masa. Insyaallah.
Thanks because you care

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Clara

2011-10-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

Saya baru lepas ambil wudhuk pakai telekung nak tunggu masuk waktu maghrib duduk-duduk dulu layan Clara lukis-lukis. Lepas tu dia cakap
"Clara nak solat jugak Nana"

Macamana ye. Serba salah kan. Perkara ni saya tak ada bincang dengan mama clara. Clara di sini pun entah sekejap entah lama. Semuanya macam pending. Menambahkan lagi kesukaran.

Satu-satu perlu diselesaikan. Jalan yang mana nak bawa Clara. Atau sementara ni biar saya pimpin dia bersama saya.

Esok Nana belikan telekung untuk Clara ye. Kita solat sama-sama.

Nana sayang Clara. Hugss

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Gerram

2011-10-25T17:22:00.000+08:00

Almost lost my voice calling supplier to look for venue for our new coming group next month. Then I had a break and downloaded several songs. I need it for my exercise session. Dah bosan dengan lagu-lagu lama.

Eddie is not in today. He is in physically. But his mind is not here. Nampak kusut dan serabut.
Went to him and asked
"Awak ok ke? What's wrong?"
He smiled and said
"Okey..okey"

Okey, since u said okey, its okey lah.
Bluweek eddie. You are not okey. Hate you. At least tell me lah what's ur problem.

I heard dia kena lecture dengan bos also. Boss was not angry. Tapi kena lecture. Ceramah.

Petang ni nak bawak clara and bibik keluar. Maybe to Sunway pyramid nak jalan-jalan je. Tengok wayang pun best jugak. Since esok cuti kan. Kesian dua orang tu asyik kena tinggal di rumah aje. Mesti boring. Nak balik mandi lepas maghrib bolehla keluar.

I make my way now okey..enjoy ur holiday people and Happy Deepavali.
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Monday blueS

2011-10-24T15:58:00.000+08:00

I wish today is still Sunday.
Sangat malas nak datang kerja. Rasa nak duduk rumah aje boleh main-main dengan Clara. Semalam belikan dia buih sabun dia punya la suka main. Gelak-gelak sampai saya tak larat nak layan dia. Dah la tak sampai 10 saat bagi dia pegang botol buih sabun tu terus tumpah. Nasib baik dia tak jatuh sebab licin lantai. Hehe funny.

Pagi tadi dia bangun dan tengok saya bersiap nak ke ofce, dia gi ambik beg dia nak ikut sama. nasib baik makan pujuk janji petang ni saya balik bawak dia keluar jalan. Barulah dia cakap okey. Clara dah mula boring duduk rumah so its the time nak daftarkan dia ke kindergarten.
Weekend nanti nak gi survey mana-mana yang bagus. Qdees atau Smart Reader? Saya sebenarnya suka Genius Awlad tapi jauh sangat dengan rumah saya. Takut tak sempat pagi-pagi nak hantar dia jalan ke sana jem teruk. Will see how.

Eddie tak banyak cakap hari ni. Look like ada masalah aje. I tak sempat nak bercerita dengan dia lagi coz bertimbun kerja. Skype pun ada problem kat ofce ni hari ni kalau tak bvoleh skype aje. Ajak keluar lunch pun dia kata tak lapar. Just.. pelik.
Anyway mungkin dia tak sihat or whatever lah. Tak perlu fikir lagi nak buat kerja sekarang. Daaa

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Our dinner

2011-10-22T20:30:00.004+08:00

Clara & bik Hera ikut diet malam ni.
Teriyaki chicken with Summer Salad.

We stayed in house today to recharge our batteries. Haha.
I'm getting better and hope tomorrow will be okey.

I have nothing to do so thinking to do some change to this blog look.
Bored with the old one?
How's now? Like it ?

Drop comment if u LIKE or DISLIKE =)))

A Thousand Years

2011-10-20T12:10:00.003+08:00

Last night Kevin called. Tapi saya tak ada suara nak cakap. Tried to yell but could not make a sound. Demn. I really want to talk to him. Lots of things i want to talk about. Geram sangat.
He knew that i am sick. He said 'i call you again when you feel better'

But when? SOo stressful.

This morning when i checked my email, i found this clip sent by him with the note of Get Well Soon

Thanks kevin. I have died everyday waiting for you.
Miss you so much.

Oh! no

2011-10-19T09:47:00.000+08:00

Tak sangka pulak berlarutan demam ni and last night was the nightmare coz I couldn't breath. Short breath. Tak pernah dapat asma lagi sebelum ni. Pergi klinik at 10pm. Doktor cakap mungkin lung infection sebab saya dah batuk-batuk lama. DoKtor tanya kalau saya nak admit kat hospital tapi fikirkan clara kesian pula dia. So I just asked for medicine dan doktor bagi nab & injection. If not okey still I kena masuk jugak.

Last night breathing was okey. Mubgkin sebab kena nab. But cough was bad. Really bad. Sampai clara pun terbangun in the middle of te night. Tanya 'why nana? U ok?' So sweet. clara memang tidur dengan saya since dia datang sini. So saya yang pindah pergi tidur bilik clara kesian dia tak boleh tidur.

This morning I lost my voice. Berbahasa isyarat sahaja. And cough still bad. I got 2 days mc. I want to rest but hope this sick will not stay long with me.
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Oh! Pavlova

2011-10-15T11:21:00.002+08:00

Oh yey!
Baru dapat pavlova yang saya order.
It's gonna make our weekend.
Bawak masuk rumah terus potong tak sabar nak makan.
Clara suka. Mungkin ni first time dia makan pavlova but she likes it.
Mungkin sebab dia suka makan buah-buah segala jenis buah.
Okey la next time boleh order lagi.
This time saya suruh buat style pie, bukan cake.
sebab nak rasa yang crunchy-crunchy tu lebih banyak.
Kalau cake pun sedap juga sebab yang lembut macam marshmallow kat tengah-tengah tu sedap juga. Then yang ni kalau nak kurang manis pun dia boleh buatkan. special utk yang jaga kesihatan or yang ada diabetes. still boleh enjoy pavlova kan.

Rasa manis, rangup, lembut, masam buah-buah. complete!

Okey have a wonderful weekend semua.
We are ! ;)

Jaga kesihatan

2011-10-13T15:10:00.000+08:00

Sekarang musim demam. So kena jaga kesihatan okey.
Little clara pun demam. Since last nite lagi dia macam down sikit rupanya nak demam. This morning bila saya nak ke office tengok dia masih tidur. Selalunya dia akan ikut bangun tengok saya bersiap then bye bye saya.

Bila rasa kepala dia panas. Saya tak ada reserve ubat apa-apa untuk dia lagi. So terus bawa dia gi klinik. Next time saya kena reserve ubat kan.. Kool fever ke ape. Supaya kalau malam-malam senang kalau emergency.
Saya rasa macam kelam kabut sikit la sebab semua macam first time. So mesti ada tertinggal dan terlupa sana sini.

Saya terpaksa ke office juga sebab ada important meeting hari ni. Tinggalkan clara dengan bik hera tapi make sure every hour tanya condition dia. Bik cakap suhu dah menurun dari pagi tadi. Cuma dia macam tak aktif sangat. Tak sabar nak balik ni. Hope she will be ok.

Malam tadi saya tiba-tiba rasa salah sebab tak bagitau kevin pasal clara. Sampai sekarang saya takut nak bgtahu dia. Dia mungkin kecil hati sebab big decision macam ni saya tak bagitahu dia. Its too late sebab dah berlaku. Tunggu bila saya betul confident baru nak cakap.

Ok back to work. Waiting for 5pm to chow !
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When I get hungry @ the office

2011-10-11T18:18:00.001+08:00

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I believe i can

2011-10-11T11:49:00.001+08:00

Yes, I have taken the courage to bring the girl here.
It happened unplanned.
When it was the time to send clara to her house on Friday morning, she cried histerically.
Wouldn’t let me go.
I cried too.
Jen was the one who asked if I wanted to take her with me.
I didn’t believe she wants this to happen. As a mother.
She of course love her daughter.
But she said, she rather see clara loved by me rather than she lives wihout full care and protection.
She can’t help much since there are another two children she needs to take care off.
Without a husband and a permanet job.

I called mama.
Within 5 seconds she said yes.
I know how much she loves clara too.
She was the one who always ask me to bring clara home.
I wanted to tell kevin.
But I changed my mind.
It’s not that kevin is not important to give his opinion but I want to make this decision myself.
Clara is important to me.
Kevin still doent know about clara is here.
I don’t know what will he say. He loves clara too so I hope he wouldn’t mind.
I’ll talk to him later.
The most important thing is I can see her now in fornt of me.
Everyday.
Don’t know until when.
But at least for now.

Is this the right thing I’ve done?
Can you give 100% focus on her Arianna ?

I believe i can
Insyaallah

I'm home.... and guess what?

2011-10-08T19:46:00.006+08:00

To the maxx

2011-10-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

Time run so fast.
2morrow dah Friday??
And I have to go back to kl already omg.
How sad cannot imagine.
Clara is sleeping next to me.
After she watched spongebob at my bb lepas satu dan satu. And giggled.
Rasa nak join je sekali but I had to finish up the wrapping and costing for eddie tomorrow.
He will go to site and I stay in hotel with clara.
Not fair to him if I don't help.
Bila boss call selalu cakap yes I'm with eddie.
Nasib baik tak kantoi lagi yang saya sibuk melayan clara.
Eddie cool. Dia tak de nak bising pun.
Walaupun dia sibuk macam ape.
Sesekali dia call tanya saya & clara kat mana.
Biasanya jawapan, kami kat mall.
Kami makan.
Kami kat kedai toys.
Kami beli coklat.
Wah macam gi holiday pulak.
Okey I am so sleepy.
I Got to sleep now.
Till later
Nyte :)
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Finally

2011-10-05T17:01:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah.
Syukur sangat.
She is finally in my arm.
She is so thin.
She is thinner than the last time I saw her.
But she has grown up.
Beautifully.
Just can't let my eyes away from her.
I want to watch her.
Sekarang rasa separuh hati saya yang berat dengan perasaan rindu sudah hilang.
She ran to me and hold ne tight when she first saw me.
I know that she missed me too.
I took her with me to hotel today.
I don't know where is eddie but he must be very bz without me helping.
Now I want to take her out for dinner.
She said she wants to eat ayam goreng.
No problem darling.
Come !
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First day yang meletihkan

2011-10-03T18:09:00.000+08:00

Hello kk.
I miss you.
1st 1st sampai di airport malam tadi jari terus tekan-tekan phone call kevin.
Tak boleh tahan my feeling of missing him.
Rindu yang menyesakkan nafas.
Lagi-lagi bila sampai di tempat di mana dia saya temui.
Eddie sibuk cari teksi, saya sibuk calling kevin.
Sorry eddie, hope u understand.
Kevin was happy too that I called.
And he already told his sister that I'm in kk so she will come to the hotel to see me tonight.
Miss her too.

Talking about today, I really don't have time to excuse myself ke rumah Jen to see clara.
Pity eddie nak tinggalkan dia seorang pun tak boleh sebab bz sgt.
Eddie asked me to go.
Sampai dia tolak-tolak saya keluar ke tepi jalan cari transport ke sana. Haha
But I went in back, just couldn't leave him alone doing the job. Even dia faham saya rindu clara setengah mati.
Esok.
Insyaallah.
I wish.
Ohh so happy nyaa

Just came back to the room.
Bought something to eat coz I'm so hungry. I didn't have lunch earlier sebab sakit perut.
Hope this tuna and bun and apples will treat me nice.
Till later :)

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Packing and happy

2011-10-01T11:06:00.001+08:00

I hate to pack if I am leaving someone I love but this time I love to pack because I'm going to see someone I love.
How nice. Berdebar juga tak tau if she will like me as she did before. If she still love me like before.
Tapi bila call dia malam tadi bagitau aunty Nana nak datang she sounds happy je. And jen also happy to hear that I'm coming there.
Eddie dapat pergi sebab abah dia dah okey.
Semalam saya nak pergi melawat kat hospital tapi eddie call petangnya bagitahu abah dia dah dapat keluar.
Nasib baik tak serius sangat.
Eddie suruh datang juga pergi rumah dia.
Tapi since abah dia dah okey then maklong saya pun call minta tolong sikit kat rumah dia malam tadi tak jadi la saya pergi rumah eddie. Terus ke rumah maklong je lepas kerja.
Anyhow dah bagitahu eddie saya akan bawak banyak barang utk clara. He said its okey. Dia pun ada belikan clara mainan. Sure budak kecik tu suka sangat nanti dapat macam-macam. Not to forget saya belikan baju untuk 2 adik clara juga.
Emm smell mee goreng lah bik tengah masakkan. Lapar nak gi makan dulu. Perut dah bunyi. Kalau hati senang asyik je la rasa lapar.
Sampai choclairs ni pun saya tak sedar dah habiskan 3/4 botol since last week. Gile overdose gula dah. Patutla happy semacam
hehe

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Clara mesti sukai

2011-09-29T15:45:00.000+08:00

Jalan-jalan time lunch tadi sempat singgah mothercare carikan baju clara. I dah beli 5 pasang tapi masih rasa nak beli lagi.
She's just too cute la rasa macam semua nampak comel kalau dia pakai.
Okey, back to the story, then saya nampak doll house ni. Ala comel sgt. Tapi quite large lah. Nak bwk naik flight mesti sedikit besar nih. tapi mesti clara suka sangat ni.
Mesti dia mula-mula senyum malu-malu tengok ni lepas tu terus main tak nak stop.
Aduii rasa happy la hati saya sekarang ni
Tak boleh stop senyum-senyum

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Not so good news

2011-09-29T10:26:00.001+08:00

Last night masa dah tidur separuh jalan dan mimpi tengah mandi laut yang best sangat sebab kalau reality agak takutkan laut, terkejut sebab phone berbunyi.
Tiba-tiba rasa berdebar sebab family jauh kan, kalau bunyi phone tengah malam rasa takut juga kalau-kalau ada emergency.
Tapi bila tengok phone terkejut juga.

Incoming call

Eddie

Kenapa dia call tengah malam ni. Terus terbayang abah dia. Risau kot ada apa-apa jadi. Abah dia kan tak sihat.

Eddie : Assalamualaikum
Saya : Waalaikumsalam. Ada apa eddie..
Eddie : Tak ada apa. Saja.
Saya : Ahh? Terkejut lah. Ada emergency ke?
Eddie : Kat hospital ni.
Saya : Kenapa?
Eddie : Abah. Tadi sesak nafas. Sekarang dalam wad.
Saya : Lahh..dia teruk ke?Eddie : Okey dah sikit. Dah dapat tidur. Tadi macam semput sangat.
Saya : Ohhh..harap tak apa-apa lah dia
Eddie : Okey. Sorry kacau. Tiba-tiba rasa nak call awak. Sebab dah tak ada orang lain lagi nak call
Saya : Tak pe.
Eddie : Takpelah Arianna, kesian awak nak tidur. So sorry. Don’t know why I dialed your number.
Saya : Eh tak apa lah. boleh je kalau nak cerita apa-apa. Tak kisah.

Lepas tu terus borak-borak cerita macam-macam. Kesian dia. At least boleh saya tolong tenangkan dia kalau dia risau sangat. Borak sampai 4 pagi.
Hari ni Eddie Emergency Leave. My kepala pulak dah ting tong. Ngantuk. Kerja banyak ni. Boss pun dah pening in case Eddie cannot make it to KK, dia or other staff kena replace. That’s not a good news to me. Sebab I maybe susah nak curi time gi jumpa Clara nanti kalau boss ada.
Hope everything will be fine these few days.
Kalau sempat nak gi melawat abah eddie petang ni.

Got to continue with the pending work first. Till then..

Magical

2011-09-28T15:47:00.000+08:00

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Berbunga-bunga

2011-09-27T10:21:00.000+08:00

This morning

Lady Boss : Arianna & Eddie, you both nak pergi KK nanti. To save company’s money, I have to book a sharing room for you both. Okey?
Me : Share room? (Nooo)
Eddie : Nevermind, book for Arianna only.
Me : And you?
Lady Boss : Where are you going to stay?
Eddie : I got friends there. Tak kisah mana-mana pun. Just book for Arianna. She’s a girl can’t simply sleep anywhere.
Lady Boss : So sweet of you Eddie. You know that I’m not that cruel. Just joking lah. Ask Jessie to book 2 rooms and flight ticket too. Fly off Sunday okey, Monday to Friday your group. Back on Friday night.
Me : Sure, no problem (Hati berbunga bunga. Yey yey rasa nak lompat situ juga)

Dah tak fikir pasal kerja lagi. Gonna meet my little Clara next week. Tak sabar nyee

:))))))

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Are we okey?

2011-09-26T15:13:00.002+08:00

Selalu ada soalan itu antara kami

"Are we okey?"

Kadang-kadang kevin tanya saya, kadang-kadang saya tanya kevin.
Apa tandanya tu?
Mungkin sebab sesekali kena kejutkan sesiapa yang tidur supaya back to the track. Atau bila tanya tu tanda nya keadaan tidak berapa baik?

Well, tak tahulah..yang pasti soalan itu saya yang tanya semalam.
Coz i felt like left behind. Missing.
And jawapannya masih sama.

"Of course dear. Nothing's changed"

Or are we waiting for the time when the answer is not the way we want to hear?

I hate it now. I hate it when we are separated.

My life is not interesting anymore, and my blog too.. -.-"

My readers can feel it. Kan kan kannnnnnn ????????

Siapa boleh tolong ?

2011-09-24T15:08:00.003+08:00

Tension nya bila buka blog ada iklan kat tepi tu, tu kat tepi tu.
You all nampak tak bila buka blog ni?
Ke i sorang je yang nampak?
I didnt sign up for any advert like that so kenapa tiba-tiba ada menepek kat tepi tu.
Kacau ah..

Ada sapa-sapa pandai boleh tolong ajar saya macam mana nak buang iklan tu.
Help me please

Kalau dapat income takpe jugak kan ?? Hehe

Focus focus focus

2011-09-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

I am tied with a lots of work. Happening and incoming. I wanted to write but at the same time got no idea and I am just too lazy to think maybe. I logged in and logged out. Thehehe
I just jumped to several blogs, read them and click X. Don’t even bother to give comment pun. So lazy me.
I admit.
Thanks to those yang masih sudi bagi komen or write to me in email. Love you.

We are short of staffing here coz a colleague has resigned last 2 weeks. So his works come under me now.
And he liked to pending pending his job and play around. At the end of the time, he quit and left me with a whole burden. Eddie tried to help clearing his mess also but he got another lots of work also.

And our trip to KK also has been postponed. Left me in stress!
More stress as I don’t get to see my baby there. I thought of meeting her this week so I have prepared many things to bring to her. It has been few months since we last met. Im sure clara has grown up. Dem miss her so much.

During lunch today
Eddie : Nak makan ape?
Me : Ntah. Tak selera
Eddie : What’s with the sour face?
Me : Nothing
Eddie : Ok kalau tak nak makan kita gi bowling je lah
Me : Lunch hour ni?
Eddie : Tak salah kan

Betul juga. Apa salahnya.
Hilang stress dapat gelak-gelak.

I know eddie pun susah hati sebab banyak kerja. Lagi ayah dia tak sihat.
But he looks cool. And always smile when I looked at him from my work station.
I wish I can stay focus like him.

Cos I am loosing focus now.

-_-“

(◕‿◕) Tempahan dibuka lagi : Doomagic Pillowcase

2011-09-20T12:30:00.005+08:00

Yes, tempahan dibuka lagi kepada yang missed utk order yang lepas boleh lah mengambil kesempatan ini ye. kepada yang email request dan kat fb juga sekarang order dah buka lagi. hope u happy :). cepat pilih dan email saya. Cuma kali ni harga dah naik sikit sebab harga sudah dinaikkan oleh supplier, so no choice. Naik singgit aje. Tak banyak hehe..

Design
RABBIT,CAT,FISH,DINO,HORSE,DOG

LAST BATCH SOLD MORE THAN 100pcs

Price :
1-2pcs RM33 each
3pcs and above RM31 each

Postage

+RM7 semenanjung
+RM9 sabah/sarawak

Measurement
-80*55cm

Material - ultra soft 250 thread count sateen cotton material
Parts of the animal are filled with premium poly fill
Pillowcases are also machine washable and durably constructed
Fits a standard size pillow

6 Design to choose (Dog, Horse, Rabbit, Cat, Fish and Dino)
Pre order
Full payment required
Please make payment in 2 days
Estimate to arrive in November 11

Kepada yang berminat boleh e-mail saya :

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Sertakan

CAT
1) Nurulhuda (paid)
2) Nurulhuda (paid)
3) Nurulhuda (Paid)
4) Ahmad Mauluddin (Paid)
5) Putri Zulaikha (Paid)
6) Nurulhidayu (Paid)
7) Marina (paid)
8) Farah Azyan (paid)
9) Norhayati S (paid)
10) Norafida (paid)
11) Fazhana
12) Emy Zuraina (paid)
13) Wan Najwatul (Paid)

HORSE
1) Nurul Syahieza (paid)
2) Marina (paid)
3) Fazhana
4) Siti Saodah
5) Siti Saodah

FISH
1) Norhayati S (paid)
2) Norafida (paid)
3) Bella (paid)
4) Noor Sazleen
5) Emy Zuraina (paid)
6) Syzn Rzki (paid)

RABBIT
1) Nurul Syahieza (paid)
2) Nurulhidayu (paid)
3) Sherlly (paid)
4) Fazhana
5) Wan Najwatul (paid)
6) Rabiatul Adawiyah
7) Farra Rahman

DINO

1) Monica Lok (paid)
2) Nurul Syahieza (paid)
3) Farah Azyan (paid)
4) Khairunnisa (paid)
5) Bella bella (paid)
6) Nazzian (paid)
7) Emma Audrey
8) Noor Sazleen
9) Ainina
10) Emy Zuraina (paid)
11) Akma & Rai (paid)
12) Sha Cute (Paid)
13) Sha Cute (Paid)
14) Farra Rahman

3 years and still counting..

2011-09-16T13:44:00.002+08:00

Time flies so fast...

Rasa macam baru je kenal dia. Macam baru je buat keputusan berani terima dia ke dalam hidup saya walaupun tahu jalan di depan sangat mencabar dan berliku.
Tanggungjawab yang diambil akan digalas ke akhirnya.
Walaupun happy or sad ending, i'll make it to the end.

No. There's no celebration or wishes from either one of us.
To celebrate this 3rd anniversary.
Should it be celebrated??

I dont know.

But some one has asked me out today.
And i accepted it.
Just to cure my heart ache.
I guess..

Anyway,
kevin, happy 3rd year together.
We are still counting..and i still love you.

So much.

I miss you kev =,(

Bayang-bayang

2011-09-14T11:09:00.001+08:00

hye
Quite a bz week
Don't really have time to write
Ada group minggu ni, 3 group pulak tu sekali masuk so we all sgt sgt busy
Tak jadi lagi ke sabah minggu ni
Because of this group
Minggu depan mungkin
And boss said that I can go with eddie
Yea yea yea
Happy terus call clara bagitahu
Tell her aunty nana will come to see you
And she is happy too
:)))

These few days kan, seems like I ternampak bayang-bayang hitam la selalu
Of course la bayang-bayang warna hitam
But the thing is that wasnot my bayang
Macam nampak kat ekor-ekor mata
Macam last nite masa tengah masak nasi goreng kat dapur ada nampak macam ada orang masuk dapur so I tot itu bik hera.
I pun cakap malam ni kita makan nasi goreng ye
Tapi diam
So I pusing tengok tak ada orang
Pelik. Lepas tu panggil bibik dia cakap dia kt atas tak ada turun bawah
Great

Hari tu masa bangun pagi I terus ke depan on tv
Macam nampak bayang orang kat dapur so who else I ingat bik la
Tiba-tiba bibik masuk dari pintu depan baru lepas siram pokok
Huh ???!!!

Ok
Mungkin my brain is playing around
Sebab I rasa selalu sunyi dlm rumah ni
Banyak bilik tak pakai sekarang
Dan selalu rindu family
So otak mungkin ciptakan appearance mcm tu utk hiburkan hati I
Logik tak ???

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Hoodies Jilbab Cool

2011-09-11T18:32:00.000+08:00

Wow!

First time tengok ni terus teruja rasa macam nak cakap wow wow banyak kali. Smart betul ni. Seriously hoodies jilbab sangat cool.

Walaupun bertudung masih boleh nampak sangat bergaya.

Gaya model dan artis je bayangkan kalau pakai hoodies ni dan makan kat mamak. Mesti orang asyik menoleh aje tengok.

Kepada yang tidak bertudung pun ada style sendiri boleh pakai ni. jeans or short. HOT babeh

Okey siapa nak join kelab hoodies jilbab mari sini.

Certain color dah ada ready stock. siapa cepat dia dapat.

I suka turqoise ! My fav color. u ?

Okey harganya RM60

Tidak termasuk postage

Boleh email saya kalau berminat : blackribboncloset@yahoo.com

Sertakan nama/ alamat/ phone no/ color/ kuantiti

Update : Now color available are Yellow,Purple,Blue,Pink,Dark brown,Grey

Semakin kurus?

2011-09-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

Emak dah bising kenapa gambar raya nampak semakin kurus?
Errr..
Dia sambung lagi, kalau macam tu datang pindah sini je.
Ye, kalau dekat dengan emak, makan pakai terurus. Nak makan ape je emak masakkan. kalau tak ada selera, emak carikan makanan untuk terbitkan selera kita.
Okeylah, kena gemukkan badan sedikit untuk kurangkan tanggapan negatif emak.

Bad day

2011-09-09T21:09:00.000+08:00

I had a bad day. Feels like singing sad songs.
Lalalala

My car broke down on the way to the office today. Then had headache all day. Adding to that kena makian dari customer yg tak puas hati dengan restoran yang saya arrangekan. Restoran spoiled tapi saya yang kena. Nice.

Left the office sharp sharp at 5. Give up. Malas nak fikir. Went in midV jalan-jalan. Went up went down. Bookstore, mothercare, carikan baju utk clara. Toys r us. Bla bla bla. Eddie text me every 15mins asking where am I. Dia cakap risau saya gi mana. Huh gile dia takkan pegi bunuh diri pula.

Ok now I want to enjoy my laksa and soya bean.
Dah. Lepas ni I think I'll be absolutely fine.

Bismillah...

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Snackin for bfast

2011-09-07T10:07:00.000+08:00

Bring this for snack time but since I got nothing to eat for bfast and feel so hungry so ini pun boleh lah.

Eddie is at kepong today and is not coming to the office so rasa boring sikit. Why I have to mention his name often because he is the one whom I communicate and see most of the time everyday besides bik hera. So pls excuse him. Hihi

Next week eddie gonna go to kk. Last time eddie tak jadi pergi. And I m going to propose myself to join him to my lady boss. Ya Allah bukakanlah pintu hati dia utk bagi green lighT.
Rindu sangat sangat dgn clara. Saya ada belikan dia baju kurung utk raya wpun dia tak ada utk raya sama-sama. Last week dia demam. Rasa nk nangis dengar suara dia serak-serak sebab batuk kuat. I wonder dia dijaga dgn betul tak. Siapa jaga waktu mkn ubat, siapa selimutkan dia malam-malam.
Tsk

I got to continue working..till then

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Happy Bday

2011-09-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

I don't know that today is his birthday. Dia pulak yg belanja dinner dan masa hantar balik baru dia bagitahu hari ni birthday dia.

Happy birthday eddie. Nice dinner. Thanks.

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Maaf batin & zahir

2011-09-02T13:10:00.000+08:00

Back to work. Office pun sunyi sepi. Beberapa orang je kerja. Tapi boss pagi-pagi dah masuk office.
How workaholic. Wish to be like her.

But anyway I feel like its good also that I am back to work today. Tak tahan dah dalam mood raya. Coz it killing me. Haha. 2 hari spend raya rumah maklong. Melayan tetamu dan saudara mara datang. Raya ke-3 dah balik rumah bagitahu maklong ada kerja nak buat. Padahal pressure. When everytime makan atau dengar lagu raya mesti hati jadi sedih. Manja sangat kan. Pagi-pagi raya mama call pun dah berderai air mata. So did Mama lah. Apa lagi kan. Dia cakap dia lagi sedih sebab tak complete anak-anak sambut raya. Lagipun kat tempat orang tak sama macam kat sini. And papa called me from his office. Nice, pagi raya ada conference call dengan overseas client. Lagi kesian.

On 2nd day raya Eddie call pagi-pagi. Dia tanya boleh datang raya tak. Kesian dia. Mintak izin bagai. Ajaklah dia datang walaupun bukan rumah sendiri tapi maklong tak kisah pun kalau kawan datang raya. Open house raya kan. So eddie datang lah. jamu dia makan semua. Dia kata rumah dia tak ada apa-apa. Dia nak masak tapi abah dia cakap tak payah sebab tak ada orang pun akan datang beraya. Alamak kesiannya. So, saya tapaukan dia rendang, ketupat dan lontong kirim kat abah dia. Fahmy terkejut tengok saya ajak eddie datang rumah dia ingat itu bf baru saya. Bunguk. Tapi saya tengok eddie pandai bawak diri. dan maklong cakap baik budak tu. Eh tiba-tiba semua nak usik-usik sampai eddie pun jadi segan. Saya rilek je. Buat apa nak segan. No heart feelings.

Semalam baru dapat call dari Kevin. Wish me selamat hari raya. Walaupun terlewat 3 hari tapi its fine as long as he still remember. Tak nak lah merajuk or marah-marah. Don’t want to waste my time sulking. No point juga. As long as he called, feel good and happy coz waiting for it since weeks ago. Kevin cakap dia busy dengan mid term exam. Whatever. I don’t care.
Dengar suara dia pun dah bagi sedikit semangat pada saya. Guess u know how u could be when missing some one. Makan tak kenyang, mandi tak basah. Told him that i’m happy he call but I’m fine and doing everything i want to do now. Maksud saya, saya buat apa yang saya nak sekarang tanpa dia tahu dan dapat lihat. Dia kata dia tak dapat buat apa-apa sebab dia tak ada di sini. Rumit tapi dia serahkan pada saya untuk jaga apa yang saya buat. Dan pesan supaya jangan sesekali lupakan dia.

Things getting complicated and gap getting wider and wider.
But love is still there.

Susah nak explain. SO don’t confused yourself thinking.
There are several e-mails I received, already read them and emails are about myself, Kevin and eddie too.. =) now eddie pun dah terinvolved. Kalau dia tahu apa dia rasa ye. Hehe. but telling u that I feel comfortable with him. as a friend he is very kind and feel easy to talk and do whatever together. But that doesn’t mean apa-apa lah. he is just another one man Im lucky to meet in this world besides Kevin.

Thanks for writing. Insyaallah saya akan balas nanti. Million thanks for your advices. Appreciate it. lucky to have readers who care…

Last but not least, ucapan selamat hari raya untuk semua readers bvlgarigirl.blogspot.com
I’ll keep on writing insyaallah selagi ada kisah untuk dikongsikan.
Mohon maaf batin dan zahir.

Sibuk ke?

2011-08-27T14:27:00.005+08:00

Sorry sebab sekali lagi dah overreacted kan..nak dekat raya feel like emo terlebih. but thanks for your support dan doa. terharu juga sebab walaupun kita semua tak kenal dalam dunia realiti tapi masih ada juga rasa simpati dan sayang anda kat saya ye =)

Pagi tadi bibik cakap tengah malam semalam ada orang call cari saya. dia call phone rumah. baru ingat semalam my handphone out of batt, malas nak cas terus tidur. tapi kan berdebar saya rasa. rasa terkilan pulak. if kevin yang call tu macamana. i've been waiting tapi bila time saya tak dapat terima call, time tu mngkin dia yang call. geram sangat. bibik cakap dia tak beritahu nama dan tinggalkan pesan. he just hang up bila bibik cakap saya dah lama tidur. Tsk.

Nevermind, u guys mesti sekarang sedang sibuk buat persiapan untuk beraya tu kan? mesti dah balik kampung dan bersama keluarga. as for me, merenung langsir yang tak berganti. merenung atas kabinet tak ada kuih raya beratur macam biasa kalau ada mama. Malas nak kemas dan beria. Kalau mama call pun cakap dont talk about raya ok.

Hari ni sambung marathon Felicity dah 4 jam so stop kejap nanti sambung lagi malam.
kalau u guys nak join boleh juga :) http://www.youtube.com/user/mallomar100

Eddie call tadi tanya saya buat apa, berbuka kt mana, dia pun mesti bosan kat rumah. they are only 2 of them. eddie cakap since her mother left, abah dia tak pernah nak bermeriah sangat sambut raya. so mereka dah biasa macam tu. pergi sembahyang raya, balik rumah macam biasa dan tak ke mana-mana. saudara mara pun tak ada. mcmana lah kan. so saya tanya eddie kalau tahun ni dia nak sambut? dia kata okey. tapi kena ajar dia macamana. ..kesian nya.
rupanya ada lagi orang yang lebih tidak bernasib baik daripada saya. Insaf.

Bibik masak kurma ayam untuk berbuka. dia cakap dia rasa nak makan kurma ayam sangat. saya cakap masaklah apa yang bibik rasa nak masak. kalau saya nak makan saya makan. saya dah beli siap-siap lauk dan sayur semalam sebelum balik rumah. mainly untuk bibik makan. coz saya tak kisah sangat apa makanan ada saya makan aje.

Maklong dah call2 ajak tidur rumah dia aje sampai raya. will be going there tomorrow lah kot since my maktok akan sampai esok. rindu nya nenek saya tu. saya dah belikan dia jubah utk raya ni mesti dia suka.

okey talk to u later...

Maaf, sekadar luahan

2011-08-26T16:43:00.003+08:00

Saya nak fikir mimpi tu mainan tidur atau syaitan yang ganggu fikiran saya. Tapi betul juga sekarang dalam bulan ramadhan, bulan keberkatan. Kalau itu petunjuk yang diberikan Allah macamana kan? What is hiding beside our relationship now I pun tak tahu. Saya jarang luahkan rasa macam ni, tapi siapa tak risau dan terfikir bukan-bukan bila dia tiada depan mata. Tried to avoid and tell myself that I have to trust him, but just could not.

Or maybe I miss him so much and worried at the same time. So I overreacted. I miss him until I could suddenly menangis teresak-esak dalam kereta bila tengok ada couple melintas jalan yg nampak sangat loving. Saya pernah makan sambil menangis tapi terus makan dan makan sebab hati sakit. Saya pernah tiba-tiba tengah buat kerja kat ofis tiba-tiba rasa rindu lari ke toilet nangis dan nangis, lepas tu masuk ofis mata bengkak. Hari tu masa clara ada saya pernah teringat Kevin dan peluk clara sambil nangis, clara pelik dan tepuk-tepuk belakang saya cakap ‘Nana stop crying’ macam saya pujuk dia kalau dia nangis.

It has been awhile since he called. 16 days. To me it was too long I didn’t hear his voice. Every morning I check my phone if I got a missed call, sometimes I woke up in the night checking my phone. Sometimes I afraid to sleep I just didn’t want to miss his call. coz he usually call at night. He was not on skype when I went online. He did text me whenever he is free. It was short and sweet like ‘I miss you today’, ‘sorry I am so busy’, ‘take care dear’ and bla blabla

But I just didn’t fell it right to my heart. I feel like he text me because he just had to do that.

And again maybe I am the one who is overreact over nothing. Whatever happen, I would say that.. it’s not him, it’s me.

And this hari raya will be much harder for me. Tiada kesayangan di sisi. semua di kejauhan.

Thanks for lending me your shoulder to cry on.

(†)

2011-08-24T17:54:00.002+08:00

Last night I dreamt of Kevin.

It was nowhere i know. We were walking in a jungle. A scary jungle..it was a long journey through. Huge trees, shallow narrow way. It was quite. Not even sound of birds or river flow. We just walked and walked and after some time I got tired..
i stop to rest and cried.

Kevin calmed me down and asked me to carry on. He looked at me but where is his shiny eyes? Like every time I saw in his eyes, it’s not there. The stare was blank. He really wanted us to go to the place I didn’t know. I just followed him puzzled.

When we arrived at a place looked like a small field surrounding with trees, he asked me to sit on a rock in the middle of the field. He then handed me a necklace with a pendant. He put it in my arm. It shocked me that the pendant was actually a ‘cross sign’ (†)

He didn’t say anything but touched my chin and looked at my eyes like he wanted to tell something. But he didn’t. And suddenly he walked away… leaving me.

I called for his name and tried to run to him but I could not move.
I broke into tears when I didn’t see him anymore. He went into the jungle. Dissapeared.

I cried cried cried until I felt like choking. And suddenly realize that I was crying in my sleep.

I woke up in the dark and sat beside my bed crying till the dawn.

I really do not understand what was the dream wanted to tell me..
Till now i feel one kind.

Baju melayu

2011-08-23T16:06:00.002+08:00

Yuhu..
Been a while kan. Tiba-tiba rasa rindu nak menaip kat sini.
Nothing interesting lately. Pergi kerja, balik kerja. Sahur, buka puasa.
Bila malam spend time tengok tv, online, watch DVD.
Tu sebab bila boring mesti nak cari orang untuk dicall. Borak-borak sampai pengsan. Call kawan-kawan lama. Sure papa terkejut tengok phone bill rumah nanti haha.

Weekend hari tu Yaya datang. I miss perempuan tu so much. Yaya belum kerja lagi. Dia menolong kakak dia bisnes saja. Turun KL sebab nak shopping raya bukan sebab nak jumpa i. ceh. Dia spend satu malam kat rumah. banyak cerita nak diceritakan. and she still with Norman. alhamdulillah. suka tengok kawan bahagia..

Temankan Yaya shopping on Sunday. Sempat beli sepasang baju kurung putih yang sangat cantik. Ada jahit bunga sulam dan mutiara kat lengan dan leher. Suci sangat. Matiklah. Haha yaya takut tengok saya beli baju kurung putih. Dia cakap takut. Why ? gile dia.

Masa kat butik tu tengok jugak baju melayu. Cantik. Ada satu warna grey tu. Terus ingat kat Kevin. Yaya tanya nak beli ke? Saya angkat bahu je. Task sure. Tsk.

Putih + grey sesuai kan kalau berjalan sama-sama. Kalau pergi sembahyang raya sama-sama lepas tu pergi beraya rumah saudara & kawan-kawan sama-sama.

Berangan.

Bila raya mesti nak rindu orang-orang yang tersayang. Sebab hari raya tu lain. Hari raya kita nak bersama-sama dengan mereka.

I don’t know if I should buy baju melayu for Kevin like I did last year. Dia nak pakai pergi mana kan kat sana?
Or I just buy one and keep. Harap suatu hari nanti dia akan terima baju melayu tu. Ntah la..

Petang ni Eddie nak ajak temankan dia beli baju melayu. Sebab tu tiba-tiba teringat baju melayu grey tu.
Nanti berbuka dengan eddie kat midV lepas tu ke Jalan TAR. Eddie cakap kalau perempuan pilihkan baju melayu untuk dia mesti dapat yang lawa. Bila eddie cakap ‘Tolonglah..kita tak ada mak nak tolong pilihkan’
Okey lah okeylah, jangan buat kite sedih ok.

Rahsia Biskut Oats Susu gerenti sedap

2011-08-19T16:07:00.004+08:00

Meh nak syer resepi biskut gerenti sedap. Kepada yang tak pernah buat biskut dan tak pandai buat biskut pun akan menjadi terer serta merta. Bahan-bahannya pun senang aje tak leceh nak kena beli tepung kastard, tepung jagung, serbuk penaik semua..telur pun tak perlu. Biskut ni memang tak pernah miss mama buat setiap tahun. Malam tadi mintak resepinya dengan mama. Rasa macam nak buat sendiri. Mama email resepi sambil berpesan hantarkan ke bali 10 balang. Pengsan.

Siapa yang cuba buat dan berjaya, let me know yeh =P

BISKUT OATS SUSU

250g oats
250g gula caster
1 1/2 sudu makan serbuk koko
220g Ghee (Minyak sapi)
125g mentega
430g tepung gandum
susu tepung secukupnya

Satukan semua bahan kecuali susu tepung. Adun hingga sebati. Masukkan tepung sedikit demi sedikit sampai menjadi doh. Jangan masukkan semua sekaligus. Ambil sedikit adunan dan bulat2 kan membujur seperti bentuk biskut makmur. Bakar dalam ketuhar 160C sehingga masak. Bakar biar garing sikit baru sedap.

Biarkan biskut benar2 sejuk lalu digolekkan kedalam susu tepung.
Simpan dalam bekas dan tunggu raya baru makan yeh.

Tapi biasanya sebelum raya pun dah habis berbalang2 [-.-]'''

Raya freak

2011-08-17T14:32:00.000+08:00

I received bad news so my mood went swing swing la this few days. My dad doesn’t get any leave for hari raya so my family won’t be back. Papa asked me to go there to celebrate. And I just joined this company of course I don’t have annual leave yet. Only that 3 days public holiday and back to work on Friday. Are you kidding me? First raya puasa without parents and siblings?
I cant imagine and don’t want to imagine =,(

Maktok pun turun raya di kl rumah maklong sebab dia dah tak sihat. Fine, raya kat kl ajelah. with bibik.
Tsk.

That’s why I tak nak dengar lagu raya. Pergi jusco nak beli buah tadi pun terdengar lagu raya. Tak jadi beli buah. Pergi News diaorang pasang lagu Justin Bieber, ahaa..so lepak sana 1 jam sambil baca majalah free.
Lalalala

Masak masak

2011-08-13T16:51:00.002+08:00

Hari ni saya masak. Masak untuk adik-adik Sidd. Dah lama saya tak jumpa dia. Lama tak pergi jenguk mama dia di hospital. tiba-tiba teringat dengan mama dia malam tadi. so pagi-pagi call sidd cakap hari ni saya masakkan untuk mereka berbuka. sidd cakap hari-hari mereka makan makanan kat pasar ramadhan saja. dia atau ayah dia akan bergilir jaga mama dia. jadi salah sorang akan temankan adik-adik berbuka di rumah. rasa sedih sangat dengar macam tu. macamana ramadhan pertama mereka tanpa emak bersama-sama. kesian sangat.

Pagi tadi saya ajak bik hera ke pasar. beli lauk. saya masakkan rendang ayam, sup ikan merah, sayur campur dan daging goreng. Puas hati dapat masak macam ni dan bagi orang makan. walaupun rasa dia tak pasti lah sedap ke tidak kan tapi saya ikhlas. saya suruh sidd datang ambil je. tapi dia cakap dia ambil saya dengan bik sekali lah pergi berbuka rumah dia. sebelum pergi rumah dia singgah hospital hantar makanan ni untuk ayah dia berbuka dan jumpa mama dia.

Sidd cakap kejap lagi dia sampai. saya dan bik dah siap dah tunggu dia datang je. lepas buka karang dia hantar balik.

How i miss my mum. papa dan adik-adik. harap hari ni terhilang sikit kerinduan saya pada family sebab dapat berbuka dengan family sidd.

Selamat berbuka semua